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  • Henrysz

    Posts: 24

    Jan 06, 2013 7:49 AM GMT
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  • weneedlovetoo

    Posts: 92

    Jan 06, 2013 8:52 AM GMT
    ContraMundum saidhi guys, i am 20, and this is my story ....

    I truly want to find a real relationship, and truly fall in love once again,find a guy that truly loves me.I dated a guy several days before, and i really like him, thought he also liked me, but he doesn't in fact... i've been watching Youtube videos learning how to have successful dates, and i've been trying and i thought it worked, but it didn't, which made me feel so sad and down, i started to doubt myself, I am ugly? i am not cute? I am boring? I am useless? These things could completely destroy me.....I tried to please him, and thought i did, but at last not at all, but i am still very confused and i don't know what to do, we were happy together and we had fun, even for just two dates, and he told me that he really liked me..... but what's going on? He just left for travelling and i texted him, it seems that bored him so much, i have no idea what i did is wrong, i really don't understand, these three days it should have been very pleasant holidays for me, but it turns out that it's like i was sent to the hell,,,, no interest, no friends hanging out, no food, no nothing.... all i've been doing is waiting his text, and all i want is to see him again and say something and make everything clear, but he doesn't want to , i don't know why.... maybe he is travelling with his boyfriend? or another guy that he is dating? He told me that he broke up with his boyfriend, because of boyfriend drama, maybe he met me just for revenge?? All these thoughts come to my mind and they are killing me. I don't know what to do, completely lost, i was so happy that i met a nice guy that i like, really it's so hard to find one that i really like.... i started to doubt that if there is real love between gay people? or they just want to have fun or just sex when they are bored.... I don't know if it is my problem or his? i really want an explanation, because we were happy together and i truly believe that we could work out.....

    I had dated a guy before i met him, but he went back to london for study,,, he just dropped a message on skype saying that i am all back, missing you, hope all is well with you,,, and i couldn't even see him online until now, i think that i love him, i really love him, even though we just had very few time together, people may say that i am so silly in believing" love at first sight", but i really do, i never date a guy twice if i don't like him, and i really can fall in love with this guy very soon if i date him for another several times, sometimes i really worry about falling in love, because love is great, but sometimes love is really painful, you always have to consider a lot and want to know what he is doing, what he is thinking, or why he doesn't call, why he doesn' text? why he treats me like this? and all these things will definitely affect your work,your study, your life.... It's been several months and i am still thinking of him and trying to add his facebook, i tried so many ways that i just couldn't reach him...i feel really suck, and i cried sometimes at night and woke up at 4 o'clock in the morning , i am really so tired, i am thinking that even as a friend, he could accept my friend request and have a little chat sometimes when he is free, i just don't understand why he is doing this to me????

    My first boyfriend is Chinese, we met when i was in my last year of university, and he was a freshman, i didn't really want to fall in love at that time, but at last i did, we did really love each other, and i think that was real love, but unfortunately love finally cannot conquer distance,we broke up and i came to shenzhen,,,, he went to beijing and went to another school, i almost spent one year forgetting him, that year i didn't find any guy, i cried many nights listening to Canon, the piano, cos that's his favourite to play,,,, so sentimental.... i really want to be stronger and i don;t want to hurt anyone, but finally it turns out that anyone hurts me, life sometimes really sucks, i am so afraid of falling in love again, but i really want to fall in love with someone like i did before......

    I really need some time to adjust, and get over all these stuff, and i don't know if it is right to be gay....i need someone to talk to, but no one wants to listen to me....

    i am writing this, just it's the only way to express... have nobody to talk to.. icon_sad.gif lonely, always



    That is a long post. This story is not new, it happens to most people. I met this guy, he was everything I was looking for. We went out 5 times in a period of a month and everything was great, I thought i love him. I asked him if there is a potential in this relationship and he rejected it and said he just wanted to be friend. I tried adding him on facebook but he doesnt accept, maybe not to send a misleading signal?? I dont know. He takes an hour to reply to my text with a one word. I used to hurt more but not now, i'm stronger as time passes. I say pick up a hobby, get surrounded by your friends and find a new person who loves you. I got better since i go out more, and go on dates. Sometimes things happen for a reason, but you have to keep going forward. Don't waste your time, and i'm sure you will find someone better than him.
  • TheBizMan

    Posts: 4091

    Jan 06, 2013 9:00 AM GMT
    So I'm confused, what exactly do you want to know? You posted the same text in two different forums asking two very different things...


    http://www.realjock.com/gayforums/2916978
  • Henrysz

    Posts: 24

    Jan 06, 2013 2:04 PM GMT
    s1lovesyou said
    ContraMundum saidhi guys, i am 20, and this is my story ....

    I truly want to find a real relationship, and truly fall in love once again,find a guy that truly loves me.I dated a guy several days before, and i really like him, thought he also liked me, but he doesn't in fact... i've been watching Youtube videos learning how to have successful dates, and i've been trying and i thought it worked, but it didn't, which made me feel so sad and down, i started to doubt myself, I am ugly? i am not cute? I am boring? I am useless? These things could completely destroy me.....I tried to please him, and thought i did, but at last not at all, but i am still very confused and i don't know what to do, we were happy together and we had fun, even for just two dates, and he told me that he really liked me..... but what's going on? He just left for travelling and i texted him, it seems that bored him so much, i have no idea what i did is wrong, i really don't understand, these three days it should have been very pleasant holidays for me, but it turns out that it's like i was sent to the hell,,,, no interest, no friends hanging out, no food, no nothing.... all i've been doing is waiting his text, and all i want is to see him again and say something and make everything clear, but he doesn't want to , i don't know why.... maybe he is travelling with his boyfriend? or another guy that he is dating? He told me that he broke up with his boyfriend, because of boyfriend drama, maybe he met me just for revenge?? All these thoughts come to my mind and they are killing me. I don't know what to do, completely lost, i was so happy that i met a nice guy that i like, really it's so hard to find one that i really like.... i started to doubt that if there is real love between gay people? or they just want to have fun or just sex when they are bored.... I don't know if it is my problem or his? i really want an explanation, because we were happy together and i truly believe that we could work out.....

    I had dated a guy before i met him, but he went back to london for study,,, he just dropped a message on skype saying that i am all back, missing you, hope all is well with you,,, and i couldn't even see him online until now, i think that i love him, i really love him, even though we just had very few time together, people may say that i am so silly in believing" love at first sight", but i really do, i never date a guy twice if i don't like him, and i really can fall in love with this guy very soon if i date him for another several times, sometimes i really worry about falling in love, because love is great, but sometimes love is really painful, you always have to consider a lot and want to know what he is doing, what he is thinking, or why he doesn't call, why he doesn' text? why he treats me like this? and all these things will definitely affect your work,your study, your life.... It's been several months and i am still thinking of him and trying to add his facebook, i tried so many ways that i just couldn't reach him...i feel really suck, and i cried sometimes at night and woke up at 4 o'clock in the morning , i am really so tired, i am thinking that even as a friend, he could accept my friend request and have a little chat sometimes when he is free, i just don't understand why he is doing this to me????

    My first boyfriend is Chinese, we met when i was in my last year of university, and he was a freshman, i didn't really want to fall in love at that time, but at last i did, we did really love each other, and i think that was real love, but unfortunately love finally cannot conquer distance,we broke up and i came to shenzhen,,,, he went to beijing and went to another school, i almost spent one year forgetting him, that year i didn't find any guy, i cried many nights listening to Canon, the piano, cos that's his favourite to play,,,, so sentimental.... i really want to be stronger and i don;t want to hurt anyone, but finally it turns out that anyone hurts me, life sometimes really sucks, i am so afraid of falling in love again, but i really want to fall in love with someone like i did before......

    I really need some time to adjust, and get over all these stuff, and i don't know if it is right to be gay....i need someone to talk to, but no one wants to listen to me....

    i am writing this, just it's the only way to express... have nobody to talk to.. icon_sad.gif lonely, always



    That is a long post. This story is not new, it happens to most people. I met this guy, he was everything I was looking for. We went out 5 times in a period of a month and everything was great, I thought i love him. I asked him if there is a potential in this relationship and he rejected it and said he just wanted to be friend. I tried adding him on facebook but he doesnt accept, maybe not to send a misleading signal?? I dont know. He takes an hour to reply to my text with a one word. I used to hurt more but not now, i'm stronger as time passes. I say pick up a hobby, get surrounded by your friends and find a new person who loves you. I got better since i go out more, and go on dates. Sometimes things happen for a reason, but you have to keep going forward. Don't waste your time, and i'm sure you will find someone better than him.


    hi, thanks, yeah, but what is the reason?
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    Jan 06, 2013 3:26 PM GMT
    Yes