Avsigkommen saidHow on Earth are we supposed to answer this question? You gave us no details on your life or what struggles you may be facing.
Well, I don't like to vent my frustrations on public forums, but if you must know , I live in a society where Homosexuality is the ultimate taboo. In fact, it's an aggravated crime punishable for up to 10 years in prison or death (Although that never ever happened and never will, just there for the books)
I am in my mid twenties. I was born a gay male from a well to do very religious household, in the Arabian gulf. Homosexuality 'disgusts' people here. It is even worse than murder or rape!
Anyway, I'll try not to bore you with the same stuff that pretty much everyone went through. In a nutshell, Now Due to my religious upbringing as a Muslim, I 'prayed' for god to fix me. I can recall nights crying myself to sleep and praying that I'd wake up the next day and be able to love women.
Well,That never happened.
I am a very straight looking guy on the outside. No one knows the struggle I go through on a daily basis.
I moved to Sydney to go to college at age 18. During my time there, I had a lot of friends from back home so I didn't want to risk it.
Thankfully, I found a job in a neighboring gulf country and don't have to go back home where I'm constantly being pushed to get married.
The reason I am writing this is because I was moved by a fellow gay Arab, he happens to be trapped in a similar situation, just like me.
I almost wanted to phone my family and just shout out " mom, dad, IM FUCKING GAY"!
but I can't bear the thought of disappointing them.
I have the best family any guy can ask for, in every sense, which is why I don't know if I can ever come out to them.
Anyway, thanks passing by. I just felt I needed to vent
I hope I didn't completely waste your time.