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    May 22, 2013 8:21 AM GMT
    Over the last few months I have been house sitting and have spent a lot (basically every week night) of time alone.

    To give some context, I have diagnosed clinical depression with associated anxiety issues, including frequent panic attacks.

    When I got sick of trying to entertain myself I started spending a lot of time questioning myself, to the point that it is now one of the highlights of my day, to sit there alone, outside in the cold, contemplating my own thoughts.

    I have found this beneficial to my own understanding of the issues that I have on a more philosophical level. Some of these realisations have had a profound effect on the way I see the world. I feel like I can finally feel the motives behind religion; and art. I understand what it is to try and articulate a feeling that there are no words to describe.

    This has somehow made me more aware of the issues that I face and that I am capable of forming stronger social relationships that previously, when I was surrounded by people almost 24/7.

    Has anyone else here had similar experiences?
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    May 22, 2013 10:45 AM GMT
    Yes. Completely.

    After returning to my parent's home town after a break-up AND break-down, I didn't have any friends in the area. So, after work each day I sat in my parent's garden with a bottle of wine and a succession of spliffs, and allowed my mind to run wild with thoughts.

    It was key to my recovery and nurturing a wisdom. It helped me to reconcile a lot of human behaviour and my response to it. I feel a much stronger and wiser person as a result of it.
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    May 22, 2013 12:57 PM GMT
    I too require alone time. However, the old me couldn't discriminate between being alone and being lonely. I could be in a room full of people and still feel just as isolated. I thought I liked being alone, but my behavior wasn't reflective of that. I was still seeking out every method in my aloneness to fix the loneliness. Today I know the difference between the two, and loneliness is nothing more than a consequence-- a consequence I don't choose today.

    I'm not afraid to be with myself today, and that gives me the freedom to finally be alone without loneliness.
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    May 22, 2013 2:59 PM GMT
    Trying to learn more about this. I used to be much better, but as of late I've been finding it more difficult to be alone without falling into unhealthy spirals. More practice needed! icon_smile.gif meditation. Acceptance
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    May 23, 2013 4:27 PM GMT
    Sometimes 'Solitude' is your best friend
    If we can use it well, it teaches us more wisdom than the wisest teacher can teach us.
    If we misuse it, it may turn us into a insane psychopath.

    It's a double edge sword.