i've always liked vampire mythology lol- it represents a universal jungian shadow archetype present in every culture of the world in one form or another- they explore the darker parts of human nature. they represent conquering all that man innately fears- death, disease, age, the dark, and our own sexuality- but at a steep price; and what's more, they are outsiders forever forced to look in. their curse isn't drinking blood- blood is just a parallel for life, and the point there is that they have established themselves as separate from the universe, and therefor must draw on it for life, having fissured their soul in establishing themselves as 'cast out'- when one remembers that all is one and that any effort toward defining oneself as outside of unity is a step in the wrong direction- no,
their curse is lonliness... alienation... forever walking among man, unnoticed, forced to hide, forced to wear a mask... forever alone, a wolf among sheep, who would rise up and tear him apart if discovered. water water everywhere and not a drop to drink.
i don't believe in vampires, but the mythos hits a deep chord with me- being gay and thus in that exact position- separateness, outsiderness, alienation, being pressured to hide among men and conceal my nature for my own safety- social and physical- cursed with perpetual loneliness for my differentness, and the rarity of others like me. but what strength that gives me! the strength to be unique, different, master of myself and my sexuality- to grow stronger over time through adversity and challenge in life! what greater power is there?
i just read the first Twilight book- it has me in agony over my lack of a love life in light of how PERFECT Edward is. its sooo beyond fair that he's so perfect. the author even wrote in the whole unobtainable popular-model-jock-boy aura he has that makes me crave a guy so hopelessly! not to mention the whole moody, hard to guess what he's thinking, bad boy- but still sweet and sensitive and deeply romantic thing going for him! i think that aspect of perfection in his character is more mythical than his being a vampire lol.
HOWEVER im upset by this discussion question i read in the back of my book copy:
"Temptation is a major theme in Twilight... more accurately, resisting one's temptations... discuss..."
and even more so by THIS one:
"the cullens live, act, and care for one another as a family. how much of their ability to do so is dependent on their rule that they live in a manner that contradicts their nature- do you think they'd be able to retain their bond if they weren't all committed to this suppression?"
..... i've always viewed vampires as a metaphor for gays for several reasons and not a few book series and movies play up on this social and moral parallel... these discussion questions seem to make the argument that many right wing nut job christians hold to- that being gay is a lifestyle choice that, even if one is born into, shouldn't be acted on. that we should be expected to just suppress ourselves and live asexual lives. this message is hurtful to me- that the book makes it seem virtuous to suppress one's nature and live in self-hate... that even as the vampires thrive in a stable loving family by suppressing their true selves, so should gays do so? keep in mind also the giant wooden cross on display in the cullen's stark home. kinda poisons the book for me as i obviously vehemently disagree.
there are much better vampire books and movies out there.
that said, yes of COURSE i'll be watching this weekend!!