Came here with so much hope but leaving in tears!

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    Jun 20, 2014 4:16 AM GMT
    I made a profile on RJ after a long time. I came here to see how it is here. It has been difficult for me. I come from a Muslim household in India and I was beaten by my elder brother for being gay and he told it to every one else. My family disowned me.

    I came to US to do my masters. I thought I will come here and interact with people and may be try to get away a bit from all the miseries i have in my head. But apparently I was mistaken. During the course of my stay here, I refuted certain arguments of some members and i got two explicit racist and nasty messages. I tried to get back at them but i just cannot continue because I am already pretty emotionally weak due to my struggles.

    I am crying now because every time i hear some one be nasty towards me and bully me, it reminds me of my elder brother. You guys will never understand how tough it is to be gay in a homophobic society and culture. Yes, i accept that I am Indian and brown. But that does not mean we are inferior to you all. For those like me who spend their lives in homophobic places, we think when we interact with gay guys, we will not be shunned or bullied just like every one else does. We can be ourselves, they will understand our pain.

    Yes, it is my fault. It is my fault to expect that and that too online. I might be over reacting , it is just i am in a really bad place right now. I have no family, Nothing. Do you guys know how it feels to have your family throw you out? No you guys do not. I came here to make friends, but i will never forgive you guys. Remember this you filthy bastards, you will suffer as much as those who you bully. I am deleting my account and blocking RJ so even subconsciously, i do not come here. I will never come here. Never.

    And to all the bullies here, You WIN.
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    Jun 20, 2014 4:26 AM GMT
    Who was vision1987? icon_confused.gif
  • MikeW

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    Jun 20, 2014 4:32 AM GMT
    kevex saidWho was vision1987? icon_confused.gif

    Yeah, I was kind of wondering the same thing. Hadn't made an impression on me. icon_neutral.gif
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    Jun 20, 2014 4:37 AM GMT


    bro just play this song when ur feelin down
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    Jun 20, 2014 5:42 AM GMT
    When I was a kid of 8 years old, there was a very cute boy named Georgie G. He was from India and had the most luscious brown skin and cute face. We swam together, talked about our different cultures and yes, we even played around naked. I can still remember _____ _____ _____ and ____ ____and more. I liked him a lot. Maybe even my first love. I knew then I was gay. Skin color mattered not. We were friends. He came from a land far from mine. It was awesome!!!

    After he moved away I felt really bad. I missed him and would even watch the Cartoon series "Johnny Quest" to remind me. We had big adventures living in Rule Arizona. The kind that are really never forgotten.

    Try to DREAM more and fret less. Dream of the day you will find your ultimate man and lover. He's out there. It's a BIG world. Don't give up. Move away from these pages and online searches. Go out into the real world and you might be surprised. Work on your social skills and develop your personality. You just might surprise yourself. So.....Keep dreaming and you just might be surprised who you meet. Create your own destiny! I know it can work.........

    DREAM BIG!!


  • AMoonHawk

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    Jun 20, 2014 5:53 AM GMT
    Survival of the fittest ... Not to much coddling going on in these parts, if you got a point to make then speak up, and learn to ignore the noise ... Just like what you got to do in real life
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    Jun 20, 2014 6:19 AM GMT
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    MikeW said
    kevex saidWho was vision1987? icon_confused.gif

    Yeah, I was kind of wondering the same thing. Hadn't made an impression on me. icon_neutral.gif


    "Gay Forums - All Things Gay - Hot Indian Guys Thread. - RealJock
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    Hot Indian Guys Thread. vision1987 Posts: 8. QUOTE Jun 19, 2014 10:08 PM GMT. I love my Indian Men. Report Spam ..."

    So he had 8 total posts and then this?
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    Jun 20, 2014 1:41 PM GMT
    AMoonHawk saidSurvival of the fittest ... Not to much coddling going on in these parts, if you got a point to make then speak up, and learn to ignore the noise ... Just like what you got to do in real life


    Sadly, this is true. And, not only for the interwebz, but as you pegged it...for the world and life in general.

    TO ALL, I SAY...

    WELCOME TO

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    You can check-out any time you like, you just can never leave.

    Muahahahaha!
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    Jun 20, 2014 1:48 PM GMT
    Who? Never heard of this person. Who "bullied" him?
  • metta

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    Jun 20, 2014 1:55 PM GMT
    They OP needs professional counseling.

    RJ has a lot of members...with so many members, there are going to be some people that are not very nice....some people with major mental problems, etc. I think it is important to realize that and don't allow those people to get to you. A few bad apples are not representative of the entire site.
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    Jun 20, 2014 9:43 PM GMT
    This is so true! I've run across a few not so nice people on here. But there are a lot of nice people as well. I don't come here hopeing to make a impression on anyone. This is the wrong place to do that if that's your goal. I come here for me. Any social site you go on these days can be expected to have good and bad apples. The key is just be yourself. I mean truly, who cares about what others think of you. If your happy with yourself, that's all that matters.
  • roadbikeRob

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    Jun 20, 2014 9:50 PM GMT
    vision1987 saidI made a profile on RJ after a long time. I came here to see how it is here. It has been difficult for me. I come from a Muslim household in India and I was beaten by my elder brother for being gay and he told it to every one else. My family disowned me.

    I came to US to do my masters. I thought I will come here and interact with people and may be try to get away a bit from all the miseries i have in my head. But apparently I was mistaken. During the course of my stay here, I refuted certain arguments of some members and i got two explicit racist and nasty messages. I tried to get back at them but i just cannot continue because I am already pretty emotionally weak due to my struggles.

    I am crying now because every time i hear some one be nasty towards me and bully me, it reminds me of my elder brother. You guys will never understand how tough it is to be gay in a homophobic society and culture. Yes, i accept that I am Indian and brown. But that does not mean we are inferior to you all. For those like me who spend their lives in homophobic places, we think when we interact with gay guys, we will not be shunned or bullied just like every one else does. We can be ourselves, they will understand our pain.

    Yes, it is my fault. It is my fault to expect that and that too online. I might be over reacting , it is just i am in a really bad place right now. I have no family, Nothing. Do you guys know how it feels to have your family throw you out? No you guys do not. I came here to make friends, but i will never forgive you guys. Remember this you filthy bastards, you will suffer as much as those who you bully. I am deleting my account and blocking RJ so even subconsciously, i do not come here. I will never come here. Never.

    And to all the bullies here, You WIN.
    It is very sad to see you leave on such a horrible note. It is true that men from India are very misunderstood. But that is no legitimate reason for guys on here to bully someone and to push him aside like he is not a human being. That is dead wrong. It is very sad that this gay guy from India allowed an undeserved victory for all the vicious bullies on here. I wish that I could have gotten to know this guy.
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    Jun 20, 2014 9:55 PM GMT
    I'm confused. You had a bad experience in the U.S. so you block and shun all of RJ?
  • craycraydoesd...

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    Jun 20, 2014 10:45 PM GMT
    silver_bullet saidMore hating whitey propaganda. icon_rolleyes.gif


    LOL u got some issues. 500+ posts in a month, and always at it about "anti white propaganda" lol
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    Jun 21, 2014 12:35 AM GMT
    To the OP. While you are correct, I could never put myself in your shoes. You need to pay less attention to the interweb being significant in your life. It is called the "information Super Hwy'. The KEY word is 'Information'. It isn't and was never intended to substitute human interaction. Definitely, you should take a break from RJ. Clearly it is too much for you at this time. It may never be your thing, and there is nothing wrong with that either. And in no way do I mean to be disrespectful to you.
    Wishing you strength!
    Cheers… icon_wink.gif
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    Jun 21, 2014 12:52 AM GMT
    crazycrazydoesdoes said
    silver_bullet saidMore hating whitey propaganda. icon_rolleyes.gif


    LOL u got some issues. 500+ posts in a month, and always at it about "anti white propaganda" lol


    True. But have you seen the hundreds of race threads on here? And most of them are created by non-White guys. Obsession with race is a two-way street.
  • Webster666

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    Jun 21, 2014 3:02 AM GMT
    I'm thinking that the OP might have had very unrealistic expectations coming from an extremely homophobic country, to the United States, which he thought would be the "promised land," where all the gay people were one big happy family.
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    Jun 21, 2014 3:04 AM GMT
    silver_bullet said
    Scruffypup said
    crazycrazydoesdoes said
    silver_bullet saidMore hating whitey propaganda. icon_rolleyes.gif


    LOL u got some issues. 500+ posts in a month, and always at it about "anti white propaganda" lol


    True. But have you seen the hundreds of race threads on here? And most of them are created by non-White guys. Obsession with race is a two-way street.


    Hey I'm just sticking up for the masculine white guys - we are a minority around here, seems to be a lot bitter queens with a political agenda to hate whitey.icon_wink.gif


    Rofl. Masculine, I bet. You're fucked up in the head and pissed off at the world for something, but it's not because you're masculine. Frustrated, impotent and irrelevant, more likely.
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    Jun 22, 2014 3:44 AM GMT
    Webster666 saidI'm thinking that the OP might have had very unrealistic expectations coming from an extremely homophobic country, to the United States, which he thought would be the "promised land," where all the gay people were one big happy family.

    Exactly


    It is very sad to me that I can not remember a time when I had "unrealistic expectations".
  • craycraydoesd...

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    Jun 22, 2014 5:26 AM GMT
    silver_bullet said
    crazycrazydoesdoes said
    silver_bullet saidMore hating whitey propaganda. icon_rolleyes.gif


    LOL u got some issues. 500+ posts in a month, and always at it about "anti white propaganda" lol


    Actually its the endless threads like this one hating on whitey that indicate a lot of ethnics have serious issues with their skin colour, sexuality and white guys.icon_wink.gif

    I know you don't think white guys should have a voice, but that is just a measure of your bigotry.


    It's mostly white people here calling you out on your retardation btw lol
  • highforthis

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    Jun 22, 2014 6:10 AM GMT
    silver_bullet said
    crazycrazydoesdoes said
    silver_bullet saidMore hating whitey propaganda. icon_rolleyes.gif


    LOL u got some issues. 500+ posts in a month, and always at it about "anti white propaganda" lol


    Actually its the endless threads like this one hating on whitey that indicate a lot of ethnics have serious issues with their skin colour, sexuality and white guys.icon_wink.gif

    I know you don't think white guys should have a voice, but that is just a measure of your bigotry.


    Yeah brother! We may be winning the war against Al Qaeda but we're losing the war against Al Sharpton! White Power!
  • killercliche

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    Jun 22, 2014 6:13 PM GMT
    Don't cry OP!