I feel like i have no older role models to look up to...

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    We all have different thoughts about aging and what an adult should be. I am always a positive, happy, and helping person as much as i can be. And i have been discouraged cause i realized i have no older role models to look up to... specifically gay older role models.

    Perhaps my views of adult hood are skewed with my parents. I was a ''surprise'' baby icon_lol.gif and they knew they had to work hard to support all of us. I grew up in a very rough area, and it's sadly all my parents could afford. After a lot of our cousins got involved with gang life and inner city violence... they knew they had to work harder.

    Thorough their 20's and 30's they worked non stop to make sure we got to a better place. And then my mom went to school for 6 years to be a pharmacist. My dad worked 2 jobs and was out of town a lot for my middle school years. They worked incredibly hard and now work their dream jobs and live a comfortable life.

    I came out a couple years ago... and in that process started meeting people. When i met older gay men they acted as if they had all the answers. Yet, many were self conscious, rude, and lying about their age and profession. They didn't seem to be proud at all with who they were.

    I see a lot that go and party like there in the young 20's but they are older or as old as my parents... get drunk on a daily basis. Argue over little things (Seriously when older men argue about ''divas'' with younger guys and start name calling. That's the most immature shit i have ever seen) and seem self conscious about everything regarding age. Why not be proud of that age? and all you have learned over the years?

    I even dated a few guys who were older than me. They were in their 30's... and they were more self conscious and un-put together than people i dated who were my age. They also played the most head games and caused the most stress.

    I'm not saying when you get older you have to become stuffy and serious. But, when you act like a child. Then that just makes me go icon_eek.gif and confuses me to all that talk i heard about ''older is wiser'' and ''wisdom comes with age''

    I know there's great guys out there who are older! and great role models. But... i mean specifically the ones in LA i come across seem to just be a mess.

    What are some opinions on this? am i over thinking this? do we always need older role models in our life?

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    Jun 10, 2014 8:29 PM GMT
    I'd make a horrible role model. The only thing that identifies my age is my responsibility, career, and memory of things that happens before you were born. Most of my hobbies are things that most young people wouldn't even attempt. Most of my friends are in their early-mid 20's, and can't even keep up. icon_lol.gif
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    Oh, and today I took one of my friends on a short 30 minute bike ride. Halfway through it started storming on us. I took off my shirt and enjoyed the fuck out of it. He whined and complained. icon_lol.gif
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    lol This site is filled with perfect examples of older men that act like children. Well, more like horny preteen girls. icon_lol.gif Such a shame. All those years wasted and they didn't learn a thing.

    Another thing is that most, if not all of the biggest attention whores and a-hole trolls on this site are dudes over 35. Oh the irony. Proof that being old doesn't mean you're mature.
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    paulflexes saidI'd make a horrible role model. The only thing that identifies my age is my responsibility, career, and memory of things that happens before you were born. Most of my hobbies are things that most young people wouldn't even attempt. Most of my friends are in their early-mid 20's, and can't even keep up. icon_lol.gif


    I see you post around here and you are a good guy. Having responsibility is apart of life... for anyone (not just adults i would hope :lolicon_smile.gif

    I just wish people were confident who they were in older age. They can respond to questions without getting angry or name calling. They don't care about their real age, they help others, and they learn from life experiences and mistakes.

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    paulflexes saidOh, and today I took one of my friends on a short 30 minute bike ride. Halfway through it started storming on us. I took off my shirt and enjoyed the fuck out of it. He whined and complained. icon_lol.gif


    He needs to workout harder dude! icon_smile.gif
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    My whole life's journey is about growing as a person. Learning from each passive experience, each mistake, each weakness, each strength.

    I have talked on here before about my rough past. I was in a gang as youngin, got into numerous fights in my high school days. Was a violent hot head who would fuck up somebody for just looking at me the wrong way.

    I am no way a perfect person. But, i learned to control my anger. I learned to live happy, live in a positive manner, and learn from my mistakes in the past. I'm still learning, working, and growing each day.

    And that's how i always envisioned adults as they grow up in age.
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    kevex saidlol This site is filled with perfect examples of older men that act like children. Well, more like horny preteen girls. icon_lol.gif Such a shame. All those years wasted and they didn't learn a thing.

    Another thing is that most, if not all of the biggest attention whores and a-hole trolls on this site are dudes over 35. Oh the irony. Proof that being old doesn't mean you're mature.


    Xavier, don't make like you are NICE! I guess you changed your name again, but your personality show through.

    You have made negative comments about older Gay men every time. Even before they responded to a thread......like HERE now. You derail a thread every time with your ageism.

    Go fuck yourself TROLL.
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    Jun 10, 2014 8:49 PM GMT
    You're thinking too much.
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    kevex saidlol This site is filled with perfect examples of older men that act like children. Well, more like horny preteen girls. icon_lol.gif Such a shame. All those years wasted and they didn't learn a thing.

    Another thing is that most, if not all of the biggest attention whores and a-hole trolls on this site are dudes over 35. Oh the irony. Proof that being old doesn't mean you're mature.


    Xavier, don't make like you are NICE! I guess you changed your name again, but your personality show through.

    You have made negative comments about older Gay men every time. Even before they responded to a thread......like HERE now. You derail a thread every time with your ageism.

    Go fuck yourself TROLL.


    lol See people? This loser is a perfect example. Thanks for proving my point, cunt. icon_wink.gif BTW, you were the one that defended an asshole that infected a minor with HIV. I can't take you seriously. BYe
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    lifeduringwartime23 saidWe all have different thoughts about aging and what an adult should be. I am always a positive, happy, and helping person as much as i can be. And i have been discouraged cause i realized i have no older role models to look up to... specifically gay older role models.

    Perhaps my views of adult hood are skewed with my parents. I was a ''surprise'' baby icon_lol.gif and they knew they had to work hard to support all of us. I grew up in a very rough area, and it's sadly all my parents could afford. After a lot of our cousins got involved with gang life and inner city violence... they knew they had to work harder.

    Thorough their 20's and 30's they worked non stop to make sure we got to a better place. And then my mom went to school for 6 years to be a pharmacist. My dad worked 2 jobs and was out of town a lot for my middle school years. They worked incredibly hard and now work their dream jobs and live a comfortable life.

    I came out a couple years ago... and in that process started meeting people. When i met older gay men they acted as if they had all the answers. Yet, many were self conscious, rude, and lying about their age and profession. They didn't seem to be proud at all with who they were.

    I see a lot that go and party like there in the young 20's but they are older or as old as my parents... get drunk on a daily basis. Argue over little things (Seriously when older men argue about ''divas'' with younger guys and start name calling. That's the most immature shit i have ever seen) and seem self conscious about everything regarding age. Why not be proud of that age? and all you have learned over the years?

    I even dated a few guys who were older than me. They were in their 30's... and they were more self conscious and un-put together than people i dated who were my age. They also played the most head games and caused the most stress.

    I'm not saying when you get older you have to become stuffy and serious. But, when you act like a child. Then that just makes me go icon_eek.gif and confuses me to all that talk i heard about ''older is wiser'' and ''wisdom comes with age''

    I know there's great guys out there who are older! and great role models. But... i mean specifically the ones in LA i come across seem to just be a mess.

    What are some opinions on this? am i over thinking this? do we always need older role models in our life?



    You live in WeHo, not the best place to find maturity at any age.
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    lifeduringwartime23 saidWe all have different thoughts about aging and what an adult should be. I am always a positive, happy, and helping person as much as i can be. And i have been discouraged cause i realized i have no older role models to look up to... specifically gay older role models.

    Perhaps my views of adult hood are skewed with my parents. I was a ''surprise'' baby icon_lol.gif and they knew they had to work hard to support all of us. I grew up in a very rough area, and it's sadly all my parents could afford. After a lot of our cousins got involved with gang life and inner city violence... they knew they had to work harder.

    Thorough their 20's and 30's they worked non stop to make sure we got to a better place. And then my mom went to school for 6 years to be a pharmacist. My dad worked 2 jobs and was out of town a lot for my middle school years. They worked incredibly hard and now work their dream jobs and live a comfortable life.

    I came out a couple years ago... and in that process started meeting people. When i met older gay men they acted as if they had all the answers. Yet, many were self conscious, rude, and lying about their age and profession. They didn't seem to be proud at all with who they were.

    I see a lot that go and party like there in the young 20's but they are older or as old as my parents... get drunk on a daily basis. Argue over little things (Seriously when older men argue about ''divas'' with younger guys and start name calling. That's the most immature shit i have ever seen) and seem self conscious about everything regarding age. Why not be proud of that age? and all you have learned over the years?

    I even dated a few guys who were older than me. They were in their 30's... and they were more self conscious and un-put together than people i dated who were my age. They also played the most head games and caused the most stress.

    I'm not saying when you get older you have to become stuffy and serious. But, when you act like a child. Then that just makes me go icon_eek.gif and confuses me to all that talk i heard about ''older is wiser'' and ''wisdom comes with age''

    I know there's great guys out there who are older! and great role models. But... i mean specifically the ones in LA i come across seem to just be a mess.

    What are some opinions on this? am i over thinking this? do we always need older role models in our life?



    You live in WeHo, not the best place to find maturity at any age.


    I live in Westwood icon_lol.gif
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    Jun 10, 2014 8:56 PM GMT
    kevex said
    unckabasa said
    kevex saidlol This site is filled with perfect examples of older men that act like children. Well, more like horny preteen girls. icon_lol.gif Such a shame. All those years wasted and they didn't learn a thing.

    Another thing is that most, if not all of the biggest attention whores and a-hole trolls on this site are dudes over 35. Oh the irony. Proof that being old doesn't mean you're mature.


    Xavier, don't make like you are NICE! I guess you changed your name again, but your personality show through.

    You have made negative comments about older Gay men every time. Even before they responded to a thread......like HERE now. You derail a thread every time with your ageism.

    Go fuck yourself TROLL.


    lol See people? This loser is a perfect example. Thanks for proving my point, cunt. icon_wink.gif BTW, you were the one that defended an asshole that infected a minor with HIV. I can't take you seriously. BYe


    You tried to make a preemptive strike against any older person who would challenge you, then when I did you get defensive and angry! Passive agressive much?

    Evidently you didn't learn a thing from that thread. He never was infected.....even though MMTM and I, and several others told you that many times. So you perpetuate a myth for no purpose other than your own misguided hate.

    Your a sick fuck.
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    kevex said
    unckabasa said
    kevex saidlol This site is filled with perfect examples of older men that act like children. Well, more like horny preteen girls. icon_lol.gif Such a shame. All those years wasted and they didn't learn a thing.

    Another thing is that most, if not all of the biggest attention whores and a-hole trolls on this site are dudes over 35. Oh the irony. Proof that being old doesn't mean you're mature.


    Xavier, don't make like you are NICE! I guess you changed your name again, but your personality show through.

    You have made negative comments about older Gay men every time. Even before they responded to a thread......like HERE now. You derail a thread every time with your ageism.

    Go fuck yourself TROLL.


    lol See people? This loser is a perfect example. Thanks for proving my point, cunt. icon_wink.gif BTW, you were the one that defended an asshole that infected a minor with HIV. I can't take you seriously. BYe


    You tried to make a preemptive strike against any older person who would challenge you, then when I did you get defensive and angry! Passive agressive much?

    Evidently you didn't learn a thing from that thread. He never was infected.....even though MMTM and I, and several others told you that many times. So you perpetuate a myth for no purpose other than your own misguided hate.

    Your a sick fuck.


    lol You and musclehead think it's OK for someone to have sex with low viral load. The risk still exists. Stop perpetuating stupid bullshit. A lot of dudes saw your sick comments.
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    Jun 10, 2014 9:00 PM GMT
    in the last 5 years things have change a lot for the gays. Just thinking you will not find your role models, the rules have changed.

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    lifeduringwartime23 saidWe all have different thoughts about aging and what an adult should be. I am always a positive, happy, and helping person as much as i can be. And i have been discouraged cause i realized i have no older role models to look up to... specifically gay older role models.

    Perhaps my views of adult hood are skewed with my parents. I was a ''surprise'' baby icon_lol.gif and they knew they had to work hard to support all of us. I grew up in a very rough area, and it's sadly all my parents could afford. After a lot of our cousins got involved with gang life and inner city violence... they knew they had to work harder.

    Thorough their 20's and 30's they worked non stop to make sure we got to a better place. And then my mom went to school for 6 years to be a pharmacist. My dad worked 2 jobs and was out of town a lot for my middle school years. They worked incredibly hard and now work their dream jobs and live a comfortable life.

    I came out a couple years ago... and in that process started meeting people. When i met older gay men they acted as if they had all the answers. Yet, many were self conscious, rude, and lying about their age and profession. They didn't seem to be proud at all with who they were.

    I see a lot that go and party like there in the young 20's but they are older or as old as my parents... get drunk on a daily basis. Argue over little things (Seriously when older men argue about ''divas'' with younger guys and start name calling. That's the most immature shit i have ever seen) and seem self conscious about everything regarding age. Why not be proud of that age? and all you have learned over the years?

    I even dated a few guys who were older than me. They were in their 30's... and they were more self conscious and un-put together than people i dated who were my age. They also played the most head games and caused the most stress.

    I'm not saying when you get older you have to become stuffy and serious. But, when you act like a child. Then that just makes me go icon_eek.gif and confuses me to all that talk i heard about ''older is wiser'' and ''wisdom comes with age''

    I know there's great guys out there who are older! and great role models. But... i mean specifically the ones in LA i come across seem to just be a mess.

    What are some opinions on this? am i over thinking this? do we always need older role models in our life?



    You live in WeHo, not the best place to find maturity at any age.


    I live in Westwood icon_lol.gif


    Still it's LA, land of waiters/actors, lawyers and wannabes. Look for better people in better places.

    I've always had good older role models, so I've never had a problem getting older. Enjoying it actually!
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    Jun 10, 2014 9:10 PM GMT
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    lifeduringwartime23 said
    unckabasa said
    lifeduringwartime23 saidWe all have different thoughts about aging and what an adult should be. I am always a positive, happy, and helping person as much as i can be. And i have been discouraged cause i realized i have no older role models to look up to... specifically gay older role models.

    Perhaps my views of adult hood are skewed with my parents. I was a ''surprise'' baby icon_lol.gif and they knew they had to work hard to support all of us. I grew up in a very rough area, and it's sadly all my parents could afford. After a lot of our cousins got involved with gang life and inner city violence... they knew they had to work harder.

    Thorough their 20's and 30's they worked non stop to make sure we got to a better place. And then my mom went to school for 6 years to be a pharmacist. My dad worked 2 jobs and was out of town a lot for my middle school years. They worked incredibly hard and now work their dream jobs and live a comfortable life.

    I came out a couple years ago... and in that process started meeting people. When i met older gay men they acted as if they had all the answers. Yet, many were self conscious, rude, and lying about their age and profession. They didn't seem to be proud at all with who they were.

    I see a lot that go and party like there in the young 20's but they are older or as old as my parents... get drunk on a daily basis. Argue over little things (Seriously when older men argue about ''divas'' with younger guys and start name calling. That's the most immature shit i have ever seen) and seem self conscious about everything regarding age. Why not be proud of that age? and all you have learned over the years?

    I even dated a few guys who were older than me. They were in their 30's... and they were more self conscious and un-put together than people i dated who were my age. They also played the most head games and caused the most stress.

    I'm not saying when you get older you have to become stuffy and serious. But, when you act like a child. Then that just makes me go icon_eek.gif and confuses me to all that talk i heard about ''older is wiser'' and ''wisdom comes with age''

    I know there's great guys out there who are older! and great role models. But... i mean specifically the ones in LA i come across seem to just be a mess.

    What are some opinions on this? am i over thinking this? do we always need older role models in our life?



    You live in WeHo, not the best place to find maturity at any age.


    I live in Westwood icon_lol.gif


    Still it's LA, land of waiters/actors, lawyers and wannabes. Look for better people in better places.

    I've always had good older role models, so I've never had a problem getting older. Enjoying it actually!


    I think that area might be part of the problem too. I go to school at UCLA, so it's mainly a college town in Westwood.
    Going into Beverly Hils and downward you see some pretty petty things. I never understood acting superior simply cause of an area you live in. I would hope i never get that way as i get older.
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    kevex said
    unckabasa said
    kevex saidlol This site is filled with perfect examples of older men that act like children. Well, more like horny preteen girls. icon_lol.gif Such a shame. All those years wasted and they didn't learn a thing.

    Another thing is that most, if not all of the biggest attention whores and a-hole trolls on this site are dudes over 35. Oh the irony. Proof that being old doesn't mean you're mature.


    Xavier, don't make like you are NICE! I guess you changed your name again, but your personality show through.

    You have made negative comments about older Gay men every time. Even before they responded to a thread......like HERE now. You derail a thread every time with your ageism.

    Go fuck yourself TROLL.


    lol See people? This loser is a perfect example. Thanks for proving my point, cunt. icon_wink.gif BTW, you were the one that defended an asshole that infected a minor with HIV. I can't take you seriously. BYe


    You tried to make a preemptive strike against any older person who would challenge you, then when I did you get defensive and angry! Passive agressive much?

    Evidently you didn't learn a thing from that thread. He never was infected.....even though MMTM and I, and several others told you that many times. So you perpetuate a myth for no purpose other than your own misguided hate.

    Your a sick fuck.


    lol You and musclehead think it's OK for someone to have sex with low viral load. The risk still exists. Stop perpetuating stupid bullshit. A lot of dudes saw your sick comments.


    And you've been warned! That's why that thread was taken down BECAUSE OF YOU! Your comments were deemed libelous. How many times have you had to change your name?

    Are you telling me I can't have sex with a zero viral load? Someone on PrEP? Another Undetectable? You are such a stupid, ASSuming judgmental prick....totally ill informed. You lie and twist facts.

    It's bitches like you that older Gay Men can't respect some younger guys. You've created a chasm where none should exists. But you've made it that way. I don't know what someone did to you, maybe they did fuck you stupid. The OP asks a realistic question....and you pipe in with your ageist drivel immediately.....yet again and again.
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    Jun 10, 2014 9:16 PM GMT
    lifeduringwartime23 said
    unckabasa said
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    unckabasa said
    lifeduringwartime23 saidWe all have different thoughts about aging and what an adult should be. I am always a positive, happy, and helping person as much as i can be. And i have been discouraged cause i realized i have no older role models to look up to... specifically gay older role models.

    Perhaps my views of adult hood are skewed with my parents. I was a ''surprise'' baby icon_lol.gif and they knew they had to work hard to support all of us. I grew up in a very rough area, and it's sadly all my parents could afford. After a lot of our cousins got involved with gang life and inner city violence... they knew they had to work harder.

    Thorough their 20's and 30's they worked non stop to make sure we got to a better place. And then my mom went to school for 6 years to be a pharmacist. My dad worked 2 jobs and was out of town a lot for my middle school years. They worked incredibly hard and now work their dream jobs and live a comfortable life.

    I came out a couple years ago... and in that process started meeting people. When i met older gay men they acted as if they had all the answers. Yet, many were self conscious, rude, and lying about their age and profession. They didn't seem to be proud at all with who they were.

    I see a lot that go and party like there in the young 20's but they are older or as old as my parents... get drunk on a daily basis. Argue over little things (Seriously when older men argue about ''divas'' with younger guys and start name calling. That's the most immature shit i have ever seen) and seem self conscious about everything regarding age. Why not be proud of that age? and all you have learned over the years?

    I even dated a few guys who were older than me. They were in their 30's... and they were more self conscious and un-put together than people i dated who were my age. They also played the most head games and caused the most stress.

    I'm not saying when you get older you have to become stuffy and serious. But, when you act like a child. Then that just makes me go icon_eek.gif and confuses me to all that talk i heard about ''older is wiser'' and ''wisdom comes with age''

    I know there's great guys out there who are older! and great role models. But... i mean specifically the ones in LA i come across seem to just be a mess.

    What are some opinions on this? am i over thinking this? do we always need older role models in our life?



    You live in WeHo, not the best place to find maturity at any age.


    I live in Westwood icon_lol.gif


    Still it's LA, land of waiters/actors, lawyers and wannabes. Look for better people in better places.

    I've always had good older role models, so I've never had a problem getting older. Enjoying it actually!


    I think that area might be part of the problem too. I go to school at UCLA, so it's mainly a college town in Westwood.
    Going into Beverly Hils and downward you see some pretty petty things. I never understood acting superior simply cause of an area you live in. I would hope i never get that way as i get older.


    I lived in LA for 4 years. And then moved to San Diego. Maybe because it's a military town (Navy, AF, Marines) in SD there is a very strong work ethic and the people are real. There are narrow minded pretentious people everywhere, but in LA it's a lifestyle!
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    lol unckabasa Is the type of old dude I was talking about. Perfect icon_lol.gif
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    paulflexes saidI'd make a horrible role model. The only thing that identifies my age is my responsibility, career, and memory of things that happens before you were born. Most of my hobbies are things that most young people wouldn't even attempt. Most of my friends are in their early-mid 20's, and can't even keep up. icon_lol.gif


    I see you post around here and you are a good guy. Having responsibility is apart of life... for anyone (not just adults i would hope :lolicon_smile.gif

    I just wish people were confident who they were in older age. They can respond to questions without getting angry or name calling. They don't care about their real age, they help others, and they learn from life experiences and mistakes.

    Thanks man. icon_biggrin.gif

    One of my acquaintances is in his 60's, rides a sport bike everywhere, in perfect health, and likes to brag about going 150+ MPH down the interstate when traffic is clear, at least once a week. He's also a professional dancer. Just listening to him talk, if you couldn't see his face, you'd think he's in his 20's. He's quickly becoming my role model. Oh and did I mention he's kinda sexy? icon_lol.gif
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    Jun 10, 2014 9:42 PM GMT
    As someone who is beyond "older" (which, to my mind, perhaps goes to 50 or so) but truly "old" (over 65, retirement age), on my way to "ancient" (over 70) I'd like to respond to this.

    First, you're quite right that age doesn't necessarily make one "wise" or even "mature" for that matter. And for sure no one of any age "has all the answers," and I'd be especially cautious of anyone who thought they even came close. If nothing else, age has taught me that I do *not* have "all" or even "most" of the answers. Quite the contrary. Much of what I believed to be true when I was younger I've now come to question. It may be that this *is* the beginning of "wisdom," but I don't know. For sure I'm relatively intelligent, somewhat insightful, able to articulate myself much of the time, want to be supportive and all that. Also true that I've had a lot of life experiences and have learned at least a few things from them. But often, especially when I'm interacting with a younger person who has real, serious issues, I come face to face with my own inadequacy. This has happened right here via RJ a number of times. I want to help but I know I really can't.

    I do think "roll models" are important but I don't know that they have to share my sexual orientation. To an extent, perhaps. As I've said a few times on here recently, I was fortunate to have a mentor (about 10 years older than I) when I first started not just 'coming' but *being* out at age 19. The best thing about it for me was no sex was involved. I know he found me attractive but I didn't feel the same way and that was alright with him. What I appreciated was not only his ability to give me at least a little clue to the 'gay scene' (Chicago, 1967), but introduce me to other guys closer to my own age. He was bright, articulate, funny as hell, and we had some similar interests. So, that worked for the short time that I knew him (about 18 months).

    This still didn't solve my "problems" though. I was so caught up in my own inner contradictions (and so clueless as to how to deal with them) that I remained miserable for roughly the next six years.

    After that, though, I began to find "role models," people in both my readings and in real life, who actually *had* something that wasn't just smarts, but what I would call "wisdom". Most of them would be people none of you would have ever heard of but two are well known in their respective fields: Gregory Bateson and Jacob Needleman. NONE of the people I'm referring to (and they were not all male) were gay (so far as I know, anyway). Nevertheless, they all contributed to my coming to terms with myself, influenced how I think about things, and how I am today.

    One of the reasons I'm here is to try and be supportive of younger gay men. I confess that part of my reason for doing this is that I really don't have much of a life these days. I have my job and my own small circle of friends but, for the most part, I'm a loner and keep to myself. I've always been this way and always will be. I do have some perspective on life and I like sharing that for what it is worth. (If I ever get back into art making, my time will be far more occupied than it is now.)

    However, I don't have any grand illusion that I've 'got it all together'. My way of thinking, my values, my (more or less) artistic, philosophical and even metaphysical way of approaching life, has not granted me a lot of financial or professional success. I get by and for the most part that works for me. I often see other, younger, in a sense "more mature" guys answer questions here that I know I couldn't have answered as well.

    I am what I am. I have my strengths and weaknesses. I'm more or less comfortable in my own skin. It may be foolish to not want to grow old but fact is, I don't. So far it sucks. Bad. LOL!! Age spots, wrinkles, wacky eyebrows, aches and pains… bit by bit the body is becoming undone no matter what I do to try and slow the pace. I just thank heavens I have a fairly good head on my shoulders and a healthy sense of humor. The latter, especially, I'm going to need as time goes on.
  • tj85016

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    Jun 10, 2014 9:49 PM GMT
    I lived around LA (Santa Monica and Hermosa Bch) for 3.5 years and I feel for you - good luck. Too bad you're not in New York, Philadelphia or Boston
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    Jun 10, 2014 9:50 PM GMT
    kevex saidlol unckabasa Is the type of old dude I was talking about. Perfect icon_lol.gif


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  • HottJoe

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    Jun 10, 2014 9:51 PM GMT
    What kind of role model are you looking for? At 23, it's time to think about becoming a role model. You're already an adult.

    If you're looking to be a positive force in the gay community, then just be truthful, reputable, and community oriented.