pablomarko123 saidI just feel like at 5:06AM in the morning I just wanna start making all these big changes in my life and start doing extraordinary things that all require money which I don't have
Well, so maybe the first thing you need to focus on is how to earn more money. I don't know where you are or your situation or what opportunities or limitations you have. However, I do know you have access to the internet which means you have access to a wealth of information -- almost anything you could possibly want to learn about -- and most of it is free.
You have to start somewhere and that 'somewhere' is always right where you are. Dreaming or wishing for something that doesn't exist, or that you haven't created the foundation for, is waisting the time you have. -- And you're right, 85 years is NOT a long time (in the grand scheme of things, it is hardly any time at all -- and for me it is now less than 20 years away).
But worrying about it is also a waist of time.
Use the internet to find resources that will help you organize your life and time more constructively. Set short-term and long-term goals, make 'to do' lists. Educate yourself so you're worth more money to an employer. Be sure to take some time to 'smell the roses' -- which means enjoy the simple every-day things of life like sunsets, birds singing, what ever it is around you that is a FREE GIFT of life.