I'm sick of everything and wanna die.

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    Jun 01, 2014 8:32 PM GMT
    I am.
    I'm tired of everything. And everybody.
    Life is boring to me, I'm ready to die. I feel like nothing will ever change or get better with me, so I'm ready to move on.

    Is that so wrong?
    I hate dating. It's cumbersome and exhausting with the same questions and nervous enerygu each and every time. I hate sex. It hurts. Don't like drinking or going to bars or clubs. I dont like feeling like I have to be funny or interesting to people. I just want to be me and exist and people just accept that. I don't want to have to try.

    Everyday is monotonous. The same thing day in and day out. Wake up, work, come home, do some cardio, eat, go to bed, repeat.

    There's nothing interesting or stimulating going on with me. I don't even have the energy to make it happen. What's the point anyway?
    I'm poor and have little money, so It's not like I can go out and spend money on fun things like shopping, spa days, or drinking even.
    Drinking bores me too.

    what the hell is wrong with me?
    I just want to die really. I don't wanna fight through this or wait until it gets better. I don't want it to get better. I want death.
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    Jun 01, 2014 8:34 PM GMT
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    Jun 01, 2014 8:36 PM GMT
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    shocking u dont feel the same way, given the way you look.
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    Jun 01, 2014 8:54 PM GMT
    Why bother?
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    Jun 01, 2014 8:58 PM GMT
    I would seek professional help. A forum on a site with more than a handful of sarcastic people isn't going to give you the answers you're looking for.
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    Jun 01, 2014 8:59 PM GMT
    You are a teenager.....and its called "teen angst" for a reason....
    If you are bored...it's because YOU ARE BORING!....if you don't like it....only you can change it.

    Not being a smartass.....simply telling you my experience.icon_cool.gif
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    Jun 01, 2014 9:07 PM GMT
    I'm sorry that you're feeling this way. Your post drops many hints that you may be suffering from depression. If that's the case, you should seek professional help immediately, as what you're feeling is chemically-induced in your brain.
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    Jun 01, 2014 9:08 PM GMT
    and only 19… there are likely better people than you out there who WONT live to an old age, and you are ready to toss in the towel. Now there's some back-bone!! LOL.. icon_rolleyes.gif
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    Jun 01, 2014 9:08 PM GMT
    I wont say that I know how you feel; I'm not you. I will say this though - I have struggled with that mentality in the past and I continue to venture in and out of it, maybe not as extreme as "wanting to die" but more or less just wanting to completely vanish or disappear.

    I had a major existential crisis after graduating college and working for a year. I got a little too content with life and I lacked motivation to really make that change any differently. I would get odd visions of myself 10 years from then doing exactly the same thing without having moved an inch in life. I thought in order to 'cure' myself, I needed a dramatic change, like moving across the country or changing careers entirely.

    I see things a little differently now; life doesn't have to be so black and white. You have to fill in your gray areas and find your niches. Find people who're like-minded and accept you as you are. Never feel like you have a part of any one social circle or anyone that you're not. You have to figure out what life means to you and be happy with that definition. Everyone has a different answer to that question that seems to work for them.

    I say tomorrow, you try something new or different. Is there a sport or an activity that you've always wanted to try? Try reaching out to a different crowd or old friends. If you find something that you enjoy, you might end up surprising yourself with how much joy can be found out of life by simply looking beyond the obvious, and how much joy there is yet to be found out there.

    I'm really sorry that you're feeling so down right now and I hope you find your way back up. I right there with you, life certainly isn't easy. I wish you luck.
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    Jun 01, 2014 9:09 PM GMT
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    Jun 01, 2014 9:13 PM GMT
    Bunjamon saidI would seek professional help. A forum on a site with more than a handful of sarcastic people isn't going to give you the answers you're looking for.

    seek professional help.
    And just how am I going to do that? I have no health insurance.
    I'm also relatively poor and dont have hundreds of dollars laying around to pay for 1 hour therapy sessions. I dont believe they would help anyway. I would prefer not to talk to some nob who has a piece of paper allowing them to practice "psychiatry"...... they just want ur money, they dont really care about u or ur issues. It's there living, it's not there altruistic passion to help others.
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    Jun 01, 2014 9:15 PM GMT
    hairyandym saidand only 19… there are likely better people than you out there who WONT live to an old age, and you are ready to toss in the towel. Now there's some back-bone!! LOL.. icon_rolleyes.gif

    LOL, u think that's funny, asshole?
    You don't know me or what I'm going through. My age is irrelevant.
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    Jun 01, 2014 9:18 PM GMT
    I'm tired of this struggle to get through the day.
    It's exhausting me. I want out. I didn't ask to be born. I didn't ask for any of this. I've been having chest pains the past few months and went to the doc for a chest x-ray (which cost me hundreds of dollars) I couldn't believe this but when the doc told me everything looks fine my heart sank. I wanted cancer or something terminally wrong with me. I really did. I had hope I would die. That's the only hope I have.
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    Jun 01, 2014 9:19 PM GMT
    Many places offer free or help on a sliding scale fee basis. Certainly crisis lines are free and the people are not there for the money but to help.

    google suicide helpline and make contact. if you don't relate to the first one. contact another. or another. you'll find someone you can connect to.

    http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

    No matter what problems you are dealing with, we want to help you find a reason to keep living. By calling 1-800-273-TALK (8255) you’ll be connected to a skilled, trained counselor at a crisis center in your area, anytime 24/7.
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    Jun 01, 2014 9:24 PM GMT
    snapbacks saidI'm tired of this struggle to get through the day.
    It's exhausting me. I want out. I didn't ask to be born. I didn't ask for any of this. I've been having chest pains the past few months and went to the doc for a chest x-ray (which cost me hundreds of dollars) I couldn't believe this but when the doc told me everything looks fine my heart sank. I wanted cancer or something terminally wrong with me. I really did. I had hope I would die. That's the only hope I have.


    You need to seek professional help. You truly have many signs of Depression.. and what you're feeling is not situational but an inbalance in your brain chemistry. Please call this number first thing tomorrow morning:

    1 (800) 950-NAMI (6264)

    That's the nation assiociation for mentall illness.. They will gladly refer you to services that can assist for free.
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    Jun 01, 2014 9:37 PM GMT
    Is there a reason you chose this site, created a profile, just to proclaim your dissatisfaction with life?

    I'm sure like most people that do this you won't except any advice, have an excuse to how nothing we say can help you, but we have no choice but to try and be made a fool of yet again.

    --call everyone and anyone you know and tell them you love them.

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    Jun 01, 2014 9:43 PM GMT
    Welcome to being alive. Everyone else feels the exact same way, (at least I do) but they see it as a weakness that should not be expressed.

    If it's any consolation, everything anybody does is entirely meaningless and without any true consequence, anyway. And honestly, when people claim they're "living it up", I'll act like I'm happy for them, but I know they're just as empty as I am.
    Morality is limitation. There is little objective difference between a human being and an insect.

    Welcome to Hell. I just wonder how the next one after this could possibly be any worse.
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    Jun 01, 2014 9:46 PM GMT
    Ajjax saidWelcome to being alive. Everyone else feels the exact same way, (at least I do) but they see it as a weakness that should not be expressed.

    If it's any consolation, everything anybody does is entirely meaningless and without any true consequence, anyway. And honestly, when people claim they're "living it up", I'll act like I'm happy for them, but I know they're just as empty as I am.
    Morality is limitation. There is little objective difference between a human being and an insect.

    Welcome to Hell. I just wonder how the next one after this could possibly be any worse.


    Albert Camus, is that you? icon_razz.gif
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    Jun 01, 2014 9:47 PM GMT
    Henry D. Thoreau saidThe mass of men lead lives of quiet desperation. What is called resignation is confirmed desperation.
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    Jun 01, 2014 9:48 PM GMT
    PR_GMR said
    Ajjax saidWelcome to being alive. Everyone else feels the exact same way, (at least I do) but they see it as a weakness that should not be expressed.

    If it's any consolation, everything anybody does is entirely meaningless and without any true consequence, anyway. And honestly, when people claim they're "living it up", I'll act like I'm happy for them, but I know they're just as empty as I am.
    Morality is limitation. There is little objective difference between a human being and an insect.

    Welcome to Hell. I just wonder how the next one after this could possibly be any worse.


    Albert Camus, is that you? icon_razz.gif
    Milan Kundera, maybe. icon_razz.gif
    He wrote "The Unbearable Lightness of Being" and I think the title speaks for itself.
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    Jun 01, 2014 9:49 PM GMT
    My favorite quote is the bumper sticker I once saw: Life sucks. And then you die.
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    Jun 01, 2014 9:49 PM GMT
    2bnaked said


    Bitches deserved that talking-down to. Nice use of 'faggot', inbred biatch!
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    Jun 01, 2014 9:50 PM GMT
    Lumpyoatmeal saidMy favorite quote is the bumper sticker I once saw: Life sucks. And then you die.
    That's what I subscribe to. It's freeing to know you actually can live life free of consequence, guilt, or remorse.
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    Jun 01, 2014 9:52 PM GMT
    Bunjamon saidI would seek professional help. A forum on a site with more than a handful of sarcastic people isn't going to give you the answers you're looking for.


    + 1, Yep yep. You're so young, a full life ahead of you OP.