Scared to lose my youth years alone..

  • Robin_Mark

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    Sep 20, 2013 8:34 PM GMT
    It just kills me inside that I am smart beautiful and mature but don't have choices when it comes to relationships.

    I am not openly gay and forced to live in the closet to keep my relation with my religious family and keep my job also not get deported to my original country Jordan.

    so far i had 3 lousy relations that i know from the beginning it will never work with guys are not at all in my level specially when it comes to lifestyle as i am inspired by great people like Jim Rohn and Tony Robbins (few people would understand. in short, it means i am positive and successful).

    day by day i am getting older and just 1 month back i became 25 its a scary age u know that. of course i realized that being alone is better than being with someone u don't really feel anything for other than a few physical moments. i don't want to bother u with the details but i would really appreciate if u can answer the following question.

    does it really worth it to travel to European country for a week or two and have sex then get back to my regular life, does it solve the problem?

    I don't want to live and die alone, I am really scared.

    I've placed this topic in real jock because i believe in this community and find it mature and smart.
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    Sep 20, 2013 8:47 PM GMT
    You're never forced to be in the closet, that's a choice you're making. You're deciding that you'd rather follow your religion, family and career parameters than live a life being honest to yourself. You know you're gay but YOU choose how to deal with it. Force? No.

    You're not the first guy who's lived like this and you won't be the last. Some never come out and they're fine with it. Some try and live this way end up behind bushes, in public bathrooms or maybe even traveling to Europe to fulfill those sexual desires. Most never are happy because the physical pleasures never make up for the loss of an emotional satisfaction.

    Europe or any other place is fine if you understand it's just for a hookup and in a week it's over. Satisfying? Maybe for the first 10 minutes after but then you're back to the same frustrating loneliness.

    Now you're an adult and only you can decide the benefits and the dangers of remaining in the closet but at the end of the day, YOU make the decision, no one forces you, no one hold you hostage, YOU make the decision.

    Good luck!
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    Sep 20, 2013 9:00 PM GMT
    "I've placed this topic in real jock because i believe in this community and find it mature and smart."

    Scary what you might be comparing us to.

    going with Sharky on this...

    Long term: No.
    if you can afford it and it will buy you some happiness and time to suss things out? go for it, but long term, No.
    A lot of us go thru this stage: "I'll make it work, just get some dick a few times a year...get it out of my system".
    --even make it work; rationalizing all of it, till the few times a year, turns in to a few times a week and you get caught or find out you can have an emotional relationship with man as well as the hot sex.
    By then it might be to late.
  • Robin_Mark

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    Sep 20, 2013 9:19 PM GMT
    Aristo,EB and Dustin thank you..

    do you know if LGBT communities help gays to relocate from such countries to more educated countries?

    As I know i can't afford living alone and not having the emotional part fulfilled, I decided to relocate.

    but I can't be open until i find a country that allow me to do so.
  • Robin_Mark

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    Sep 20, 2013 9:23 PM GMT
    dustin_K_tx said"I've placed this topic in real jock because i believe in this community and find it mature and smart."

    Scary what you might be comparing us to.

    going with Sharky on this...

    Long term: No.
    if you can afford it and it will buy you some happiness and time to suss things out? go for it, but long term, No.
    A lot of us go thru this stage: "I'll make it work, just get some dick a few times a year...get it out of my system".
    --even make it work; rationalizing all of it, till the few times a year, turns in to a few times a week and you get caught or find out you can have an emotional relationship with man as well as the hot sex.
    By then it might be to late.


    In fact i can't afford it more than once a year and it will screw my savings definitely.
  • Robin_Mark

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    Sep 20, 2013 9:28 PM GMT
    dustin_K_tx said"I've placed this topic in real jock because i believe in this community and find it mature and smart."

    Scary what you might be comparing us to.


    I mean in my age i should have few serious relations (one at least), it might not be the life long relation but it will fill few empty spaces of my heart.