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    Oct 05, 2008 8:51 AM GMT
    I want to document this tonight... this feeling , this moment before my head hits the pillow. Maybe the footnotes will be created by viewers that may change the way the story goes or hopefully share any similar expierences. I want to to document this so i wont forget.

    This tone and the prose that i emit at the moment seems a bit dramatic but its the moments mood.

    Tonight i lost control for the first time. lost time... I recieved a hicky for the first time that i dont remember recieving and felt alone for the first time. The alcohol wasnt supposed to do this , I didnt mean to make a fool of myself. its what 4:00 AM ? the "friends" i have sent me home in altered state... Isnt that my support system thats supposed to prevent this?

    Tonights the turning point, for better or worse. Am i supposed to forget the people ive had so many good times with? was it just an oversight on thier part? Maybe il have these anwsers when i awake...

    And this bloody hicky.. wth do i do with that. ....certainly my family wont believe a female would be so daring.. I guess my friends where right. it was my fault since i was looking for trouble.

    if you read throught thanks. if you have some insight then thank you a million fold.

    this doesnt feel...repairable..
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    Oct 05, 2008 8:48 PM GMT
    K, I got...

    You have a hicky... well done on that

    and you did something stupid...

    What ever you did dear, I've probably either done worse, been a part of it, or seen it.

    i fail to see where the pile up happened.
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    Oct 05, 2008 8:57 PM GMT
    I agree with lilTanker. Stupidity happens; learn from it, move on, don't repeat the mistake. If you have friends who leave you in an "altered state" are they really friends? I doubt it.

    Talk to us again when you are feeling yourself once more.
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    Oct 05, 2008 9:10 PM GMT
    Sounds like you did something you regret and you want to blame your friends about it. I wouldn't dismiss those friends so easily, because making sure you got home safely is a big plus in my book. You additionally have the fortune of now knowing your drinking limitations, so you can avoid more mistakes.


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    Oct 05, 2008 10:14 PM GMT
    Oh honey...

    Don't ever get so drunk you let someone give you a hickey. That shit is for junior high proms and soccer camp. If there is a lesson to be learned, it has to do with alcohol tolerance.
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    Oct 05, 2008 11:04 PM GMT
    As long as it was just a hickey I would not be too concerned. If some guy took advantage of your state to have unsafe sex with you, then that would be a problem. A valuable lesson learned. You need to watch your alcohol intake.
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    Oct 05, 2008 11:31 PM GMT
    MunchingZombie saidOh honey...

    Don't ever get so drunk you let someone give you a hickey. That shit is for junior high proms and soccer camp. If there is a lesson to be learned, it has to do with alcohol tolerance.


    OMG I wanna give you one now.. or two.. hell, lets make it three just for balance! ;)
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    Oct 05, 2008 11:33 PM GMT
    Feels like there's something not mentioned but nevermind.

    1. alcohol in excess is never your friend

    2. hickeys are just gross, but sometimes just happen. Thought about a turtle neck? lol. You could just say that you don't want to talk about it? In any case you're going to take some flak for this.

    3. sometimes friends screw up. It happens, they might be supposed to help you but they aren't going to spend their time playing Gardian Angel.