I try to, but it's always a conflict. Like, I really didn't start disliking myself until I got acquainted with the gay community; and it's because it's a fact that the gay community in the west is dominated by Caucasian 40 yr>men who control the politics, and therefore control the ideas of the people in order to twist their own thoughts into thinking that white is beautiful and everything else is secondary, pretty much, and even in Asia their culture is dominated with paleness agendas. If I date a white guy people think that I'm an interracial slut (especially in San Fran) and that I'm some rice queen, or something, and it's really not my fault that I am attracted to them because I grew up in a rich white neighborhood, and if you know anything about psychology, you would know that children learn through association. I honestly feel a little bad that I even went to the pride parade because it's not preaching equal rights for everybody; it's preaching white male rights. Just look at all the porn, all the ads on gayborhoods, all the make-up that suits pale skin (even pantyhose), and most of the male models, and you can't see why it's not easy for a minority, like me, to not love him/herself. Add this all to the horrible things that are said about minorities online - no Asians, no blacks, no Latins, no Ching chong, no yellow, etc. - and you will only begin to understand what's expected of me socially in American society. This of course does not include social expectations like succeeding in school and having a family, but it's pretty hard when society basically hates you.