Sep 06, 2014 3:19 PM GMT
I am ashamed not really of my sexuality, I am really just ashamed of my sexual behavior when I am by myself. I am confused about my personality. Example, I am in Fort Luaderdale till tuesday and my cousin is literally my opposite... He isn't gay, but he demeans women and it pisses me off. He is always checking every women out even if they have a boyfriend. I know we're men and that's who we are and I have thought about my male friends sexually and I have done the same with women. But there needs to be some degree of respect for people. People aren't objects, they'r living people and animal life is not an object. We as humans are blessed with the Creator's design and intellect to behave better, but we also have that animal sexual nature. I am not against sex, I am just saying that I need to be in a relationship and the sex needs to be meaningful. I never had a boyfriend before, hell I never made it to first base yet.