Mar 14, 2013 2:26 AM GMT
I ask this because lately I've been feeling depressed and angry lately. I can't seem to find any any friends or possible relationships in my area more so because of my race. The guys here either only want me for hook ups, are taken, want to experiement, or want to cheat on their respective partners. And I'm so frustrated because here I am sitting here at my apartment alone for Spring Break with nothing to do or no one to talk to and I know I have tried to meet people and use my resources. I really don't want to sound like a drama queen but every guy in each of the scenarios always tell me "why are you single" or "it will happen soon enough" and I'm fed up with being led on and nothing seems to work out. Sorry if it sounds like i'm venting too much but I know what my priorities are for school however, I still feel like I have a void or an insatiable appetite to find someone I can be there for while taking care of myself. Right now, this part of my life feels like torture because I want to hook up out of desperation but the other side stops me but I'm still lonely.