Aug 28, 2014 9:49 AM GMT
The light and the darkness. I am so made up of both. I have spent an equal amount of time in them both. But I have cried out both in light and darkness. In the darkness I have cried out for light and in the light I have cried out for darkness. What is INSANE about that is that I am never fully enjoying either one. What I THINK might be happening is that each one leaves you with something that helps you deal with the other. And maybe if you just grab onto that granite, molecule, or metaphysical object within yourself you can have enough guts to not only look at the stars at night but to look directly into the sun like I did throughout my life and no I am not going blind. I know I have posted up a LOT of controversial stuff but they all come from within me. I realize I need to tactfully employ these things rather than DUMP it on you like I have always done in the past. Walk this earth. It doesn't matter where you live. I was weak and falling down a month and half ago. There HAS to be something in between light and darkness. Some sort of importance of ourselves. I have dreamed on either end but that area in between is neither awake nor sleeping. It is like a pulsating being. TRULY a pulsating being. But it follows you both into the light and into the darkness whether you know it or not. The heart beats literally because of it. I know nobody will read this thing but I hope that you would because right now this is my philosophy.