Interesting, my father I believe knew I was gay at a very young age. I liked certain things that weren't very masculine. I was a quiet kid up until high school. He didn't even like my penmanship, it was "too neat" I had a stuffed
E.T. Doll just like my brother. We both loved the movie, but he hated that I really liked it and would bring it everywhere.
I've always know my father never accepted or liked me for who I am, not just my sexuality but because I was just more sensitive then my bro.
I consider my self to be fairly masculine guy with a few fem traits. I too really love style in clothing, art, home decor. I also love to build and repair things around my house. I just finished repairing a quarter of my front deck. I don't mind getting dirty and working hard as I also like a fun day shopping and drinking champs, or going on a long run or hitting the gym hard.
I guess I'm just saying, embrace what the heavens above gave us, that's what makes you, you!
FYI, it did hurt that my father treated me different and never really appreciated me. I worked through it with some help, books, etc. our relationship has always been distant and I accept that because I know it has nothing to do with me, but his own dislike.
I do have to say, things really came into perspective when my son was born and my father never congratulated me or held my son. I guess deep down I knew this would happen, but just thought maybe, he might have 1% of love and happiness for me.
I never needed his approval, I always did and followed my dream and wishes. I now haven't tried to contact him anymore. I don't want my son to interact with such a human being that can't accept him or me. I am finished but not disappointed or hurt, just finished.
I am very happy to follow my wishes and dreams, I just celebrated our 8th anniversary with my family. I did it my way. I have a husband, son, a dog, beautiful and loving home with a handful of amazing friends straight and gay, I get to travel a lot, a great career. I feel blessed.