Oct 05, 2013 12:23 AM GMT
So my latest involvement just ended. And I'm here processing it. I don't want advice. I just want to vent a bit. It lasted 6-7 weeks. It almost.. almost.. got to the next level, but no dice.
His name was Matt. Hot, bearded thirty-something bartender and graduate student. Super hot--and he's not aware of it--and just an amazing bottom. I thought I had hit the sex lottery, it was so good. He was also a swell guy: Had ambitions, was pursuing a graduate degree, had a job, and was.. *gasp*.. communicative, for a chance.
I thought I had hit that lottery. We saw each other several times. No dates.. but amazing sex.. and it seemed he was opened to dating and he said so. Unfortunately, he's schedule was just too busy: School, Internship and a job just took most of his time. The rest of his time has to go to studying. I tried my darnest to be understanding.. as I work hard too and my time is limited.
I thought we were gonna work at finding time to get together. I made my best effort.. but it became clear as the weeks passed he had no time. No time on weekdays. No time on Friday nights.. No time on Saturdays.. No time on Sundays. Damn it!!
Then I saw him log on Scruff (that's how I met him) and brushed it off. Today, I saw him there again (I kept myself off the app for many weeks as I was seeing him and I stopped dating others).. When I saw him on it today, I just couldn't held back anymore and asked him how he felt. I wanted a direct response. Told him to let me down easily.
His response: His priority was school and internship. He simply had no time to juggle me.
And just like that *poof* over! I don 't know how to feel. I'm just processing it. I guess it's better for it to end here before it got heavier.. but damn if the sex wasn't fucking fantastic. Damn it, why couldn't I have met him when he was done with damn school!
Now, I move on. The perfect was perfectable amicable but I blocked him on Scruff so I could forge forward. I don't think I want to keep a friendship going, either. It's just gonna be a painful.. and he didn't quite get into the things I like (films, art, video games, etc).
Ok.. Enough venting.. Time to move on with life.
His name was Matt. Hot, bearded thirty-something bartender and graduate student. Super hot--and he's not aware of it--and just an amazing bottom. I thought I had hit the sex lottery, it was so good. He was also a swell guy: Had ambitions, was pursuing a graduate degree, had a job, and was.. *gasp*.. communicative, for a chance.
I thought I had hit that lottery. We saw each other several times. No dates.. but amazing sex.. and it seemed he was opened to dating and he said so. Unfortunately, he's schedule was just too busy: School, Internship and a job just took most of his time. The rest of his time has to go to studying. I tried my darnest to be understanding.. as I work hard too and my time is limited.
I thought we were gonna work at finding time to get together. I made my best effort.. but it became clear as the weeks passed he had no time. No time on weekdays. No time on Friday nights.. No time on Saturdays.. No time on Sundays. Damn it!!
Then I saw him log on Scruff (that's how I met him) and brushed it off. Today, I saw him there again (I kept myself off the app for many weeks as I was seeing him and I stopped dating others).. When I saw him on it today, I just couldn't held back anymore and asked him how he felt. I wanted a direct response. Told him to let me down easily.
His response: His priority was school and internship. He simply had no time to juggle me.
And just like that *poof* over! I don 't know how to feel. I'm just processing it. I guess it's better for it to end here before it got heavier.. but damn if the sex wasn't fucking fantastic. Damn it, why couldn't I have met him when he was done with damn school!
Now, I move on. The perfect was perfectable amicable but I blocked him on Scruff so I could forge forward. I don't think I want to keep a friendship going, either. It's just gonna be a painful.. and he didn't quite get into the things I like (films, art, video games, etc).
Ok.. Enough venting.. Time to move on with life.