I am very weak and sick but I JUST GOT A VOLUNTEER JOB AT A CHURCH ACROSS THE STREET and it is the largest in our County.

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    Aug 31, 2014 7:07 AM GMT
    Crazy because I am NOT Christian but I moved to where I live by the beach literally because of this church five years ago. I won't go to the services much and I will NEVER tell them this because I have a hard time with superstitions. But to have something close by that I can walk to and spend hopefully at least an hour each week on I think will be good for me since I got out of the hospital due to kidney failure. I told them my situation and they only want the best for me. THEY BY FAR will not take advantage of me. But I just NEED to do something productive and to feel some self esteem right now. I am really forty three years old. I am CLOSE to believing in God internally but out of all the religions I have checked out I know now that I MUST remain far from ethnocentric in each case. I am learning that in order to be a part of this world you HAVE to look at your similarities and NOT your differences. The closest church I ever believed in was Church of Religious Science but there are even stuff about that which I find somewhat superstitious. But it IS the religion that taught me how to mix in with the rest. This is going to be an amazing experience and they are so happy I am making the effort in my condition to do this. They are NOT pressuring me and are giving me an easy job to do where I can sit down. I'm just going to give it my all and try to eat, drink water, and sleep in order to be of use to somebody.
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    Aug 31, 2014 7:26 AM GMT
    Looking at all the beautiful messages I am getting about this on Facebook from extremely successful friends I have known throughout my life, they ALL agree this is going to be good for me. I use to be a Graphics Technician back in the day and have grown companies even worldwide ones by at least ten percent with the work I ended up doing towards the end of my career. That use to keep me invigorated throughout my life. But I can't do that work anymore because technology changes so fast and I guess I lost interest in it. I use to make eighty grand per year doing it though. But where my life is now is not horrible at all. I am happy with all the support I get. But in my weak state right now I can't do stuff like I use to and this church might be a blessing for me. I don't want to die giving NOTHING more if I still have the opportunity to give it. I don't want to die as a shell. I want to be the damn hermit crab running across the scenery trying to discover a shell that fits when I die. That's just me.
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    Aug 31, 2014 7:57 AM GMT
    who cares
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    Aug 31, 2014 7:59 AM GMT
    atlanticshore saidwho cares


    You were always so cool to me in the past kid and I know who you are by your picture. I am sustenance. Remember? I am not here to give you a fucking boner so remember the shit I stood for on here.
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    Aug 31, 2014 8:17 AM GMT
    Gosh I don't want to offend people but NO this is NOT a Church of Religious Science. It is the largest Christian church in my county which doesn't bother me. I just want to give love. That is all I want. I could give a fuck if it were a Hindu temple. AND THEY ARE BEAUTIFUL. I just want to as I said, be the hermit crab running from one shell to the next. I don't want to be the shell.
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    Aug 31, 2014 8:40 AM GMT
    And ALSO for the record my kidneys failed recently because for months I didn't want to live anymore. I stopped eating and drinking water and still have an incredibly hard time sleeping. This thread might seem strange but it does make me feel that maybe even living on disability right now that I can become connected again with something other than just my stupid self again. I have tried for YEARS to get volunteer work here and they finally accepted me. What I REALLY want to do someday if I can recover is get a volunteer job working for The Beckstrand Cancer Foundation which is the only foundation from here to the east coast that pays all living expenses for cancer patients. They only serve Orange County and Los Angeles though. But they belong as the nations HUGEST organization for cancer. But it takes a bus ride about twenty minutes and I am not strong enough to do that yet. But that IS my next step. I survived advanced stage cancer but my dear friend right now is dying of breast cancer. I still have this organization in my heart. When I am strong enough I will do that too.