Dreams

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    Nov 23, 2013 6:05 AM GMT
    What are your dreams?? What do you want out if life ??
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    Nov 23, 2013 6:11 AM GMT
    For me I can see myself being an author. Hopefully married to a man I love and who loves me, with my doggie Athena somewhere near the ocean ( maybe back in cali) also travelling the world
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    Nov 23, 2013 6:28 AM GMT
    I've had it rough I understand most of that
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    Nov 23, 2013 9:55 AM GMT
    My dream, well you know my dream...but ill say it in this new verision without you cuz i see you dont want to be apart of it anymore...
    So i want to finish my study in general medicine, become a specialist in urgent medicine, and be a doctor in nutrition.
    I want to leave a mark on the world with what i do, also i wish to take my art to a higher level, get the crazy twisted side of me on paper and make my emotions real.
    I wanna move get my residency in Germany and make enough money to open a gym( hopefully my husband will be a gym lover and can take over the gym while i work in medicine) and give people advice about nutrition and living healthy.
    I want to get married with the man i love have 2 kids and a dog and give my kids the things i never had and help them follow there dreams.
    I want to find that special someone who can make my heart melt with one word and make the most horible and rainy day sunny again and travel with him in all the beautiful places of this world and have lots of crazy sex with him.
    I live to love, to help, to heal, to learn, to teach, to create, to recreate, to be a symbol of straight and determination, i want youth, i want to have that wisdom that some people have in reading others...i want a life as God intended us to have when he created this world full of joy, laughter, proud, fun, lov.
    My dream is to be happy and in love. icon_smile.gif
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    Nov 23, 2013 5:39 PM GMT
    Enjoying my not so far away retirement ...icon_biggrin.gif
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    Nov 23, 2013 7:18 PM GMT
    thebearerofbadnews saidthis is kind of personal so aye... i know some people will laugh at this but FUCK what they think.

    would like to have my own apartment, my own car, and be able to have a decent job where i can survive off of instead of basically doing underpaid jobs, still living with my parents and riding the bus or borrowing other people's rides to go to places. something where i could at least keep some sort of money to save up instead of having all of it dissolve where i gotta be extra thrifty and cheap. it would be nice if it also involved my college degree as well that i have sitting on top of the shelf. icon_mad.gif i know some people will yap their mouths about how "easy" the shit is but they probably can't relate to wtf i'm saying so fuck em if they laughing or dissing. it would be nice to be able to be independent and surviving on my own instead of relying on someone else because i can't. it really pisses me off.

    i also would like to go to law school, be able to come out the closet, be all comfortable with my sexual orientation, be more confident where i'm not so self conscious, be able to trust people and not be so paranoid where i think folks are out to get me or screw me over, have my little mental conditions gone where i'm not bothered by them and basically have the same thing that i see folks take for granted and etc. but all of that shit is hard to reach as i'm trying to struggle for the simple things and it REALLY frustrates where as soon as i get the sense that folks wanna try to make shit hard for me, i really hate them and despise them to the point where i want to hurt them or wish death on em because they're trying to ruin my livelihood or take whatever that i have left or see me in the poorhouse, homeless. hell no.


    Buddy, you do realize you're pretty sick. If you want to accomplish any of this you need to get some professional help. Try your local public health clinic and see if they can offer some counseling services. You are bitter and resentful and paranoid. Get some help, mate. It can be better.
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    Nov 23, 2013 7:39 PM GMT
    thebearerofbadnews said
    Destinharbor said
    thebearerofbadnews saidthis is kind of personal so aye... i know some people will laugh at this but FUCK what they think.

    would like to have my own apartment, my own car, and be able to have a decent job where i can survive off of instead of basically doing underpaid jobs, still living with my parents and riding the bus or borrowing other people's rides to go to places. something where i could at least keep some sort of money to save up instead of having all of it dissolve where i gotta be extra thrifty and cheap. it would be nice if it also involved my college degree as well that i have sitting on top of the shelf. icon_mad.gif i know some people will yap their mouths about how "easy" the shit is but they probably can't relate to wtf i'm saying so fuck em if they laughing or dissing. it would be nice to be able to be independent and surviving on my own instead of relying on someone else because i can't. it really pisses me off.

    i also would like to go to law school, be able to come out the closet, be all comfortable with my sexual orientation, be more confident where i'm not so self conscious, be able to trust people and not be so paranoid where i think folks are out to get me or screw me over, have my little mental conditions gone where i'm not bothered by them and basically have the same thing that i see folks take for granted and etc. but all of that shit is hard to reach as i'm trying to struggle for the simple things and it REALLY frustrates where as soon as i get the sense that folks wanna try to make shit hard for me, i really hate them and despise them to the point where i want to hurt them or wish death on em because they're trying to ruin my livelihood or take whatever that i have left or see me in the poorhouse, homeless. hell no.


    Buddy, you do realize you're pretty sick. If you want to accomplish any of this you need to get some professional help. Try your local public health clinic and see if they can offer some counseling services. You are bitter and resentful and paranoid. Get some help, mate. It can be better.


    sick????? well, here's some news for you. apparently, the mental health clinic that i went to around this time last year/the first half of this year disagrees with you. i have some conditions BUT it's not that bad where i need psychiatric treatment or have to be hospitalized because i have no sense of reality or am unaware of what's going on. i have a clear sense of reality. in fact, that's what almost all of the mental health places that i've been to in the past six years have told me. all i have is anxiety and depression issues which they pretty much said that i just have to keep active to manage so i'm good. they were trying to put me on zoloft but that obviously wasn't working so aye. i just have an issue with managing my emotions but compared to others where they're actually lashing out, getting violent and etc, i'm NOT that bad as i haven't gotten to that point yet.

    you're misunderstanding me talking about my frustrations for something that it's not which is fucked up on your part.

    No, you're so angry and paranoid you can't accept help. I know the mental health maze is difficult and it takes a while to find the ONE therapist who can actually help but you are very sick. Keep exploring finding help. And try to follow. Until you do you will never achieve your goals. Even something as simple as living on your own.
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    Nov 23, 2013 7:43 PM GMT
    Get to where I can afford to retire, spend time with my grandkids, travel with my partner and just enjoy life comfortably without worrying about what time I need to get up or go to bed or how much money I'll need this week. Not looking to be filthy rich but just self sufficient.
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    Nov 23, 2013 8:48 PM GMT
    thebearerofbadnews said
    Destinharbor said
    thebearerofbadnews said
    Destinharbor said
    thebearerofbadnews saidthis is kind of personal so aye... i know some people will laugh at this but FUCK what they think.

    would like to have my own apartment, my own car, and be able to have a decent job where i can survive off of instead of basically doing underpaid jobs, still living with my parents and riding the bus or borrowing other people's rides to go to places. something where i could at least keep some sort of money to save up instead of having all of it dissolve where i gotta be extra thrifty and cheap. it would be nice if it also involved my college degree as well that i have sitting on top of the shelf. icon_mad.gif i know some people will yap their mouths about how "easy" the shit is but they probably can't relate to wtf i'm saying so fuck em if they laughing or dissing. it would be nice to be able to be independent and surviving on my own instead of relying on someone else because i can't. it really pisses me off.

    i also would like to go to law school, be able to come out the closet, be all comfortable with my sexual orientation, be more confident where i'm not so self conscious, be able to trust people and not be so paranoid where i think folks are out to get me or screw me over, have my little mental conditions gone where i'm not bothered by them and basically have the same thing that i see folks take for granted and etc. but all of that shit is hard to reach as i'm trying to struggle for the simple things and it REALLY frustrates where as soon as i get the sense that folks wanna try to make shit hard for me, i really hate them and despise them to the point where i want to hurt them or wish death on em because they're trying to ruin my livelihood or take whatever that i have left or see me in the poorhouse, homeless. hell no.


    Buddy, you do realize you're pretty sick. If you want to accomplish any of this you need to get some professional help. Try your local public health clinic and see if they can offer some counseling services. You are bitter and resentful and paranoid. Get some help, mate. It can be better.


    sick????? well, here's some news for you. apparently, the mental health clinic that i went to around this time last year/the first half of this year disagrees with you. i have some conditions BUT it's not that bad where i need psychiatric treatment or have to be hospitalized because i have no sense of reality or am unaware of what's going on. i have a clear sense of reality. in fact, that's what almost all of the mental health places that i've been to in the past six years have told me. all i have is anxiety and depression issues which they pretty much said that i just have to keep active to manage so i'm good. they were trying to put me on zoloft but that obviously wasn't working so aye. i just have an issue with managing my emotions but compared to others where they're actually lashing out, getting violent and etc, i'm NOT that bad as i haven't gotten to that point yet.

    you're misunderstanding me talking about my frustrations for something that it's not which is fucked up on your part.

    No, you're so angry and paranoid you can't accept help. I know the mental health maze is difficult and it takes a while to find the ONE therapist who can actually help but you are very sick. Keep exploring finding help. And try to follow. Until you do you will never achieve your goals. Even something as simple as living on your own.


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    uhhh... no. i know myself better than you do. i CAN reach my goals. it's that like everything in life, i have to WORK on them and keep on trying. i just haven't had much luck yet. it may be taking me some time to get there but i will as long as i'm making an effort towards something. what i said was out of sheer frustration because i was annoyed at how i've been trying, pushing and haven't had much luck yet. plus there's other things that i want to do BUT i feel as if i'm running out of time plus i have a lot of pressure coming from other people around me that's stressing me out. yeah, i get a bit irritated at the fact that i'm trying to get at some employers but they're playing games.

    you are misunderstanding what i said, breh.
    Its oke lov, dont put to heart what people think, do your thing and live your life by your own rules just stop hating ...let it go and think about yourself in making yourself a better person.Big hug for your courage.
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    Nov 23, 2013 8:51 PM GMT
    for an xl hung top chem bb fun nsa....???
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    Nov 24, 2013 8:54 AM GMT
    Travel the world some more, been to about 5 different countries, Asia, Europe and N. America. I like to travel more, I really want to go on and compete on the Amazing Race! with a partner of course.

    Find a guy that's compatible and love me! 3rd time a charm.

    Making good okay money in the job I chosen and doing something creative on the side! helping out my family too!


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  • babebasil

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    Nov 24, 2013 12:38 PM GMT
    hmm

    travelling the world. opening up a profitable business and spending the rest of my time with a partner being ridiculously happy and well officon_biggrin.gif
    Did I mention travelling the world and opening up a business?