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  • LEANDRO_NJ

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    Jan 12, 2013 1:39 AM GMT


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    I AM IN LOVE!! ( it way sound strange calling it that, especially coming from someone that have yet to see your face?) Love is I, the innermost self that is speaking to you now. It is not me, that face that you may have already seen in pictures; and even if you may eventually meet me in the flesh some day soon, it is still may not be me!?

    I am like you are to me! the other half flame trying to find and reunite with its twin in a world that is drowning in tears. Tears come in many forms, shapes, and sizes!

    From the window of my soul reflections of my thoughts will hopefully touch your own tears of Winter, that like snowflakes from afar may carry with it a dormant seed temporarily seeking warmth, or a traveling pollen trying to find a nest, like your heart: a resting place to take cover during my turbulent and lonely journeys.

    There are the tears of joy, that comes around during the Spring of our lives, when you, I, us feel a rebirth coming from within. There are the tears of Summer, that hopefully nourish the flesh/desires of our physical self; a place where love like a flower shows off the most showy, fragrant, and unforgettable kinds of exotic blooms.

    There are tears of Autumn, where all that was may be swept away in the wind of your mind's storage of memories!! Love is a teardrop that can take many shapes, and depending on the temperament of my being, I hope it will manifest in yours!?


    WHERE ARE YOU NOW IN THE SEASON OF LIFE?

    Leandro
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    THIS IS ME!
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    Jan 12, 2013 1:42 AM GMT
    I'm almost always in love.

    Life is too short to be hated.
  • LEANDRO_NJ

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    Jan 12, 2013 2:12 AM GMT
    paulflexes saidI'm almost always in love.

    Life is too short to be hated.


    True! in my experience people who love or responds to love have more zest for living and a much deeper understand of life in general. Thank you Paul!
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    Jan 12, 2013 2:49 AM GMT
    Ahhh! Valentines Day approaches!

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  • TheAlchemixt

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    Jan 12, 2013 2:57 AM GMT
    GAMRican saidAhhh! Valentines Day approaches!

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    Another year with no Valentine. Freedom!
  • LEANDRO_NJ

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    Jan 12, 2013 3:12 AM GMT
    Yay! need I say more. I am starting the New Year's with quite a beat! thank you GAMRican for the gif. Love it!
  • LEANDRO_NJ

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    Jan 12, 2013 3:18 AM GMT
    TheAlchemixt said
    GAMRican saidAhhh! Valentines Day approaches!

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    Another year with no Valentine. Freedom!


    Believe me, I felt the same way with my last LT Ex BF! ironically three years later Love strike back around the same time it ended with my ex!
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    Jan 12, 2013 5:52 AM GMT
    I'm there with you Leandro.
    Who knows where this might lead us?

    Just when i thought i got everything figured out, and my walls are strong and high, somebody comes by and breaks them all down with a kiss.
    And all the insecurities and the blood and tears come out like a deluge, washing away the facade and the false strength and the pride of someone who thought was jaded and has seen it all, and instead reminded me of what's missing, what was really important, what was really needed to evolve, to be reborn: Love.
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    Jan 12, 2013 11:59 AM GMT
    FUCK LOVE...I HATE IT! IM BITTERicon_evil.gif
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    Jan 12, 2013 12:04 PM GMT
    I am always in love when there is some guy around.icon_redface.gif
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    Jan 12, 2013 12:06 PM GMT
    MedGen saidFUCK LOVE...I HATE IT! IM BITTERicon_evil.gif


    Prescription for bitterness: abundant time with friends and family, individual pursuit of hobbies and interests, indulgence in some bucket list items, and few expectations.

    Wishing you a speedy recovery icon_wink.gif
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    Jan 12, 2013 4:06 PM GMT
    GigoloAssassin said I'm there with you Leandro.
    Who knows where this might lead us?

    Just when i thought i got everything figured out, and my walls are strong and high, somebody comes by and breaks them all down with a kiss.
    And all the insecurities and the blood and tears come out like a deluge, washing away the facade and the false strength and the pride of someone who thought was jaded and has seen it all, and instead reminded me of what's missing, what was really important, what was really needed to evolve, to be reborn: Love.


    You remind me a little of Ian, realizing he was in love with Renot..

    Here:
    "Ian’s eyes widened as he gathered Renot in emotionally. A vast happiness threatened to overwhelm him. A precipice of feeling passed below his full heart; ‘overwhelmed’ succumbing to rapture as Ian explored Renot’s feelings from inside Renot. The experience was, of course, impossible, the perspective unlike anything he’d ever known and Ian was galvanized.

    For the first time in his carefully cloistered existence, he saw emotion in all its cognizant planes, how each complemented the other in some grand design and felt content, even as he watched every block and stone, wall and rampart fall away inside himself.

    Tears coursed from his eyes.

    He hung his head as his mind replayed a hundred, no, a thousand scenes of missed opportunity to connect with people and so release himself from his own prison. Now all could be let go; absolved. This came from Renot, in calm waves, as he took Ian’s arm and led him back to the house. Ian roughly scrubbed the wetness from his face and grinned. Life was a great surprise; he was in love."
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    Jan 12, 2013 5:23 PM GMT
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    GigoloAssassin said I'm there with you Leandro.
    Who knows where this might lead us?

    Just when i thought i got everything figured out, and my walls are strong and high, somebody comes by and breaks them all down with a kiss.
    And all the insecurities and the blood and tears come out like a deluge, washing away the facade and the false strength and the pride of someone who thought was jaded and has seen it all, and instead reminded me of what's missing, what was really important, what was really needed to evolve, to be reborn: Love.


    You remind me a little of Ian, realizing he was in love with Renot..

    Here:
    "Ian’s eyes widened as he gathered Renot in emotionally. A vast happiness threatened to overwhelm him. A precipice of feeling passed below his full heart; ‘overwhelmed’ succumbing to rapture as Ian explored Renot’s feelings from inside Renot. The experience was, of course, impossible, the perspective unlike anything he’d ever known and Ian was galvanized.

    For the first time in his carefully cloistered existence, he saw emotion in all its cognizant planes, how each complemented the other in some grand design and felt content, even as he watched every block and stone, wall and rampart fall away inside himself.

    Tears coursed from his eyes.

    He hung his head as his mind replayed a hundred, no, a thousand scenes of missed opportunity to connect with people and so release himself from his own prison. Now all could be let go; absolved. This came from Renot, in calm waves, as he took Ian’s arm and led him back to the house. Ian roughly scrubbed the wetness from his face and grinned. Life was a great surprise; he was in love."


    Wait, WHAT???
    What book is This from??? I am so buying it! icon_biggrin.gif
  • LEANDRO_NJ

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    Jan 13, 2013 4:28 AM GMT
    Forgive me if my Rose have being slow on waking in your wish garden! please know that my Rose have bloomed many seasons, where rarely anyone had stick around long enough to admire not just the blooms,but also see the depth of its roots, as in my endurance for the many seasons I have lived under its many hues of blue. If your judging eyes sees thorns, they are not to cause you pain, but to protect the many folds that holds the essence of my soul. .

    Leandro

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  • LEANDRO_NJ

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    Jan 13, 2013 4:49 AM GMT
    GigoloAssassin said I'm there with you Leandro.
    Who knows where this might lead us?

    Just when i thought i got everything figured out, and my walls are strong and high, somebody comes by and breaks them all down with a kiss.
    And all the insecurities and the blood and tears come out like a deluge, washing away the facade and the false strength and the pride of someone who thought was jaded and has seen it all, and instead reminded me of what's missing, what was really important, what was really needed to evolve, to be reborn: Love.



    Rudy you may have just discovered your secret garden!?


    Maybe that is why you feel as if that special someone, who perhaps was looking for a safe place to rest, one day as it was passing by the many close walls you have built through the years, as so many gay lovers of the heart do to protect the hidden beauty that lies within.

    One day he took one good look at you and thought! there is potential within this walled garden! I am going to make it my own secret garden! and so the story unfolds!! may this be the season where your Love garden not only keep blooming flowers but also cultivates the fruits of your labor in love!


    Leandro

  • LEANDRO_NJ

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    Jan 13, 2013 5:03 AM GMT
    MedGen saidFUCK LOVE...I HATE IT! IM BITTERicon_evil.gif



    I feel you for I was also bitter until one day all it took to change that was for someone to dropped a few drops of sweetness in my bowl full of tears! ever since my bitterness turned into a most delicious lemonade! sweety never ever turn away from every grain of sweetness that may come your way!

    Leandro
  • LEANDRO_NJ

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    Jan 13, 2013 5:09 AM GMT
    Shagglot saidI am always in love when there is some guy around.icon_redface.gif


    The only someone that will never stop loving you is YOU!! and when you realize that, every other someone will start loving you! love yourself enough and I will assure you that someone will want to join you!

    Leandro
  • LEANDRO_NJ

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    Jan 13, 2013 5:10 AM GMT
    kangourou said
    MedGen saidFUCK LOVE...I HATE IT! IM BITTERicon_evil.gif


    Prescription for bitterness: abundant time with friends and family, individual pursuit of hobbies and interests, indulgence in some bucket list items, and few expectations.

    Wishing you a speedy recovery icon_wink.gif


    Speechless!!

    Leandro
  • LEANDRO_NJ

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    Jan 13, 2013 5:12 AM GMT
    meninlove said
    GigoloAssassin said I'm there with you Leandro.
    Who knows where this might lead us?

    Just when i thought i got everything figured out, and my walls are strong and high, somebody comes by and breaks them all down with a kiss.
    And all the insecurities and the blood and tears come out like a deluge, washing away the facade and the false strength and the pride of someone who thought was jaded and has seen it all, and instead reminded me of what's missing, what was really important, what was really needed to evolve, to be reborn: Love.


    You remind me a little of Ian, realizing he was in love with Renot..

    Here:
    "Ian’s eyes widened as he gathered Renot in emotionally. A vast happiness threatened to overwhelm him. A precipice of feeling passed below his full heart; ‘overwhelmed’ succumbing to rapture as Ian explored Renot’s feelings from inside Renot. The experience was, of course, impossible, the perspective unlike anything he’d ever known and Ian was galvanized.

    For the first time in his carefully cloistered existence, he saw emotion in all its cognizant planes, how each complemented the other in some grand design and felt content, even as he watched every block and stone, wall and rampart fall away inside himself.

    Tears coursed from his eyes.

    He hung his head as his mind replayed a hundred, no, a thousand scenes of missed opportunity to connect with people and so release himself from his own prison. Now all could be let go; absolved. This came from Renot, in calm waves, as he took Ian’s arm and led him back to the house. Ian roughly scrubbed the wetness from his face and grinned. Life was a great surprise; he was in love."


    Love this story, thank you for sharing meninlove!!

    Leandro
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  • LEANDRO_NJ

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    Jan 13, 2013 10:48 PM GMT
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    It is like we are reading each other's minds/experiences!
    Wow Rudy this is what happens when people like you
    and I get crushed (in a good way) and we feel as if Love
    hit the wall into our hearts. I am still trying to understand
    why everything else that seem so important before is now
    so insignificant in comparison to how being in Love makes
    me feel.

    I must admit thou that I was a bit skeptical and quite concerned
    actually, about falling in Love! when I met this guy I felt as if he
    was rushing things way too fast!? but as hours, days, weeks
    went by it all started to sink in slowly but surely! I am usually
    the slow dancer type but my honey taught me that sometimes
    passion, like a quick Tango move, it can make Love so much
    the better and more exciting, if we just go alone with the music
    beat of our innermost desires. Damn I should work for Hallmark!!


    Leandro
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    Jan 13, 2013 11:55 PM GMT
    LEANDRO_NJ said
    GigoloAssassin said

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    It is like we are reading each other's minds/experiences!
    Wow Rudy this is what happens when people like you
    and I get crushed (in a good way) and we feel as if Love
    hit the wall into our hearts. I am still trying to understand
    why everything else that seem so important before is now
    so insignificant in comparison to how being in Love makes
    me feel.

    I must admit thou that I was a bit skeptical and quite concerned
    actually, about falling in Love! when I met this guy I felt as if he
    was rushing things way too fast!? but as hours, days, weeks
    went by it all started to sink in slowly but surely! I am usually
    the slow dancer type but my honey taught me that sometimes
    passion, like a quick Tango move, it can make Love so much
    the better and more exciting, if we just go alone with the music
    beat of our innermost desires. Damn I should work for Hallmark!!


    Leandro


    I think we should both be authors, lol! icon_biggrin.gif
  • LEANDRO_NJ

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    Jan 19, 2013 3:57 AM GMT






    IN YOUR ABSENCE MY HEART KEEPS GROWING STRONGER!

    When you are not here our seed, like the love we've planted last season eagerly awaits for its rebirth! do you remember how the wind of change swept us in our embrace!? and how we both held on to dear life and tightly embraced, from getting blown away by the strong currents of loneliness.

    But here we are, still, hibernating our love from wakening up, as we patiently wait until the cold spells of our emotions to slowly warm up our bodies, minds, and souls. At times it may feel uncertain as the warm and cold days of our emotions often made us feel, but we know better then to just walk away, so we patiently wait til we reunite once again.

    I know the Spring of our Love is near! we know this to be true as we both have being through this season many times before! so we patiently wait for the affections to return once more! I love you!!

    Leandro
  • crisisgray

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    Jan 19, 2013 4:29 AM GMT
    I AM IN LOVE...WITH MYSELF. A good way to start, i think.icon_rolleyes.gif
  • LEANDRO_NJ

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    Jan 19, 2013 5:02 AM GMT
    crisBlue saidI AM IN LOVE...WITH MYSELF. A good way to start, i think.icon_rolleyes.gif


    When one becomes in love with itself, it shouldn't be hard to love another self! because deep down we are a lot like then we lead ourselves to believe. The real challenge is in realizing that everyone is indeed a whole or shuttered mirror piece or pieces of ourselves!