When did YOU know for SURE you were gay?

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    Jan 04, 2014 10:35 PM GMT
    Yes, there are probably 101 threads on this...but NONE with MY story:

    Last week I saw my one brief encounter with the man who made me gay played out on a major network nighttime soap opera by that same man.

    Let's backtrack...

    You know how you have to suspend your disbelief watching "Glee" because (among other things) so many graduates move from that podunk high school to New York and make it? Well, that actually happened in my suburban high school - two drama club kids a couple years before me each landed roles on major '80s nighttime soaps.

    I had a crush on both. The first was a beautiful brunette who played "Nurse Ratchett" in my high school's production of "One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest." I was a freshman, she a senior. She enjoyed some fame, landing roles as a "Dynasty" vixen and as the lead southern belle/ingenue on the network miniseries "North & South." The other was a handsome blonde senior who played the title role in my school's production of "Pippin" when I was a sophomore. He was high school thespian royalty, the one with the then-look and talent that got him into Julliard. Several years later I'd heard he'd landed a role on "Knot's Landing," like Alec Baldwin, but you've heard of Baldwin. I never even knew what role this classmate played.

    I thought about him recently because last month I saw "Pippin" - on Broadway yet - for the first time since my '79 high school production, and how he cleared up any confusion I had about being gay during our one encounter. I didn't act but was on the crew, set building and selling ad space, and since I sold a record amount of space he graced me with a look and a few words of thanks, allowing me to be in his orbit for a moment, and my world stopped. We never spoke directly again.

    So after the Broadway revival last week I did the thing you're never supposed to do - I google image searched him and though I hadn't seen him in over 35 years I immediately recognized him. It turned out to be his LinkedIn profile photo, where I found that he was in LA in the operations side of the biz. But what struck me was how much he now looked like Ted Shackelford, "Gary" on "Knot's Landing." Here I'd always thought that "Pippin" was the role he was born to play; now, I immediately knew what he played on "Knots," that for which he was perfect - "Young Gary Ewing."

    I googled "Knot's Landing" + "Gary" + "flashback" and not only found him but saw him play the scene where he and TV wife "Valene" first met, and how he gazed into her eyes with laser focus while flashing that smile, and how she reacted to it first with dumbstruck numbness, then a dopey grin. It exactly mirrored my experience. Watch along with me; when I watch it's like someone's stepping on my grave.

    It's barely 10 seconds out of the entire clip - 1:37 to 1:47; I still feel like "Young Valene" when I see it. **goosebumps**




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    Jan 05, 2014 12:58 AM GMT
    I think it was around 11 when I saw gay porn for the first time. My parents were away and I was at home alone. We had a Satellite Dish, I was shifting it around, I got bored one day so I tuned into a straight porn channel just to watch regular porn.

    Although I always got a hard on from straight porn, I could never jerk off to it, one day around 1 PM that same channel showed a compilation porn, it had bi-sex in it, but when I saw a scene with two guys going on in it, my mind sent a different signal to my penis I never got before, I started dripping pre-cum, something I never experienced before.

    I started playing with my cock to the point I actually had an orgasm....I saw stars and the moon! I knew then and there I was gay. There are other instances like my first kiss with a 14 year old boy from next door when I was 11 and walking into the living room seeing an erect John Dough at age 5, but I think my horniness and attraction to gay porn cemented it for me.

    I should add, before I knew what gay was, I use to get a hard on for guys like:
    - Spandau Ballet - "True" music video - those guys were hot!
    - George Michael - Careless Whisper & Wake Me Up before gogo
    - Boy George
    - Tears for Fears
    - Simply Red - Holding Back the Years
    - Phil Collins - One More Night
    - Chicago - Your the inspiration in my life - had the hots for the guy with the Mohawk in there.

    I just remember having an attraction for these guys not being able to explain it at a young age.
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    Jan 05, 2014 1:00 AM GMT
    When I let a guy suck my dick and I was not unhappy about it. icon_smile.gif
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    Jan 05, 2014 1:05 AM GMT
    When I was 12, started masturbating and figured out the male form turned me on.
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    Jan 05, 2014 1:13 AM GMT
    When I first masturbated to Dwayne "The Rock" Johnson on the front cover of some magazine icon_redface.gif
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    Jan 05, 2014 1:15 AM GMT
    23...After my heart surgery. It made me look at life differently and it took me out of my denial.
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    Jan 05, 2014 1:21 AM GMT
    Having sex with a best friend after our prom. Damn what a night

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    After realizing that my disinterest in girls all these years was genuine and looking back noticing potential guy crushes that I was unaware of at the time.
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    Jan 05, 2014 1:34 AM GMT
    I was about 6, and my parents hired a male babysitter. My mom kissed me on the cheek and said "Your father and I are going out". Without knowing why, my eyes darted to her feet, and I just blurted out "in those shoes?".
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    Jan 05, 2014 1:44 AM GMT
    Matiz saidI was about 6, and my parents hired a male babysitter. My mom kissed me on the cheek and said "Your father and I are going out". Without knowing why, my eyes darted to her feet, and I just blurted out "in those shoes?".


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    Jan 05, 2014 1:46 AM GMT
    I was in elementary school and I had a crush on a girl named Jamie P. and a guy named Chris K..

  • texas7t

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    Jan 05, 2014 1:48 AM GMT
    when I would sneak into my brothers room to look at Hustler Magazine just to check out the men and think about what it would feel like to suck on his dick..
    Then in Dallas, I went to a adult book store.. and watched a guy in wranglers stroke his dick.. then he put it in the hole in the wall, and I sucked it and he shot his load.. I was hooked.
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    Jan 05, 2014 1:49 AM GMT
    Nice.

    Well I started to find Men's chest are more appealing (in every way by looks and the shape of) then jelly soft rounded thing called Brest. * Eww honestly very in convenient they are sorta clumsy.

    Nope it wasn't entirely about the Penis first but the Muscular Male Chest.

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    Yes assured it was the triggering point of it all.

  • PolitiMAC

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    Jan 05, 2014 1:51 AM GMT
    It was never a singular moment for me, I don't think. It started in earnest when I had my first crush on a guy. Started off as a nice friendship, then I just got more and more attracted to him.

    But alas, he was straight and he got into marijuana icon_razz.gif

    I hope he's off it now. Probably not ;)
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    Jan 05, 2014 1:59 AM GMT
    When I fell in love... And that wasn't a girl as I expected all my life before :-) was funny
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    Jan 05, 2014 2:01 AM GMT
    When I got my ass first rimmed...
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    Jan 05, 2014 2:08 AM GMT
    16 years old... The first time i had a dick in my hand that wasnt my own and made it cum... And had a hand on my dick that wasn't mine that made me cum... I knew mansex was going to be part of my life.
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    Jan 05, 2014 2:21 AM GMT
    As far back as I can remember.
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    Jan 05, 2014 2:27 AM GMT
    I continue to learn and hope to be sure soon....my partner hopes I find out soon too icon_rolleyes.gificon_rolleyes.gificon_rolleyes.gificon_rolleyes.gif
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    Jan 05, 2014 2:34 AM GMT
    JonSpringon said16 years old... The first time i had a dick in my hand that wasnt my own and made it cum... And had a hand on my dick that wasn't mine that made me cum... I knew mansex was going to be part of my life.


    That was hot.
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    Jan 05, 2014 2:57 AM GMT
    One was born a Bonafide homosexual, and never having any sexual attraction to pussy. But men and their parts, now that was different.icon_razz.gif
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    Jan 05, 2014 3:08 AM GMT
    I always knew.

    Good story:

    My Mother was considered a great beauty.

    Woman stopped stopped traffic every time she got out of the car.

    Three Maids and a Butler.

    We were BAD...

    Christmas on Paradise Island 1982.

    Lounging around the pool.

    Dude sends drinks over.

    Mother in her hat and sunglasses from Dior does Her usual thing - turns out the Guy was going for ME - thought Mother was My sister LOL

    The look on My Mother's face was PRICELESS


    Yeah...Im kinda bad....




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    Jan 05, 2014 3:09 AM GMT
    Beating off to Christopher Atkins in Blue Lagoon.

    11 or 12 years old.
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    Jan 05, 2014 3:16 AM GMT
    Late bloomer here. I was out with friends at my first gay bar after work.. (guys and girls) and was getting my ass pinched on the dance floor. I knew I wanted more.. so weeks later I went back alone and found someone I saw on my very first night out and made it happen.
    Then I knew for sure that I was done with girls.
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    Jan 05, 2014 3:18 AM GMT
    After sleeping with the second guy I knew it definitely wasn't a phase. icon_twisted.gif