MashogaNubianPrince saidAs I write this I'm preparing myself two big cheeseburgers slathered in mayo....
Does anyone else sometimes feel like as they are getting fatter after they eat? Sometimes I feel like doing a quick exercise before or after I eat so I feel less guilty about eating.
The way that you look at food is distorted, and, part of your illness, and, ultimately what will kill you.
You need to work with a professional that specializes in eating disorders.
Normal folks don't want, nor need, two cheeseburgers, which are loaded with sodium, and saturated fads, and TMAO. In general, you should not be eating much red meat, at all, because of the TMAO, the saturated fat, and the current state of your health.
You need to change your relationship with food, with an understanding that it's not all about satiety, but, also about nutrition, good health, long life, feeling good, and exercise performance.
Like a smoker, you are in denial about the ill effects of the food, and you don't understand the value of moderation.
A professional will help you to learn how to correct that viewpoint on food; teach you how to eat in a nutritional way, and perhaps get to the underlying cause of your illness.
You're sick, and..you're killing yourself, albeit slowly.
You can't eat like that if you expect to live a long and healthy life.
Instead of whining, you need to research nutrition (in particular blood sugar management, and the hunger response). Spend your time in a better way than poisoning yourself.
You need to STOP. NOW.