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I think you're pretty fantastic. In fact just a day or two ago on the phone with one of my cousins I mentioned you about how impressed I was watching/listening to your vid on I think it was Josh's voice thread. The part that really got to me was where you said "this is my life" because I have to come to terms with that, with what my life has become. Not the life I would have chosen for myself, certainly not your level of difficulty but tough enough for what I'm used to. You didn't have a choice about your cerebral palsy. I almost spelled that paisley and wouldn't ya know someone already beat me to it...
...and I didn't have a choice about burying so many people I've loved who died too damned soon. I get so fucking depressed about it and I think part of my problem is accepting what is my life. It was helpful for me to hear you put that into words.
Reading the interview on you resonates within me how I perceive your sense of self in the world. There's a lot of bravery about you. I'd imagine you have some very tough moments but how you present yourself, the face you face the world with, it's beautiful man.
I'd only comment on one specific item of the interview, the fetish thing. I get what you are saying 110%. I've rejected relationships in the past with guys who I learned were getting off on my being Jewish. It creeped me out, so I get it. But I'm aging qucker now that I'm in my 50s and I'm starting to recognize that maybe I'd be lucky to find some guy who fetishizes a guy in his 50s or at least perhaps I shouldn't completely rule it out.'
Now you could be a special case of fetishizing that you'd have to be real careful about, particularly if control issues came into play. And I could easily see you getting, rightfully, creeped out about that. I think my only point here is that, well, by example: without doctors into anal we might not have proctologists, or foot-fetish podiatrists, etc. In that regard then, your cerebral palsy is just one more item on the list. There are very caring people who are attracted to others who could use their help. Is that a fetish?
Anyway, I appreciate your sharing yourself so openly. In my minimal contact with you, I've already learned a lot: that this is my life too. Thank you.