Kuestion saidI'm not implying the OP has this but it's a good read:
Besides that I think the OP's a sock--one of innumerable finger puppets--that's an interesting category that I hadn't been aware of and curious that it describes as disordered (which any healthy person would know intuitively) someone who wants to change their orientation because there was a guy a while back who had some interesting things to say when he used to post here but who definitely suffered this. I didn't know there was a name for it.
He specifically described how he tried to change into being a str8 person. And then even in working towards accepting himself as being gay he also described how he tried to talk himself into getting into sexual acts that didn't come naturally to him. Always fucking with his own psyche. So it makes sense that this is an actual category of people who do that.
Also curious, it could be that besides victims of destructive parenting, these are likely the very victims of predatory, disgusting religion which seeks to attempt changing gay people to str8. Scum preying on the disordered.
Well, I don't really wanna bore you with this so I'll keep it short:
This disorder isn't in the DSM as far as I know (Idk I'm too lazy to check) but it is considered a disorder because it causes significant distress and impairment in areas of daily living, blah, blah blah.
And yes, early attachments to parents play an integral role in the development of the kinds of personality we develop, self esteem, locus of control, blah, blah blah...
I agree with you on the religiously-inflicted trauma as a means of the disorder too.