I Got Diagnosed with PTSD Today

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    Feb 05, 2014 2:59 AM GMT
    I was diagnosed as having PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder) today. I've always suspected I had it, but it kind of floored me to hear it come from a professional in such a sure manner. She told me that I was lucky to be alive because most people in my shoes would have died of alcohol or drug addiction by now. Lucky for me I have no interest in either of those things.

    Does anyone here have this condition? If so, how are you dealing with it. And please, no jokes as I'm having a very hard time dealing with this news.
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    Feb 05, 2014 4:15 AM GMT
    That's intense. Take care and keep us posted as to how you're getting along. Sending you hugs and hoping that you'll be able to find effective ways for managing this challenging condition.
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    Feb 05, 2014 5:59 AM GMT
    PTSD from what?

    My ex had a very serious case of PTSD from time spent in Iraq.Nightmares every night, black outs, violent reactions to minor things, fear of loud noises etc...it's not an easy thing to live with...icon_confused.gif

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    Feb 05, 2014 2:15 PM GMT
    i had ptsd for years, i had a great therapist who helped me thru years of my life. It can be treated and cured.
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    Feb 05, 2014 2:41 PM GMT
    Hugs out to you.
  • Rowing_Ant

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    Feb 05, 2014 3:27 PM GMT
    Hugs out to you.

    Yes, I have it. I was diagnosed with it last year by a psychotherapist. I've struggled with depression, mood swings, and Chronic Fatique Syndrome for years and apparently all put together, combined with a childhood trauma works out as being PTSD.

    Im getting therapy for it and have also been referred to an eating disorder place and to self help groups. The therapy, at the mo, is rather making things worse before they get better - the approach is called "Exposure"...Itsnot nice. its hard. it scary. it throwing up all over your therapists office type stuff but apparently worth it.....

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    Feb 05, 2014 3:38 PM GMT
    Aww... that's quite a sad news.
    I wish you a quick recovery.

    BTW, what's the cause/reason/source of your PTSD?... only if you're interested to share...
  • RaggedyMan

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    Feb 05, 2014 3:45 PM GMT
    Sorry to hear. Good luck with the treatment
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    Feb 05, 2014 4:51 PM GMT
    jmusmc85 saidPTSD from what?

    My ex had a very serious case of PTSD from time spent in Iraq.Nightmares every night, black outs, violent reactions to minor things, fear of loud noises etc...it's not an easy thing to live with...icon_confused.gif


    Childhood abuse in the form of physical and religious abuse. I was bullied relentlessly in school, then abused by my father when I got home. The therapist said I was lucky to be alive because most people with PTSD end up killing themselves via drugs or alcohol. Luckily for me, I have no interest in either. I have a full bar for guests but I never even look at it. It's very rare I have a drink and have never done drugs at all. So I guess I have that going for me at least. icon_neutral.gif
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    Feb 05, 2014 4:57 PM GMT
    I am so sorry to hear that. Have and friends with it. Some workout some have professional help depends on the person I am told. Good luck and hope the world for u
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    Feb 05, 2014 5:03 PM GMT
    Rowing_Ant saidHugs out to you.

    Yes, I have it. I was diagnosed with it last year by a psychotherapist. I've struggled with depression, mood swings, and Chronic Fatique Syndrome for years and apparently all put together, combined with a childhood trauma works out as being PTSD.

    Im getting therapy for it and have also been referred to an eating disorder place and to self help groups. The therapy, at the mo, is rather making things worse before they get better - the approach is called "Exposure"...Itsnot nice. its hard. it scary. it throwing up all over your therapists office type stuff but apparently worth it.....

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    I went through some Exposure Therapy a few years ago for panic attacks with my last therapist. It was so frightening I considered suicide. I just don't know if I can go through that again. And I really don't understand how PTSD and Panic fit together or if they're different things. I asked her why no one ever told me I had PTSD before and she said they probably thought it was because it would overwhelm me too much. She said she does work that way and she wants me to know what I'm dealing with.

    I think I also have an eating disorder. I workout very hard and eat very healthy, but come nightfall I start putting food in my mouth even if I'm not hungry. I try to find healthy desserts but then I end up eating enough for four people. And it's normally just before bedtime.
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    Feb 05, 2014 5:09 PM GMT
    JerseyAthletic saidi had ptsd for years, i had a great therapist who helped me thru years of my life. It can be treated and cured.


    Same here...it can be cured...and by doing so you learn how to handle yourself with compassion and understanding.
  • Destinharbor

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    Feb 05, 2014 5:12 PM GMT
    Good luck and speedy recovery, mate.

    On a side note, I didn't realize PTSD was becoming a generalized term for any stressful period. And I'd get a second opinion from someone completely disconnected from your current doc. Be careful with your selection and use of therapists. The industry is littered with ex-patients who are not really much better than they were when they were the patients themselves. The industry is a money machine and the true doctors practice more art than science. If you don't get results pretty quickly, don't feel in any way bad about trying someone different. They like to make you feel like a failure if their work isn't working because it keeps the money flowing into their bank accounts. I have and extensive experience with this when trying to help my ex get over Borderline Personality Disorder. Remember PTSD, as with most psychological disorders, is a descriptive term for a set of symptoms, not a disease or malady that can be empirically demonstrated through any physical test.
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    Feb 05, 2014 5:25 PM GMT
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    Rowing_Ant saidHugs out to you.

    Yes, I have it. I was diagnosed with it last year by a psychotherapist. I've struggled with depression, mood swings, and Chronic Fatique Syndrome for years and apparently all put together, combined with a childhood trauma works out as being PTSD.

    Im getting therapy for it and have also been referred to an eating disorder place and to self help groups. The therapy, at the mo, is rather making things worse before they get better - the approach is called "Exposure"...Itsnot nice. its hard. it scary. it throwing up all over your therapists office type stuff but apparently worth it.....

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    I went through some Exposure Therapy a few years ago for panic attacks with my last therapist. It was so frightening I considered suicide. I just don't know if I can go through that again. And I really don't understand how PTSD and Panic fit together or if they're different things. I asked her why no one ever told me I had PTSD before and she said they probably thought it was because it would overwhelm me too much. She said she does work that way and she wants me to know what I'm dealing with.

    I think I also have an eating disorder. I workout very hard and eat very healthy, but come nightfall I start putting food in my mouth even if I'm not hungry. I try to find healthy desserts but then I end up eating enough for four people. And it's normally just before bedtime.


    I think you have to be careful with the diagnosis. You're already attaching it to your identity. PTSD is a broad diagnosis, and its possible another therapist would not diagnose you with PTSD.

    PTSD is a collection of psychological symptoms (problems) that create distress and are usually the result of something that happened to you in the past.

    You should focus on that more than trying to identify as someone with PTSD (or an eating disorder)..

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    Feb 05, 2014 5:57 PM GMT
    Every second person in Iraq , Yemen , Syria is suffering it today.

    Almost every week i wakeup by midnights thinking i am being beheaded , i have hallucinations that i will be killed if i dont accept islam , my mother says i often cry while im deep in my sleep , sometimes i hug my parents not cause i love them but thinking that i might die in a blast on my way out of my home , dont go to church fear it might blast up

    no-one knows it better than me
  • BillandChuck

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    Feb 05, 2014 6:08 PM GMT
    Good luck getting through the PTSD. Once you've been diagnosed, you and make choices about how to proceed, some even just minor day-to-day behaviors, which will ultimately have a positive impact on your reality and your life. A good, PTSD-proficient therapist is the best gift you can give yourself. But one BEWARE in it is, as another poster alluded to, the therapy can be brutal at first, as you face the source in order to get it into the right place in your head. PTSD is one of the body's ways of deferring and difusing the impact of an experienced trauma, and forcing yourself (either with or without help) is a very difficult thing to do, even with the best of support. It's worth it to tame its impact on your life, as you mentioned panic, eating disorders and many others which present with PTSD, but it's a very tough recovery. Again, all the very best to you in navigating through this.
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    Scruffypup said
    Rowing_Ant saidHugs out to you.

    Yes, I have it. I was diagnosed with it last year by a psychotherapist. I've struggled with depression, mood swings, and Chronic Fatique Syndrome for years and apparently all put together, combined with a childhood trauma works out as being PTSD.

    Im getting therapy for it and have also been referred to an eating disorder place and to self help groups. The therapy, at the mo, is rather making things worse before they get better - the approach is called "Exposure"...Itsnot nice. its hard. it scary. it throwing up all over your therapists office type stuff but apparently worth it.....

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    I went through some Exposure Therapy a few years ago for panic attacks with my last therapist. It was so frightening I considered suicide. I just don't know if I can go through that again. And I really don't understand how PTSD and Panic fit together or if they're different things. I asked her why no one ever told me I had PTSD before and she said they probably thought it was because it would overwhelm me too much. She said she does work that way and she wants me to know what I'm dealing with.

    I think I also have an eating disorder. I workout very hard and eat very healthy, but come nightfall I start putting food in my mouth even if I'm not hungry. I try to find healthy desserts but then I end up eating enough for four people. And it's normally just before bedtime.


    I think you have to be careful with the diagnosis. You're already attaching it to your identity. PTSD is a broad diagnosis, and its possible another therapist would not diagnose you with PTSD.

    PTSD is a collection of psychological symptoms (problems) that create distress and are usually the result of something that happened to you in the past.

    You should focus on that more than trying to identify as someone with PTSD (or an eating disorder)..



    That's a good way of looking at it. All I know is I have had panic attacks my whole life and they are severe. They keep me from doing a lot of things I love, like traveling. I don't really care what label is put on it, I just want to have more peace in my life and less irrational fear.
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    Feb 05, 2014 6:11 PM GMT
    Zeriel saidEvery second person in Iraq , Yemen , Syria is suffering it today.

    Almost every week i wakeup by midnights thinking i am being beheaded , i have hallucinations that i will be killed if i dont accept islam , my mother says i often cry while im deep in my sleep , sometimes i hug my parents not cause i love them but thinking that i might die in a blast on my way out of my home , dont go to church fear it might blast up

    no-one knows it better than me


    I feel like a big baby when I think of what you go through. I worry about your safety and emotional state every time I see your profile. I wish you could leave that horrible place.
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    Feb 06, 2014 1:15 AM GMT
    So sorry to hear that, Scruffy! I just posted about losing a friend to PTSD and I know some of what you are going through.

    Please find help, either through the VA or your local mental health providers. You can be helped!

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    Feb 06, 2014 1:38 AM GMT
    Sorry to hear - you have support here online and hope you have some great friends around you.
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    Feb 06, 2014 1:39 AM GMT
    [quote][cite]Scruffypup said[/cite

    I feel like a big baby when I think of what you go through. I worry about your safety and emotional state every time I see your profile. I wish you could leave that horrible place. [/quote]

    Thank you my lovely friend , your concern means a lot to me ,I decided I would complete my studies and leave for turkey . hope I am alive by then
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    Feb 06, 2014 3:28 AM GMT
    Good luck and I hope you have a speedy recovery.

    Read and study about it as much as you can. Arm yourself with knowledge and understanding.
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    Feb 06, 2014 1:30 PM GMT
    Scruffypup said
    jmusmc85 saidPTSD from what?

    My ex had a very serious case of PTSD from time spent in Iraq.Nightmares every night, black outs, violent reactions to minor things, fear of loud noises etc...it's not an easy thing to live with...icon_confused.gif


    Childhood abuse in the form of physical and religious abuse. I was bullied relentlessly in school, then abused by my father when I got home. The therapist said I was lucky to be alive because most people with PTSD end up killing themselves via drugs or alcohol. Luckily for me, I have no interest in either. I have a full bar for guests but I never even look at it. It's very rare I have a drink and have never done drugs at all. So I guess I have that going for me at least. icon_neutral.gif


    That sounds very rough. No wonder you developped PTSD. There are some good therapies for it (EMDR). May or may not work for you. I do really hope you will manage to give this a place, cryptical as it may sound, how does one give such a thing a place...

    On a sidenote, young as I am, and very unexperienced I don't want to come across as a knowitall but I don't know what kind of professional you went to. But any professional that literally says 'you are lucky to be alive because most people with PTSD end up killing them selves' raise questionmarks for me. Those are facts a professional KNOWS but does not share with his/her client. It could bring up ideas in the client's head.

    I did my internship at the department of personality disorders and have seen with my own eyes how devastating bullying is. It is horrible, especially if you dont have a safe base at home. I wish your future will be better than your past Scruffypup.
  • Rowing_Ant

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    Feb 06, 2014 2:16 PM GMT
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    I went through some Exposure Therapy a few years ago for panic attacks with my last therapist. It was so frightening I considered suicide. I just don't know if I can go through that again. And I really don't understand how PTSD and Panic fit together or if they're different things. I asked her why no one ever told me I had PTSD before and she said they probably thought it was because it would overwhelm me too much. She said she does work that way and she wants me to know what I'm dealing with.

    I think I also have an eating disorder. I workout very hard and eat very healthy, but come nightfall I start putting food in my mouth even if I'm not hungry. I try to find healthy desserts but then I end up eating enough for four people. And it's normally just before bedtime. [/quote]

    For me Exposure has led to nightmares, panic attacks, and in general thus far has made things worse. I cannot stand being touched physically, and doubly so my genitals....ARGHGHG

    In terms of eating disorder yeah......for me thats linked to body dysmorphia. I think I am obese. hugely fat. I am sure I am not but when I look in the mirror thats what I see. A huge 20 stone fat bloke staring back. I always have. The only time I was ever proud of my body and would go shirtless was when I was competing in Rowing and was quite ripped with a six pack. My mum saw me shirtless and thought I looked ill and ugly. It's amazing how that shattered my self esteam. Sigh.

    I'm a bit messed up.