Any Advice? *Might be coming out* I NEED HELP

  • chubbyboy1337

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    Aug 12, 2014 4:38 AM GMT
    Hi i`m michael, i am 19.

    i had my first gay experience when i was 8
    kind of awkward but it was quite amazing, anyways i won't get into it.

    anyways that was a long time ago... and well i`m starting to judge my sexuality, i've always been emotionally into females.

    but every day i get the thought of that time i had when i was 8
    i want to feel it again, i fantasize about sucking dick and getting fucked hard
    just every time i want to meet someone and get sexually with them i bitch out. ( this only happens when i try to hook up with a guy )

    i don't know if i'm scared or what, or if i'm messed up.

    i really want to try men but i always freak out, does anyone have the same problem or did? and how did you bypass this feeling.
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    Aug 12, 2014 4:48 AM GMT
    chubbyboy1337 saidHi i`m michael, i am 19.

    i had my first gay experience when i was 8
    kind of awkward but it was quite amazing, anyways i won't get into it.

    anyways that was a long time ago... and well i`m starting to judge my sexuality, i've always been emotionally into females.

    but every day i get the thought of that time i had when i was 8
    i want to feel it again, i fantasize about sucking dick and getting fucked hard
    just every time i want to meet someone and get sexually with them i bitch out. ( this only happens when i try to hook up with a guy )

    i don't know if i'm scared or what, or if i'm messed up.

    i really want to try men but i always freak out, does anyone have the same problem or did? and how did you bypass this feeling.


    maybe you should start out as friends with someone.
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    Aug 12, 2014 4:55 AM GMT
    JackBoneTX said
    maybe you should start out as friends with someone.


    Yes, this. +1
  • chubbyboy1337

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    Aug 12, 2014 5:00 AM GMT
    JackBoneTX said

    maybe you should start out as friends with someone.


    but i already had my first gay experience
    we kissed, we touched, it was very sexual

    i want to have that again
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    Aug 12, 2014 5:11 AM GMT
    Sounds like internalized homophobia. Do some research on that. It may help.
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    Aug 12, 2014 5:15 AM GMT
    chubbyboy1337 said
    JackBoneTX said

    maybe you should start out as friends with someone.


    but i already had my first gay experience
    we kissed, we touched, it was very sexual

    i want to have that again


    But you were only 8 when you had that experience. icon_confused.gif So I think it's only physical experience. How about your emotional connection?
  • chubbyboy1337

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    Aug 12, 2014 5:16 AM GMT
    polfsky said
    chubbyboy1337 said
    JackBoneTX said

    maybe you should start out as friends with someone.


    but i already had my first gay experience
    we kissed, we touched, it was very sexual

    i want to have that again


    But you were only 8 when you had that experience. icon_confused.gif So I think it's only physical experience. How about your emotional connection?


    i can't get emotional with other men, i only feel a sexual vibe :
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    Aug 15, 2014 6:19 AM GMT
    Hey, I'm just proud of you that you are thinking about coming out and being honest with yourself and others dude. Lying about who you are only leads, ultimately, to alienation and loneliness. Trust me, I know this from experience. If I could go back, I would have done my life differently.