ryan2013 saidI was just wondering what it is like being married to a woman to please your parents when you know for sure you are gay. For closet case who are pressured into marriage, how do you deal with the intimacy, and the emotional bond that come with tieing a knot with a woman.
I married 2 women to please my parents (one at a time, needless to say). And also to advance my Army career, where every male Officer was expected to have a wife and children.
My difference with you being that I honestly didn't believe I was gay at the time. I rationalized my lack of interest in women as just an absence of sex drive. Despite the fact I was whacking off at least twice a day, more often when I could. I didn't even have my first date with a woman until I was 26, and then only to quiet my Mother's nagging.
How did I manage in bed with women? Not too badly, according to them. I read up on the subject, my typical obsessive attention to detail, and applied what I learned. But in my mind I was having gay fantasies while with them.
Women would ask me why my eyes were always closed, and I'd tell them I didn't know, just a reflex. But in fact it was because I didn't really like what I was seeing, and in the darkness I could envision my fantasies better. I'm sure some of them knew my mind was elsewhere.
But my dick felt great, Nature built a vagina for a man's pleasure. If you can cum in a guy's ass then you can certainly cum in a cunt, if your mind can block out the naked woman attached to it.
And that's what I mostly did. And kept telling myself that this was exciting, because it was supposed to be exciting, what Nature intended me to like, like it or not, because I was a man. Except I didn't like it all that much, aside for the dick sensation part. I swear a man could fuck a prairie dog hole if he had no other choice, and many guys have fucked even worse.
And if, OP, you are seriously asking this for your own self, then don't get married to a woman if you're gay. You may be pleasing your family, but you'll be cheating her. She deserves a straight husband, not a gay pretender.
And believe me, she'll eventually realize you're really not into her, just going through the motions, as I was. Save yourself & her the grief, and don't do it.