Mar 28, 2013 5:19 PM GMT
I bartend currently, and it can be enjoyable but I will not be a bartender for my entire life. I want more, I want to experience things, and I don't want to work my life away.
I want to find a career that doesn't feel like work. The things I'm good at are singing (not to brag, but people tell me all the time), making people laugh, foreign languages. I love to travel to non-touristy places and experience natural beauty.
If I could just snap my fingers and have any job i want, I would be performing on a stage in front of thousands...Singing, comedy, acting. But the logical side of me says it is too unrealistic. There are countless people who want what I want, and I dont want to spend the rest of my life dreaming and getting nowhere.
And any normal job...forget it. I feel like I would be forcing myself into all of those "normal" careers, like I would hate getting up in the morning, trapped is a good word.
I have considered the military, but being told what to do and when to do it is my worst nightmare! I think i would be so resentful and angry, and trapped.
Of course I thought long and hard about college, but I dont really know what I want, and I feel like its pointless to go to school and rack up all that debt if I don't have a friggin clue....
I have thought about what to do with my life and analyzed it from every concieveable angle. I have moved around, traveled, auditioned and experienced things and tried finding what my life is supposed to be about, but it only leaves me feeling more and more confused and lost.
I'm sure I'm not the only one. If you have figured it out, how did you get there?