Something I'm laughing at now.

  • Eli_jah

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    Dec 28, 2013 5:39 AM GMT
    I wrote this to my "crush" a couple of months ago when I was hung over and lonely:

    I love you, C. I don't care how inappropriate or weird it is to say that. You are a very special man and I hope you find your own version of happiness. From what I've gleaned from my brief conversations with you, you are leaving New York, and I am glad. New York is a truly toxic place. I love it, but it's true. I was peaceful and content in other places, here I am fretful and anxious and lonely. But your brief appearances in my life helped me in some way. I was drawn to your sense of stability, the way you remained centered and calm in the midst of chaos and ugliness. By now, I have said too much, and you probably think that I am insane, but I am just desperate, and I don't know why I am writing you, just that you are a beautiful boy who was once kind to me...

    I was mortified, of course, after sending it, but he responded a couple of days later with:

    I think that's an incredibly sweet message, Elijah. It made me feel really good to read someone say such nice things. I don't think it's weird or inappropriate at all...it's sad that people don't have more feelings like that to share with each other. Thank you for being you.

    Mess.
  • Eli_jah

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    Dec 28, 2013 5:39 AM GMT
    I took out the man's name (C).
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    Dec 28, 2013 5:58 AM GMT
    Why on earth would you be mortified?? That was lovely. And I'm a crusty old cynic with an empty rotted core where my heart used to be, if I ever had one, and I still think so.
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    Dec 28, 2013 6:07 AM GMT
    Aristoshark saidWhy on earth would you be mortified?? That was lovely. And I'm a crusty old cynic with an empty rotted core where my heart used to be, if I ever had one, and I still think so.


    *Peers down into empty rotted core, sees something bright and beating*

    Uh oh....

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  • Eli_jah

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    Dec 28, 2013 6:18 AM GMT
    Aristoshark saidWhy on earth would you be mortified?? That was lovely. And I'm a crusty old cynic with an empty rotted core where my heart used to be, if I ever had one, and I still think so.


    I guess it's hard to expose oneself so thoroughly. Telling someone how you feel is not easy.