Apr 04, 2014 6:30 PM GMT
Here we go. We all look for love right? Right?!??!? It's a cycle. We all love the butterflies, intimacy the hope for the future. That being said. I am so exhausted with a capital "E" with people telling me "I deserve a god man!!!" Really???? Where is this man??? I think cynicism blossoms and begins at age 29. I am so much a great person ....I think...wait... you know what? I get told this more than once a day!!!!!! I KNOW I'm a good person ...I just want the fairy tale..but unfortunately for me so does thousands and millions of others! So here's my question. I don't care if this makes me sound desperate,needy,lower,hopeless; this is a social networking site anyways and while I do take them serious to a certain extent. I don't invest in the long term effects of my words. What in God's good name is wrong with me??? I am tired. I just want to talk on the phone with someone and fall asleep together. Do I believe it exists anymore? No. I do not. So with that being said ....with that being said....I want to understand? Why am I not finding the right person? Why is it that I am failing at every possible attempt to get to know someone? I know I can be shy and maybe that is mistaken for unapproachable but geez. I would love to just sigh....IDK.