Me Against Myself

  • RainBow_Drago...

    Posts: 337

    Aug 13, 2013 10:51 PM GMT
    So I have been trying for a while now to be comfortable in my own skin....

    to obtain my own identity... something I can claim and call my own (:

    What I have come to learn is that people like to identify themselves with one thing or another. "Oh my culture is my identity, or my nationality, or religion, or job or family etc is my identity.

    And It seems all fine for them.... but not me.

    I don't have one thing to identify with. There are more than just one thing that makes us who we're.
    One word is not going to give you the understanding of who somebody is.
    I will tell you a little something about me, I come from a very strong Middle Eastern background. I lived and breathed the culture . I went to Arabic schools and all my friends I liked and associated with were Arabs. I was part of the pan-Arab groups and it was expected for me to marry a nice Arab chick (:
    I was all up on and trapped in little cultural bubble.

    When I first found out I was gay was the first time I was exposed to true multiculturalism.
    It was then that I realized that it wasn't all about being an Arab at all.
    It was about people and learning and taking from those different people and developing a new understanding of me, life and the world.

    It was about belonging and breaking down the walls I placed around myself. icon_smile.gif
    Yeah, I still identify with my culture but I identify now more with other cultures as well this is a piece of the puzzle that you can put together.

    As I continue to put more and more pieces of the puzzles of myself together I develop a whole identity that is me.

    Knowing that I grew up in a family and a culture that I had very little place in, yet I always wanted to affiliate and identify with , is just a weird feeling.

    scared to fly on on my own. Slowly I am breaking myself away from that. Choosing my own path, my own identity, my own voice.

  • AMoonHawk

    Posts: 11405

    Aug 13, 2013 10:59 PM GMT
    sounds like you have discovered the meaning of life icon_smile.gif
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    Aug 13, 2013 11:07 PM GMT
    Will the other culture that you identity with see you as one on them?