Economic Frustration, Knowing I'd Be An Excellent Pornographer

  • 6packabs

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    Dec 02, 2013 12:06 PM GMT
    I'm born and raised with a conservative background. I've always been intensely sexual in nature, but all my life have driven myself to near madness trying to control and suppress those raging hormones and what they every pushed me to want to do.

    I've always known since a teen---somehow I've just had a "knowing"---that I could be a magnificent pornographer, directing beautiful male models into fun sex scenes that were unique. I believe I have an amazing talent for that. I would have had a work ethic like few others, and loved every hour at work, or so it would seem.

    I've felt that such a career path would have been total death in terms of going against my background and tradition with which I was raised, so I have taken great strains to keep from heading toward that field or anything like it.

    But, nothing else in life feels to work out in terms of career. I feel thwarted, deeply frustrated, a "jack of all trades and master of none" with nothing that I have a total passion for and want to do for the rest of my life. But hell, dealing with male bodies and sex daily would have been wonderful in terms of career, in my mind.

    Does anyone have anything to counter? Delusion on my part? Anyone here been in that industry? Is it fun long term? Does it get too raunchy after a while, or can it be rewarding? And approaching age 40, entry is probably not too likely, I would suppose, at least by firms already established.

    If there be anyone here who works in that industry, I'd love to hear your insights.
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    Dec 02, 2013 1:02 PM GMT
    i say forget tradition and go for it. also, if you need a lighting guy, i would be more than happy to help out a fellow RJer.