TheRece25 saidHot Bi and Divorced at 33... wow some life..
But Bi guys are in high demand when it comes to attraction.. dating wise some worry if the guy can be committed to only 1 for the rest of their life but that really depends on the person..
So going beyond this issue of bisexuality, how about the issue of top vs bottom, or versatile? If I were to put you on the right drugs Rece, which I suspect can substantially alter your neurochemistry, at least temporarily, or even put you in the right environment, I think I can make you into a gay top, and you will be able to visualize sex or to instinctively know how to do it to the extent of porn stars, and not have any mental blocks or anxieties when it comes to it. Gay bottoms and a lot of straight guys essentially take Cialis to maintain an erection for the kind of sexual activity a gay top or a real straight man takes for granted and it's very dependent on their neurochemistry (and I can possibly explain such speculation in more scientific detail, but not now). And wouldn't it be nice Rece, if you could truly switch roles for change?
See Rece, I took a combination of drugs that I know would have affected certain receptors in my brain, and for the first time in my life, I truly knew what it meant to want intimacy from behind... And after the state wore off, it just horrified me that I ever wanted a passive sexual role! Beyond that too, the world was perceived and processed in a very inferior way, and I felt that I was a very submissive person over all. The strength of my mind was gone, and in spite of cultivating more than two decades of virtue, had I maintained that neurochemistry, I would have doubted my capacity to have avoided something like 60 different lifetime sexual partners and accepting money for sex.
Rece, there is also someone here who frequently goes through different moods and psychological states, enough to feel bodily sensations and subsequent activation of different receptors in his brain, that it impacts his willingness to bottom or top someone at any given moment. And he's a clear example, and without the use of drugs, how changes in his endocrine system, impacts his mind to the extent that he's more than just versatile, and can actually perform well when a certain state calls him to exclusively top or bottom someone. Unlike him though, you might be stuck, with your given state, and the subsequent sex role and overall personality that arises from it, and while I can't really explain why this other person experiences such changes in his body and neurochemistry (but it's worth an effort one day), unless you take drugs, or something catastrophic happens to you in which you survive but change a lot from, you will always be a bottom, but don't you want to change that?