Do you think that one day I will find love?

  • Ismael_18

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    May 11, 2013 10:33 PM GMT
    Do you think that one day I will find love? I live in a small town where there is almost no or rather no one openly gay (even I'm not either). Always dreamed of growing up and out of my city to be free, to travel, friends,have love, friends, fun etc.. Now I have 18 years and this year I'll go off to study (in college), but what if I do not get everything i dreamed , now that I have little time to be happy, I think negative thoughts come, perhaps can not be, I have scared, I hate myself I hate my personality, my life ... I've often thought about suicide but do not want to hurt my family and I have not the courage to kill myself. I have always hoped that the future will be better, but I think I'm fooling myself ..
    Sorry for my english, i am spanish
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    May 11, 2013 10:34 PM GMT
    Yes you will.
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    May 11, 2013 10:35 PM GMT
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  • HottJoe

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    May 11, 2013 10:39 PM GMT
    Go to college.
  • Eli_jah

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    May 11, 2013 10:43 PM GMT
    I know I will.
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    May 11, 2013 10:48 PM GMT
    Everything changes in college.
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    May 11, 2013 10:50 PM GMT
    i guess
  • Ismael_18

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    May 11, 2013 10:55 PM GMT
    Mesmer saidummm-no.gif

    thank you for your hosteny "Mesmer", i am happy that you lost weight, bitch
  • Ismael_18

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    May 11, 2013 10:56 PM GMT
    CharleyChase90232 saidYes you will.

    Thank you! icon_smile.gif
  • Ismael_18

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    May 11, 2013 10:58 PM GMT
    NeutralObserver saidI know I will.

    I love you, thanks for sending forces icon_biggrin.gif
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    May 11, 2013 11:01 PM GMT
    Let me be honest, I 21 single it hard sometimes to be single especially when you want a hug or just be there for you, but sometimes it may take some time, I leve in a very small town, well almost half on my life I always end up in a small town, and the chances of finding Mr. is always hard but I made me think troughly as well to be ready for Mr. Right, I goto college and it fun to be my 1st year and trust me i hit alot, but I'm more of a monogamous guy. So My advice to you buddy se paciente ")
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    May 11, 2013 11:05 PM GMT
    Ismael_18 said
    Mesmer saidummm-no.gif

    thank you for your hosteny "Mesmer", i am happy that you lost weight, bitch


    don't take it the wrong way, but if you're thinking of suicidal thoughts, I don't think you should be looking for anything, but professional help. I'm not going to be the person to say what you want to hear, and sugar coat it with flowers, and rainbows, because that is not something I feel people need. Sorry if I'm not going to let you hear what you want, I'm just going to be honest.
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    May 12, 2013 12:41 AM GMT
    Sí, por favor, si tienes pensamientos de suicidio, habla con un profesional. También podrías llamar a un teléfono de consejos para jóvenes gays, si hay, y cuando llegas a la universidad, también podrías hablar ahí con un consejero, y muchas veces además tienen servicios de salud para los estudiantes, incluso salud mental. Lo fundamental ahora es sentirte bien contigo mismo, luego todo lo otro ya vendrá a su propio ritmo.

    Ya verás que tu mundo se ampliará mucho cuando empiezas en la universidad. Te quedan muchísimos, muchísimos años para encontrar el amor. Yo, por ejemplo, tuve mi primera experiencia sexual a los 23, pero eso fue en un tiempo de menos recursos y además no había estado buscando. Aún así, a los 23 era todavía un niño. Luego conocí a mi primer gran amor a los 26, y al segundo a los 33. Hay tiempo de sobras. De momento, creo que más importante que amor para ti es hacer amigos, y para eso, si no hay gente en tu pueblo, verás que conocerás mucha gente en la universidad, así que con sólo un poco de paciencia, todo se te arreglará.
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    May 12, 2013 12:51 AM GMT
    yes, one day some lucky guy will shove his dick into your mouth. let's hope that he squirts semen into your mouth and not urine.
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    May 12, 2013 1:45 AM GMT
    Ismael_18 saidDo you think that one day I will find love? I live in a small town where there is almost no or rather no one openly gay (even I'm not either). Always dreamed of growing up and out of my city to be free, to travel, friends,have love, friends, fun etc.. Now I have 18 years and this year I'll go off to study (in college), but what if I do not get everything i dreamed , now that I have little time to be happy, I think negative thoughts come, perhaps can not be, I have scared, I hate myself I hate my personality, my life ... I've often thought about suicide but do not want to hurt my family and I have not the courage to kill myself. I have always hoped that the future will be better, but I think I'm fooling myself ..
    Sorry for my english, i am spanish


    But, perhaps you are fooling yourself when you think the future will not be better. icon_wink.gif
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    May 12, 2013 2:02 AM GMT
    I'm sure you will

    *here's a hug from across the world*
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    May 12, 2013 2:23 AM GMT
    yes, and things can change overnight, so, try to keep positive
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    May 12, 2013 2:33 AM GMT
    First of all killing yourself buddy IS not the answer
    my mother killed herself and the pain you leaved behind for your love ones


    Go to college and grow it will be an experience you will never forget ....

    And study your ass off be safe young fella

    Grow and learn
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    May 12, 2013 2:35 AM GMT
    Ismael_18 saidDo you think that one day I will find love?
    No.
  • LEANDRO_NJ

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    May 12, 2013 3:14 AM GMT
    Ismael_18 saidDo you think that one day I will find love? I live in a small town where there is almost no or rather no one openly gay (even I'm not either). Always dreamed of growing up and out of my city to be free, to travel, friends,have love, friends, fun etc.. Now I have 18 years and this year I'll go off to study (in college), but what if I do not get everything i dreamed , now that I have little time to be happy, I think negative thoughts come, perhaps can not be, I have scared, I hate myself I hate my personality, my life ... I've often thought about suicide but do not want to hurt my family and I have not the courage to kill myself. I have always hoped that the future will be better, but I think I'm fooling myself ..
    Sorry for my english, i am spanish


    Estimado Ismael el amor tiene amo, y ese amo eres tu! De nada vale tener ansia por amar cuando aun existe esa duda en ¡ti! El amor vendrá a ti cuando logres liberar el esclavo del miedo.
  • tuffguyndc

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    May 12, 2013 3:17 AM GMT
    ha ha ha ha ha why is it all these threads are written by 19 to 25 years old crying about finding love. oh my god if i have to read another whiny kid asking why can't they find love or i have never been in love. i will scream. this is so ridiculous. how about you go do something with your spare time. how about go on some dates, travel, get a job, go to school and live a damn little jeeze
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    May 12, 2013 4:55 AM GMT
    just read the suicidal part. you don't need love. you need mental help asap.

    as far as worrying about love, being in love is not going to be the answer to solving your problems. used to think that myself at your age that getting a girlfriend would solve all the problems that i was facing such as depression, anxiety, not being where i wanted to be in life, being in denial with my sexuality and a lot of other things. i too flirt around with the idea of having a boyfriend but i know that i have enough on my plate concerning myself that is more of a priority than dating. i damn sure know that i don't need a boyfriend to be happy. just trying to figure out how to do that even though i'm learning that mental illness makes that fucking difficult.

    your mental illness is basically going to get in your way.
  • Darwin1122

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    May 12, 2013 6:05 AM GMT
    There's some real assholes on this thread. Have a fucking heart you pieces of shit.
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    May 12, 2013 7:34 AM GMT
    nope you will stay alone and never know love sorry but it's true just give up get fat and marry any women that will take you. JK stop being such a downer and get on grinder haha you don't have to find love in your home town with internet you can find love anywhere in the world, be positive and don't let your location get you down.
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    May 12, 2013 7:59 AM GMT
    Ismael_18 saidDo you think that one day I will find love? I live in a small town where there is almost no or rather no one openly gay (even I'm not either). Always dreamed of growing up and out of my city to be free, to travel, friends,have love, friends, fun etc.. Now I have 18 years and this year I'll go off to study (in college), but what if I do not get everything i dreamed , now that I have little time to be happy, I think negative thoughts come, perhaps can not be, I have scared, I hate myself I hate my personality, my life ... I've often thought about suicide but do not want to hurt my family and I have not the courage to kill myself. I have always hoped that the future will be better, but I think I'm fooling myself ..
    Sorry for my english, i am spanish


    Honestly, I would say No. Yes there are gay couples but they never stick toghether and eventually they drift apart.

    However this is just based on my experience and observation. I would love to meet a couple who have toghether for their whole lives or were childhood sweet hearts and now have a family.

    99% of gay men think they are better looking then they are and are usually always looking out for what they perceive to be a better catch. It's kind of a negative culture.
    I would say be optimisttic you never know when you might meet that 1% but the odds are not very favourable.