Aug 31, 2014 7:07 AM GMT
Crazy because I am NOT Christian but I moved to where I live by the beach literally because of this church five years ago. I won't go to the services much and I will NEVER tell them this because I have a hard time with superstitions. But to have something close by that I can walk to and spend hopefully at least an hour each week on I think will be good for me since I got out of the hospital due to kidney failure. I told them my situation and they only want the best for me. THEY BY FAR will not take advantage of me. But I just NEED to do something productive and to feel some self esteem right now. I am really forty three years old. I am CLOSE to believing in God internally but out of all the religions I have checked out I know now that I MUST remain far from ethnocentric in each case. I am learning that in order to be a part of this world you HAVE to look at your similarities and NOT your differences. The closest church I ever believed in was Church of Religious Science but there are even stuff about that which I find somewhat superstitious. But it IS the religion that taught me how to mix in with the rest. This is going to be an amazing experience and they are so happy I am making the effort in my condition to do this. They are NOT pressuring me and are giving me an easy job to do where I can sit down. I'm just going to give it my all and try to eat, drink water, and sleep in order to be of use to somebody.