Let me ask you a few questions so that I may give you an answer that hopefully may clear your mind a bit.
Are you ok with being gay?
Are you a good person?
Are you an honest person?
Have you ever done something wrong?
Do you care what others say about you?
What is more important to you, being good or being bad?
Leandro, my love, nice to see your post! Happy Holidays!
Back to business: your matrix is very similar to the one I applied to myself when I initially understood I was gay, and not straight as I had long imagined.
At first I wasn't sure I wanted to accept a verdict of gay - most of society seemed opposed to gays, and I didn't like being on the losing team, nor one with such an unsavory reputation.
But I turned the argument around: I know I'm a good person, per your questions. That's a known constant I believe in. I'm honest, don't do bad things (I'll be doing the Boy Scout pledge in a minute
), and so if I'm gay, then maybe not all gays are as bad and morally awful as I'd always heard? Maybe gays are good guys, too, and I shouldn't be ashamed to be one.
Perhaps a bit of mental trickery, some logic gaming, but it worked for me. And from that moment, and I literally mean that same day, I've been happy & proud to be gay, haven't regretted it for a minute.