HOW AND WHEN DID YOU FIRST KNOW YOU WERE GAY?

  • Ibendsteell

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    Aug 10, 2014 4:24 PM GMT
    I'm just curious about other peoples experiences. I remember being like 10 and getting weird feelings when saw muscular men in movies. Running Man when Arnold rips the bench out of the floor, that scene gave me feelings I couldn't begin to understand. Still very turned on by strong men and strength feats.
  • Destinharbor

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    Aug 10, 2014 4:30 PM GMT
    Pre-K. Played hide and seek and found myself in a small cabinet with my best friend's head on my chest. Dirk. Buzz haircut. (I still like a buzz haircut.) Didn't know what it was but definitely had my first sexual thrill. I knew from then on that I wanted guys.
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    Aug 10, 2014 4:49 PM GMT
    The Saturday afternoon pro wrestling "matches" on TV when I was about 7-8 years old told me in no uncertain terms. icon_biggrin.gif
  • Bunjamon

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    Aug 10, 2014 5:24 PM GMT
    I always knew but didn't have the vocabulary to identify the feelings I was having until I was probably 10 or 11. I always gravitated to the men's underwear and swimsuit sections of the catalogs my parents got, which was the most obvious clue. icon_wink.gif
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    Aug 10, 2014 7:38 PM GMT
    Pre-Kindergarten I fell for a boy a few years older than me. He'd have nothing to do with me, however. Then one day their home caught fire. My mother invited them to camp out in our living room. I remember being struck by her kindness and my stroke of luck. I remember walking into the living room and staring in fascination at the object of my desire. It wasn't sexual as we know sexuality as adults but it was definitely a same sex attraction, the memory of which has never escaped me, and I never felt similarly towards the opposite sex.
  • rnch

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    Aug 10, 2014 7:41 PM GMT
    A wild,'drunken 3-way with my best friend at the time and his wife convinced me I had spent all those years traveling down the wrong side of the street.

    I woke up with he and I naked & hard, intertwined in each other's arms & legs.
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    Aug 10, 2014 7:49 PM GMT
    It was sixth grade for me. I remember the day - we all had to take our shoes and socks off in the classroom for some reason, and my attention was focused on one guy's feet next to me. They were perfect, clean, athletic, high arched feet with faultless toes. I was unable to stop looking at them. I'm sure my pulse quickened. (I hope nobody noticed I was totally into this guy). The whole thing was cool and exciting, but a little confusing at the same time, because I had girlfriends, and liked kissing and being with them. I realized later my focus was switching from girls to boys, or a little of both.
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    Aug 10, 2014 8:54 PM GMT
    I knew SOMETHING was going on during my second year at boys summer camp, age 9. Skinny dipping with our naked adult camp counselors excited me in ways I didn't understand. I'd never seen grown men completely nude like that before. Certainly not my own Father, so that I can't even tell you today if he was cut or uncut, and I didn't have a brother or older male cousins with whom I spent much time.

    I'd swum nude before, in our backyard pool at home with same-age school boy friends, and in their pools, too, typical for the 1950s, and at the YMCA. But now I was beginning to feel something new, especially seeing these naked adults at camp.

    By the time of high school (9-12th grades in our system) I was having trouble with unwanted arousal in gym gang showers and locker rooms. But in my innocence I still couldn't figure out what it was all about. I was very naive in the extreme.

    Then came 25 years of military service, which I used to joke was like living in a monastery. So that it wasn't until I retired that I finally realized what it had all meant, and came out at last, as I was turning 46.
  • NoahBrookz

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    Aug 10, 2014 8:58 PM GMT
    Hahahah omg just remembering this cracks me up.
    I was on the computer years ago, I was really young and really didn't know much about sex in general. And I don't know how but a pop up for porn got on my screen, and I didn't even really get what it was. But months later I thought about it and tried to find it, and I eventually did and realized that I was only looking at one of the two lovers icon_rolleyes.gif
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    Aug 10, 2014 9:50 PM GMT
    I got corrupted by one of those homo demons.

    http://www.realjock.com/gayforums/3707042/
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    Aug 10, 2014 10:29 PM GMT
    When I was around 12-13 yo, it was innocent at first. I don't remember the movie but it was *Richard Gere*, he was naked in a scene after boning some chick. He was a cop or sailor or something? Lol, then I started watching Baywatch in the early mid 90s. I had a crush on David Chokachi in his little blue speedo. SO yeah during and later in my college years, I dated chicks but I just wasn't really sexually turn on by them. Then one day, I was like fuck it, I'm going to SF to be a full blown gay. icon_lol.gif
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    Aug 10, 2014 11:32 PM GMT
    Showering with my cousins as a kid...mkay bye now.icon_rolleyes.gif
  • mladri

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    Aug 11, 2014 12:27 PM GMT
    I was around 12-13 years old and he was my neighbor. I remember the first time when I saw him without his t-shirt while he was doing some chores in his backyard. That was the first time that I was attracted by man's body. Few years later I found him at one gay dating page although he is married to a woman.
  • chadwick1985

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    Aug 11, 2014 1:10 PM GMT
    When I was in about 2nd or 3rd grade I knew something about me was different (other than being a ginger with no soul) lol. When I was in 7th grade dressing out for gym. Seeing other guys nice, toned tight bodies. Def knew then, freaked me out and stayed in denial for several years. Came to full terms at about 21 years old, came out to a select few at 26 and completely out two weeks ago
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    Aug 11, 2014 2:10 PM GMT
    Here's other times when I SHOULD have known I was gay, but didn't take the strong hint. About 8 of my school friends were camping on an island in a river, that we reached by rowboats. At night we had a campfire, and some of the guys stripped down to their underwear to be "Indians" whooping around the fire. Stupid, I know, but we were all about 13.

    Seeing those guys in nothing but their plain cotton tighty-whities (which were the only type of undies most of us boys wore back then) was an enormous turn-on, as I lay watching in my sleeping bag. And I got hard. And started stroking myself.

    Not sure why, but I pulled open my sleeping bag and asked the others if they knew how to jerk themselves. I think most, if not all, said they did not. So I gave them a demonstration.

    As I came close to cumming I got up, to shoot my load into the fire. It caused quite a sensation, but no criticism, at least not to my face. Such exhibitionism was new to me, and I do nothing like it today. But I was so incredibly aroused being with these near-naked guys it was irresistible to me.

    Nobody did anything 1/1 with me that night. The next day they went skinny dipping in the river (despite being told it was polluted), but not me. I couldn't control a raging hardon, seeing them all naked. I used the dirty water as my excuse. Only a few of them had begun to get body hair, I was the most developed, and some still had little boys dicks. Especially "Harold" which really embarrassed and bothered him.

    About 7 months later it was winter during a heavy snow fall. And mostly this same band of classmates got together to go sledding together. We got good & wet, and shivering, finishing the day back in the basement family room of one of the guys.

    His mother ordered us to strip off our wet things, which she would hang inside and also put in the dryer, and left us towels, while going to make hot chocolate. What a difference 7 months makes at that age! These guys now had full bushes, and their dicks a decent size. And we poked fun at an Irish red head, because his pubes were as flaming red as his head, first time I think any of us had seen him nude since the summer. While once again I had to conceal my hardon.

    Suddenly his mother barged back in without warning, carrying dry clothes for her son, while we were in various states of undress. We hastily grabbed towels and whatever clothes were handy.

    But the son stood there, completely nude and unconcerned, with the recently matured body of a young man, while he accepted & donned the fresh things from her. The rest of us were a bit surprised by that, not something we did with our own mothers even in that era.

    Back home later that evening I jacked off to the memory of our all being naked together (we hadn't begun HS yet with gym locker rooms and gang showers, and I hadn't swum nude at the Y for years, so not a routine occurrence).

    But even that didn't raise flags for me that I was gay (we actually said queer, fairy & homo), because as I've said before I lacked the other stereotypical prerequisites for being queer in those days. So I honestly didn't know what I was, but I recognized something was going on, and it was different.
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    Aug 11, 2014 2:45 PM GMT
    when i sucked my first dick
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    Aug 11, 2014 3:07 PM GMT
    Probably around 8 if I recall correctly
  • Sakura

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    Aug 11, 2014 3:09 PM GMT
    I knew I was different early on, but it wasn't until seeing Chris Evans' performance in "Not Another Teen Movie" that I knew I wanted the D.
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    Aug 11, 2014 5:51 PM GMT
    Bunjamon saidI always knew but didn't have the vocabulary to identify the feelings I was having until I was probably 10 or 11. I always gravitated to the men's underwear and swimsuit sections of the catalogs my parents got, which was the most obvious clue. icon_wink.gif


    Sears catalog. Man on page 602. National Geographic - 1/2 naked tribes people (just the men).

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    Even if it really isn't the head of his dick it still made quite a stir at the time. Anyway he was good looking.
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    Aug 11, 2014 6:26 PM GMT
    6 years old. Followed a blond green eyed german kid home from school. Must have been the unusually green eyes. He kept snakes and lizards so I knew then that he was going to be straight for some reason. How do you know these things at that age? Ever since like buzz cut guy, I melt for extremely blue or green blonds. I also got in trouble cause my older sister was about to call the police since I was missing.
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    Aug 11, 2014 6:43 PM GMT
    Around 6 , i was first mesmerized about cocks ( getting glimpse of my school mates cocks when changing in the locker-room ) , but my interest for the man's body came later at around 11 .

    I was born well before internet ,so magazines were the source of my interest . My dad had subscription to 2 or 3 car's magazines , and all of them had advertisements for men underwears , and those models were quite handsome , and were packing in their undies more than enough to catch my eyes and enjoy those beautiful bulges ..icon_smile.gif
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    Aug 11, 2014 6:57 PM GMT
    bradomo said6 years old. Followed a blond green eyed german kid home from school. Must have been the unusually green eyes. He kept snakes and lizards so I knew then that he was going to be straight for some reason. How do you know these things at that age? Ever since like buzz cut guy, I melt for extremely blue or green blonds. I also got in trouble cause my older sister was about to call the police since I was missing.


    Your story reminded me of Biff a well built older blond boy with a buzz cut that could have easily have been an A&F model if he were older. I only met him a few times but he was so strikingly beautiful even as a kid. I never knew what happened to him.

    Another time a guy came jogging down my street with no shirt on and muscles rippling in places I had never seen muscles before! A god in tight nylon jogging shorts. I later learned he played football for one of the local universities. He took my breath away and I would have gladly let him take my virginity too if I knew what that was at the time!
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    Aug 11, 2014 7:35 PM GMT
    Since I was about 13, always eyeing up my history teacher & p.e teacher..... Hmmmm icon_cool.gif

    Never did anything about it until I met someone when I was 18 and began my first real relationship.
  • ChilaxinJOCK0...

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    Aug 11, 2014 7:45 PM GMT
    The gay agenda, thanks a lot Ellen!
  • ChilaxinJOCK0...

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    Aug 11, 2014 7:47 PM GMT
    4th grade when we had to start changing for gym class. I remember seeing my friends in underwear made me blush and get real nervous and I didnt understand it back then. And then I saw Titanic in 6th grade and I remember having a huge crush on Leonardo DiCaprio and again, having no idea what it was that I was feeling. I knew my friends all loved the naked Kate Winslet scene, so I figured I liked it too.

    I can remember as far back as 5th grade, having a huge crush on an 8th grader on the middle school basketball team. Tall italian, thick hair, very tan skin, and always wore a white wife beater/tank top. Of course he's bald and fat now with 5 kids lol

    Crazy how you can look back and realize what it was that was going on.