Hey guys, thanks for all the input! It's funny, a lot of you mention two different things, Loosing fat or gaining muscle. Honestly, I wanna do both.
I have some fat around my midsection which is focus #1 to remove, and then I wanna bulk up my arms, focus #2, because I feel like they are so damn lanky. I started working out in the mornings about two years ago and it wasnt terrible, I am much more of a morning person, after work the last thing I wanna go and do is work out when the couch is calling my name. But that lasted two weeks and then I got sick and had my surgery. After that I never went back to mornings.
Now I just need to get into a better routine, currently doing the 30 minute express workout at PF cause the weights intimidate me, and learn the proper way to meal prep. After yet another failed relationship, I am starting to realize its my own insecurities that are keeping me from being confidant with guys, and I think my timidness is what is scaring them off. Hopefully this time I see the change that I've been hoping for, I'm sick of being the little guy! lol
And on a side note, thank you to all of you here. This website has it moments of cattiness, but most of you are just flat out great guys. I appreciate all the help you have all given me through the years! When I get sexy, shirtless party at my place as my way of saying thank you? Awesome. haha