Mar 08, 2013 9:06 PM GMT
Why is this so hard to figure out?
I'm angry that I feel glanced over because society sees gays as an afterthought. I try to make myself be heard but it's still so damn hard to talk about being gay even with other gay men. Online i'm a gay crusader but i'm real life i'm the most scared person alive.
I feel like i'm ridiculously attracted to freshly out gay dudes and I feel the need to coax closeted guys out of the closet for whatever reason. This is quite obviously terrible and I never do it. I just feel like doing it.
What is wrong with me? Why am I so offended by things, why do I think about things like being excluded from society so much? I can't even see a couple walking holding hands on campus without being extremely bitter. I get upset when I hear straight guys talking to openly and freely about women. I get angry that straight romance is the only acceptable role for protagonists in films/books.
I can't enjoy anything because it's like i'm looking through this lens: I'm a gay gamer, I'm a gay frat guy, i'm a gay black dude, i'm a gay college student, etc.
Basically, BRAIN STFU
I'm angry that I feel glanced over because society sees gays as an afterthought. I try to make myself be heard but it's still so damn hard to talk about being gay even with other gay men. Online i'm a gay crusader but i'm real life i'm the most scared person alive.
I feel like i'm ridiculously attracted to freshly out gay dudes and I feel the need to coax closeted guys out of the closet for whatever reason. This is quite obviously terrible and I never do it. I just feel like doing it.
What is wrong with me? Why am I so offended by things, why do I think about things like being excluded from society so much? I can't even see a couple walking holding hands on campus without being extremely bitter. I get upset when I hear straight guys talking to openly and freely about women. I get angry that straight romance is the only acceptable role for protagonists in films/books.
I can't enjoy anything because it's like i'm looking through this lens: I'm a gay gamer, I'm a gay frat guy, i'm a gay black dude, i'm a gay college student, etc.
Basically, BRAIN STFU