wow i just inadvertently took a trip down memory lane. . .

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    Mar 16, 2013 9:37 PM GMT
    I was looking for my passport and going crazy because I couldn't find it.
    I was checking through my closets, drawers, under my bed, storage bins, etc and couldn't find it anywhere!

    well, I just found it thank god. I'm traveling over seas soon, but I found it in a lockbox that I used to keep old porns in from when I was like 18.....

    So I open the lock box and "black ballers" filmed in Van nuys, CA was sitting on top in VHS format. . I picked it up and kinda laughed to myself that I still had a VHS porn and just tossed it aside on my bed while i looked through the rest of the box. Needless to say "black ballers" is basically just ebony gay porn that I used to be slightly obsessed with. . . Those were the days.....

    ANNNYWAY, so im going through this shit....all my old health insurance cards, car insurance paperwork from back in the day, (why the fuck do I still have this stuff? Have no idea), old student ID cards from college, and last but not least love letters from my first boyfriend back when I was 19 ....and pictures.

    I COMPLETELY forgot I had this stuff. Hadn't looked at them in at least 10 years and I couldn't believe all the memories that flooded back. I literally had these "watershed moments" as I read these letters...... so silly a lot of it, yet some of it was cute and sweet and funny. . . and the pictures of me and my first BF were awesome!!!! I was so cute, not gonna lie. Ugh, the ravages of time sure do take their toll! lol

    I just couldn't believe the things that were said in the letters and how my thought process was back then. It amazes me. I can't believe I was that person in these letters. So many random memories I had forgotten about just came right back. Memories I would have never remembered again had I not just stumbled upon these letters. I'm glad I kept them because I feel like I dont often enough take the time to reflect and remember all the good times in my life. In fact, I NEVER really do that and wow.... So many good memories just fade with my incessant drinking and drug use.

    It was such a moment of clarity for me. (btw i was joking about my incessant drinking and drug use).... That I wanted to contact my first bf and share these pics and letters I had come across. I havent spoken to him in at least 8 or 9 years... dont have really any contact info on him, but it got me thinking. . . .

    Should I contact him? Share these pics and letters with him? I'm sure he would get a good laugh and such. We were both teenagers really. So, I dunno, i dont think it would be like this awkward bitter thing.
    But, I dont want him to take it as im trying to get back with him or establish a new relationship with him either, as I am happily partnered, but I just couldnt help but laugh my ass off at some of the stuff we said to eachother and also cried too lol. Whatta emotional basketcase I've turned into.

    Oh well, what do yall think? Contact him? or not bother?



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    Mar 16, 2013 9:42 PM GMT
    DVD_11564_FR.jpg

    Was he in the film?
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    Mar 16, 2013 9:44 PM GMT
    I'm kidding Import.. Why not??
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    Mar 16, 2013 9:47 PM GMT
    Anocxu saidDVD_11564_FR.jpg

    Was he in the film?


    hahahahaha lmao yes. That's it.
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    Mar 16, 2013 9:58 PM GMT
    Im more surprised that u liked black porn so much lol.
    and i think you should contact him. nothing to lose. I would like to see some old pics of myself and things like that from an old bf if I had one. icon_redface.gif
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    Mar 16, 2013 11:57 PM GMT
    Do you have Facebook? I found my first bf through the site. I don't see anything wrong with contacting him.
  • AMoonHawk

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    Mar 17, 2013 12:49 AM GMT
    burned the letters and forget the past it will just clutter up your future... you can never go back

    LOL .. don't listen to me ... I burned too many bridges ... sometimes it's good to leave a few up
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    Mar 17, 2013 1:27 AM GMT
    Aw, with all of this reminiscing, I just realized that tonight is the anniversary of my first gay date...the guy became my first boyfriend...and the first guy I ever plowed...he was so sweet, but I had to let him go. Hope he's happy. #trippindownmemorylane