TheLonelyNerd saidLately I have been looking for a guy to be my friend and maybe develop into a relationship. I don't know if I want a full on relationship yet. However, I can't even address that issue yet because I can't even find a guy. I am so socially awkward in person that that approach doesn't work. Plus there is the issue that I am not out. I consider myself bi. I have dated girls before and I have gotten emotional satisfaction from those relationships, but I would like to see what it is like to be with a guy for more than just a random hookup. I can't get a guy though. I sometimes can't even get a reply to a simple message. Sometimes I get reply and the person says all the right things and then immediate convert to dirty talk. There are even times when we exchange pics and the person never responds after receiving my pic. I just want something more! It that too much to ask. Am I so undesirable? I am really starting feel unwanted. And I guess I should just stop using the internet, but I know plenty of people who have success with these sites. Am I just doing it wrong? Am I Just Meant to be Alone?
When I wasn't out I found it difficult to maintain friendships because I was afraid of being found out. I wouldn't let anyone get close. Could you be doing the same thing and resorting to the internet and hookup sites in desperation? The odds that you will find a friendship that will develop into a relationship are against you. Most people on hookup sites are not there to make friends, in spite of what they say in their profiles.
If you "want something more" put the mouse down, step away from the computer and get out there and meet real people. In one sentence you say you want something more and then completely turn around and say you aren't sure if you want a full on relationship. What's a full on relationship? SOunds like you really want just a hook up to see if you'd like gay sex.
NEWS FLASH: People are not clothes you try on to see if you like the fit and discard if they aren't to your liking. That's using people and that, my friend is a hook up. Try being honest with yourself first. People like honesty and can spot a phoney a mile away. Maybe that's your problem with forging friendships?
Just throwing ideas out there for you to think about.