Jmusmc85 year in review 2013....what's your story?

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    Dec 31, 2013 5:03 AM GMT
    Hi guys! icon_biggrin.gif

    I did this exact same thread a year ago for 2012, figured I would do one for 2013....

    http://www.realjock.com/gayforums/2880303


    Well, 2013 wasn't so much about me finding myself as it was about me finding myself in trouble. Over all it was a much better year than 2012, though I think at this point I'm over the party and South Beach lifestyle. Moving here has certainly exposed me to stuff that I have never been exposed to before, both good and bad.

    At the start of 2013, I began to realize I still had a lot of built up stress and frustrations about the situation with my ex. Not that I wasn't over him, it was just for the first time since we broke I was finally starting to deal with the aftermath of the break up. It's hard to explain. I decided to go see a therapist about this whole thing and I think the most important thing I took out of it was that I didn't have to forgive him for what he did. I felt that I needed to do that in order to move on, but I don't. And now, I'm ok with that. I really am. I no longer let him occupy a negative place in my mind like he did before. I let all the anger and resentment go for once. icon_biggrin.gif

    I also found a group of friends to call my own. I didn't have that support system when the year began. My summer was spent with them at the beach. We laid out in the sun all day and partied all night. It was fun while it lasted.

    My sex life certainly improved in Miami. I don't know if it was me really getting my ass in the best shape of my life or just the quality of men here. Either way I'm surprised my dick hasn't fallen off by now. icon_twisted.gif This is the part where the porn stars and hot muscly escorts come in to play. It's easy to get myself in trouble when I live in a city with some of the most beautiful people in the world.

    To end this year I met an awesome gentleman on Instagram by weird chance. Ya'll know him as Mr. X. He is a very influential and powerful figure here. I actually had no idea who he was when I began to follow him, I just thought he was extremely handsome and took pretty pictures. I had no idea who he was or even that he lived a few blocks away from me. I Googled him and was very impressed by his resume. After a couple of months of talking we finally met, and I fell head over heels for him. Though TBH, I don't know if he feels the same. I rarely meet guys like him who I want to get to know outside of the bedroom, so for me to feel this way about a man is rare. Hopefully I will get to know him more in 2014. icon_redface.gif

    I also lost my grandfather this summer. While it was sad to see him ago I'm grateful he lived a long and happy life. He left a lot as his legacy. icon_cry.gif Though my first trip home in 8 years reminded me exactly why I don't like going back. I feel so much stays the same in my family. I'm the black sheep of the family who is openly gay and joined the military and lives with the freaks of Miami. Both parents reminded me that they are still not 100% comfortable with me being gay. Somethings never change....icon_rolleyes.gif

    Anyways, my plan for 2014 is to be a little less slutty, a little less drugy, and little less drunky. Though I will certainly be no angel...icon_twisted.gificon_twisted.gif


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    Dec 31, 2013 5:06 AM GMT
    tl;dr
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    Dec 31, 2013 5:08 AM GMT
    unfounded7 saidtl;dr


    CLiffnotes version: I'm young and beautiful. icon_cool.gif
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    Dec 31, 2013 5:11 AM GMT
    jmusmc85 saidCLiffnotes version: I'm young and beautiful. icon_cool.gif


    icon_lol.gif Funniest story I've heard all week!
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    Dec 31, 2013 5:12 AM GMT
    unfounded7 said
    jmusmc85 saidCLiffnotes version: I'm young and beautiful. icon_cool.gif


    icon_lol.gif Funniest story I've heard all week!



    I'm pouring my heart out and this is how you treat me....icon_cry.gif
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    Dec 31, 2013 5:16 AM GMT
    jmusmc85 saidI'm pouring my heart out and this is how you treat me....icon_cry.gif


    Pretty much. Isn't that why we've grown so close over the years? icon_confused.gif
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    Dec 31, 2013 5:17 AM GMT
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    jmusmc85 saidI'm pouring my heart out and this is how you treat me....icon_cry.gif


    Pretty much. Isn't that why we've grown so close over the years? icon_confused.gif


    You aren't fucking me! You can't treat me like crap for nothing!!!icon_mad.gif
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    Dec 31, 2013 5:18 AM GMT
    jmusmc85 said
    unfounded7 said
    jmusmc85 saidCLiffnotes version: I'm young and beautiful. icon_cool.gif


    icon_lol.gif Funniest story I've heard all week!



    I'm pouring my heart out and this is how you treat me....icon_cry.gif



    aww, just for you, because everyone has a song icon_razz.gif

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    Dec 31, 2013 5:19 AM GMT
    Hey jm sorry about gramp, screw the old bf and good luck with the new. Lets strive for no banishments this year, I can't bare the thought of another period without youicon_wink.gif
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    Dec 31, 2013 5:20 AM GMT
    jo2hotbod saidHey jm sorry about gramp, screw the old bf and good luck with the new. Lets strive for no banishments this year, I can't bare the thought of another period without youicon_wink.gif


    Oh fuck being PC!!!! If they ban me, all I have to do is go to my local Starbucks and sign up again....icon_lol.gif
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    Dec 31, 2013 5:22 AM GMT
    jmusmc85 said
    You aren't fucking me! You can't treat me like crap for nothing!!!icon_mad.gif


    It certainly seems like I can treat you like a back alley whore, and you'll like it.

    Sorry I derailed your heartfelt thread! icon_lol.gif
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    Dec 31, 2013 5:24 AM GMT
    I want to roll around on that beach of yours with the whole cast of characters, and you of courseicon_cool.gif
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    Dec 31, 2013 5:24 AM GMT
    unfounded7 said
    jmusmc85 said
    You aren't fucking me! You can't treat me like crap for nothing!!!icon_mad.gif


    It certainly seems like I can treat you like a back alley whore, and you'll like it.

    Sorry I derailed your heartfelt thread! icon_lol.gif


    There's a certain way to win my heart, and it's NOT treating me like a back alley whore...

    It's making me THINK I'm a back alley whore, but treating me as your partner...icon_redface.gif

    It's hard to explain....
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    Dec 31, 2013 5:26 AM GMT
    jo2hotbod saidI want to roll around on that beach of yours with the whole cast of characters, and you of courseicon_cool.gif


    How bout you just roll around with me in bed instead....icon_twisted.gif
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    Dec 31, 2013 5:35 AM GMT
    jmusmc85 said
    jo2hotbod saidI want to roll around on that beach of yours with the whole cast of characters, and you of courseicon_cool.gif


    How bout you just roll around with me in bed instead....icon_twisted.gif


    Sweet!!icon_biggrin.gif
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    Dec 31, 2013 5:37 AM GMT
    //facepalms//
    many //facepalms//
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    Dec 31, 2013 5:37 AM GMT
    Aristoshark said//facepalms//
    many //facepalms//


    What did I do now?icon_biggrin.gif
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    Dec 31, 2013 5:39 AM GMT
    jmusmc85 said
    Aristoshark said//facepalms//
    many //facepalms//


    What did I do now?icon_biggrin.gif


    Toss him back in
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    Dec 31, 2013 5:39 AM GMT
    jmusmc85 said
    Aristoshark said//facepalms//
    many //facepalms//


    What did I do now?icon_biggrin.gif

    Nothing at all. You're the best.
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    Dec 31, 2013 5:43 AM GMT
    Aristoshark said
    jmusmc85 said
    Aristoshark said//facepalms//
    many //facepalms//


    What did I do now?icon_biggrin.gif

    Nothing at all. You're the best.


    icon_cry.gif

    Sawwy if I disappoint you.

    BRB...going to jump off the causeway....
  • PR_GMR

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    Dec 31, 2013 5:53 AM GMT
    unfounded7 saidtl;dr


    I did. Good recap, Johnnie. It shows that you've grown a bit.

    Here's my story (and I warn you. it's tl;dr)

    2013 was my first full year in NYC. I had already been here for 6 months when the year started. Ironically, my year started in the same way it has ended: Working hard to pay the bills. Not finding much filmmaking opportunities. In love and with my heart broken.

    Back in December 2012, I was infatuated with a Romanian therapist a few years my junior whom I fucked once and twice. I thought he was attractive and he seemed to have been interested.. until my retail work schedule (Best Buy) made it not possible to hang out. Shortly after the New Year, it ended, but stayed hung up on him for a few more months. We're now friends (I helped him get over a guy), though not very close. He's part of a different gay world--the inner city NYC, affluent, trendy gay world.. and I live the life of a struggling artist in Brooklyn. We rarely hang out.

    I found solace last winter by hanging out with another gay man, the first man I had dated when I moved to NYC, a latin makeup artist. The relationship didn't work out but we became friends.. hanging out at gay bars and sharing stories of gay hookups. He could be a lot of fun. Unfortunately, the friendship wasn't meant to last. He had major anger issues, but things got very sour after he got a HIV positive diagnosis.. while I continued to be Neg and a 'happy whore'. Early in the summer (on Memorial Day weekend) the friendship finally imploded. He was an absolute bastard when he got angry.. and the fact he had started using steroids made him worse. We saw each other at the gym a couple of times after things ended, but he finally dissappeared from my life during the summer when he changed gyms. Yet, I took the important lesson from this man on how the trendy, fast life of NYC can turn a gay man into a well-muscled, perpetually angry, bitter, materialistic, trendy queen.

    Over the spring and summer, I found some filmmaking opportunities, but nothing substantial. I got a tough lesson on the cutthroat life of NYC indie filmmaking back in March, when I was fired as an unpaid PA from an indie feature film. I kept slowly plugging away at a personal project, while working hard at a Best Buy job.

    In the Spring, I met another man and lover--a tall, attractive movie costume designer. I had my sweet eye on him thru the spring..and we connected some, but learned yet another tough lesson on the harshness of NYC gay dating when he completely cut me off this past early summer after accusing me of giving him an STD (I was clean).

    Late in the summer, I met two men who made things very interesting for me. One was a restaurant manager who had recently moved into my neighborhood from Chicago. We had one amazing one-night stand...but things quickly devolved into a meaningless fuckbuddy situation (he didn't want to date and sex got terrible) and we finally completely disconnected...due to the second guy--a 29-year old tall, sexy graduate student.. who turned out to be the best lover I've ever had.

    Little did I know back in August, weeks before turning 40, how deeply I was gonna fall for this graduate student. Right from the get-go, the sex was great.. I knew it from the first time we fucked and he smiled from ear to ear the entire time..I knew I was rocking his world.. he was rocking mine.. and it only got better. Each time we fucked, we talked and connected. He's a good guy--caring, communicative, passionate, engaging, educated. He's also Poz.. but I didn't give a fuck (I'm still neg to this day).

    I changed job locations in October and I truly thought I had hit the motherlode--a boyfriend and a good job. Nothing much was happening with my filmmaking but I thought I had met 'the one'. But, NYC has a way of crushing people.. and I got crushed like a bug. My new job location turned into a bit of a nightmare.. and things with Hot Graduate student ended shortly after Thanksgiving. Despite a good connection and the most amazing sex both of us have ever had, he simply can't entertain a relationship with me because he has made a grueling time-consuming commitment to school and work. He simply couldn't give me the relationship I wanted.. and said it as such when he broke it off. There was talking of 'keeping in touch' and reconnecting later one, but we're now two ships fast moving away from one another in the night.

    I fell in love with NYC over three years ago after a series of short trips. I thought my life was going to change for the better while living here. That hasn't been the case. I don't think I've suffered as much in the ten years prior than in the year and a half that I've been here. I don't know how else to explain it, but maybe the universe didn't want me to move here. I really have no clue what 2014 is going to bring for me. I've little hope for my film career or my romantic life. I don't think I'll ever meet another guy like Hot Graduate student. The only thing I know is that I'm not going back to Baltimore, to a life from which I'm now stranged. I will prefer to die in NYC trying than to go back.

    Things are truly very dark for me at the end of 2013. I sincerely hope 2014 shines a light on my poor soul.
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    Dec 31, 2013 6:10 AM GMT
    My 2013 year in review from my gay world perspective.

    -I had my first breakup ever
    -I learned to rebuild myself after my first breakup ever.
    -I got catfished on a flight to meet a guy
    -Ended up spending Gay Days at DisneyWorld and met another guy
    -Got published and interviewed in a gay, Orlando, magazine.
    -Broke up with my second boyfriend who turned out to be a lying, cheating, asshole.
    -Tried my first hookup with an older, extremely rich, bodybuilder.
    -I learned my self worth.
    -I gained a lot of physical and mental strength
    -I met my current boyfriend here in town... we're currently dating and things are awesome!
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    Dec 31, 2013 6:12 AM GMT
    JumpMan_Josh saidMy 2013 year in review from my gay world perspective.

    -I had my first breakup ever
    -I learned to rebuild myself after my first breakup ever.
    -I got catfished on a flight to meet a guy
    -Ended up spending Gay Days at DisneyWorld and met another guy
    -Got published and interviewed in a gay, Orlando, magazine.
    -Broke up with my second boyfriend who turned out to be a lying, cheating, asshole.
    -Tried my first hookup with an older, extremely rich, bodybuilder.
    -I learned my self worth.
    -I gained a lot of physical and mental strength
    -I met my third boyfriend here in town... we're currently dating and things are awesome!


    3 boyfriends in one year? Jesus Christ I can't even get one!icon_mad.gif
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    Dec 31, 2013 6:13 AM GMT
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    JumpMan_Josh saidMy 2013 year in review from my gay world perspective.

    -I had my first breakup ever
    -I learned to rebuild myself after my first breakup ever.
    -I got catfished on a flight to meet a guy
    -Ended up spending Gay Days at DisneyWorld and met another guy
    -Got published and interviewed in a gay, Orlando, magazine.
    -Broke up with my second boyfriend who turned out to be a lying, cheating, asshole.
    -Tried my first hookup with an older, extremely rich, bodybuilder.
    -I learned my self worth.
    -I gained a lot of physical and mental strength
    -I met my third boyfriend here in town... we're currently dating and things are awesome!


    3 boyfriends in one year? Jesus Christ I can't even get one!icon_mad.gif


    Not to mention the hookup with the rich bodybuilder! Now that I think about it I'm a whore icon_mad.gif
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    Dec 31, 2013 6:14 AM GMT
    jmusmc85 said
    JumpMan_Josh saidMy 2013 year in review from my gay world perspective.

    -I had my first breakup ever
    -I learned to rebuild myself after my first breakup ever.
    -I got catfished on a flight to meet a guy
    -Ended up spending Gay Days at DisneyWorld and met another guy
    -Got published and interviewed in a gay, Orlando, magazine.
    -Broke up with my second boyfriend who turned out to be a lying, cheating, asshole.
    -Tried my first hookup with an older, extremely rich, bodybuilder.
    -I learned my self worth.
    -I gained a lot of physical and mental strength
    -I met my third boyfriend here in town... we're currently dating and things are awesome!


    3 boyfriends in one year? Jesus Christ I can't even get one!icon_mad.gif


    Yep. Same here. That Jumpman Josh must be lucky. I've never had boyfriends.