I Need To Share This

  • Joeyphx444

    Posts: 2382

    Dec 10, 2013 3:08 AM GMT
    I think talking about this will help

    Ever since I have been diagnosed with HIV and I have had some recent problems back there icon_sad.gif I have started feeling it emotionally. I almost feel like I am not wanted anymore. Who would want all these problems? Yeah, I don't do drugs, I am not a drunk or anything but deep down I know it's real hard for most men to deal with. I had a boyfriend that only lasted a month and he said a bunch of things but the real reason for it ending could have been the HIV or the fact that we never did anything as terms of anal cuz I was having troubles there. If anything thing, it makes things harder for me in finding a good man but at the same time I feel like I am like one of those "don't open if seal is broken" types icon_sad.gif

    I had to say this in writing since it's been bothering me for a while. I don't have many gay friends who would help or understand so I came here I guess. I been on here for 2008 and although there's a lot of craziness and jerks here, there are great guys too I think. I felt comfortable to share pretty personal things here, thanks
  • Trauts

    Posts: 1012

    Dec 10, 2013 3:48 AM GMT
    I came across this recently. I hope it'll help.

    http://thebachbook.com/movingforward/

    The person that was interviewed also wrote an article here: http://thebachbook.com/meadlessons/


    Sometimes in life we reach our lowest points just so we can built ourselves up again to be better people for others. You'll get through this
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    Dec 10, 2013 4:43 AM GMT
    You're not broken. You're most fine, just the way you are.
    I've had POZ partners before and never once thought of them as damaged goods. You can stop with those thoughts, right now. Let someone in fully and put your life back on track.
    You have just as much to offer as the next guy.
  • jo2hotbod

    Posts: 3603

    Dec 10, 2013 4:44 AM GMT
    Keep talking and find those you can share with who will listen and respond, don't keep it to yourself to get through this lean on others