Late nights with our thoughts

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    Oct 13, 2013 2:34 AM GMT
    Of course ever so often everyone has those nights where you just lay in bed, look up at black ceiling and just think about literally EVERYTHING. I personally hate it because most of the time when I think too much I start to get anxiety, sometimes a adrenaline, and it takes me even longer to fall asleep. It sucks to be honest, well depending on what your thinking about. Usually what I think about when I stay up is what I have planned for the next day, or looking back at some of my past decisions or mistakes and how it's effected me and even upcoming event's or things I have to do that stress me out, lol.

    Anyways, I thought I'd write something since I can't fall asleep. I'd rather write about something then think right now to be honest. Welp, I'm gonna try to fall asleep now. Goodnight everyone. Sweet dreams. icon_smile.gif
  • MikeW

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    Oct 13, 2013 2:52 AM GMT
    I like this topic, thank you icon_smile.gif

    I don't have any problem falling asleep. If I stay up past 11:30, I easily doze off sitting right here at my computer, usually while watching a movie or something. (It really says something if I doze off while watching porn, which I do on occasion.) Once I catch myself nodding out a couple times I figure it is time for bed. So I crawl in, get the covers and pillows all set just the way I like them and turn the light out. One of the pillows is a 'cuddle' pillow because I miss cuddling *a lot*. Even more so than sex. The latter I can take care of by myself but cuddling by definition requires another warm body.

    Once the light is out my mind wanders around various things a bit but very quickly I slip into a hypnagogic state and soon thereafter I'm gone from this world. At least for a few hours.

    Often around 3 or 4 AM I wake up with a woody, usually having had some sort of weird dream and now having to take an early morning piss. I keep a jar near my bed for this purpose but the act of rousing myself and pissing into the jar kind of wakes me up. Now when I lay back down again I'm awake but not totally. I often just lie there and watch as my mind conjures various things, anything from thoughts to visions of sorts.

    I'm often quite surprised by the thoughts that go through my head. What I mean is, I'm used to my on-going chatter about various things and have a 'sense' of what those habitual type thoughts are. But *sometimes* what begins going through my brain doesn't seem or feel 'like me' at all. It's as if I'm a radio receiver or something and am picking up strange thoughts and associations from other people, neighbors perhaps. This is very weird and unsettling as hell.

    But, eventually, after punching the cuddle pillow a few times to plump it into shape, I eventually begin to drift off again. Then when I wake up in the morning I look at the dim light of the room and think, "Another day, another day."
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    Oct 13, 2013 3:43 AM GMT
    Lovegame_18 saidOf course ever so often everyone has those nights where you just lay in bed, look up at black ceiling and just think about literally EVERYTHING.


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    mmhm, I know what that's like.
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    Oct 13, 2013 4:08 AM GMT
    http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Racing_thoughts
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    Oct 13, 2013 6:14 AM GMT
    Yeah I have issues sleeping cause I can't turn off my brain. I just keep thinking about everything.