I lost all my attraction towards females. Not really happy.

  • Markz0ne45

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    Sep 09, 2014 12:43 PM GMT
    I know posting this on a gay site seems futile and silly but I need to express my frustration.

    In short, I had a bisexual growth throughout my childhood and teen years. It seems when I hit my late teens I just became gayer and gayer. Back in the day I had more of a preference for females and still want to be with females. I romantically am more inclined with women then men. Although I think both sexes are attractive, I always wanted to be with a woman over a man.

    There is even another problem, but since this is an LGBT site I can share it. I also was growing up wanting to be a female and those desires are still relevant. I would dressed up in my mom's clothing and had this memorable feel of liberation and knowing there was and is something feminine in me. Don't know if you guys accept reincarnation, but from my experience and others. I went into past life regression therapy and had past life results of being a female. I knew it wasn't my imagination, because you just have that gut feeling and your own intuition, I even doubted it at first.

    So here's the jist

    I am gay as of now
    I was always bisexual but preferred women
    I actually wished I was born female

    See how messed up I am?
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    Sep 09, 2014 1:18 PM GMT
    its really important to figure who you are.

    someone said it here and to repeat them; as soon as you reduce someone's sexuality to a single word, gay, straight its a loosing preposition. Everyone is complex and unique.
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    Sep 09, 2014 1:37 PM GMT
    I did the feminine survey test and I scored 80% female and 20% male

    I envisioned my inner man was 2 inches strapped up to a whipping post about to cop it from a 50 ft woman.

    If you wanna feel sexy in womans clothes then commit to it and work the runway mumma! just don't bottle up your urges otherwise its gonna get creepy.




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    Sep 09, 2014 3:07 PM GMT
    So what you're saying is that you are certain that you are not a lesbian.
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    Sep 09, 2014 3:11 PM GMT
    Same thing happened to me , with time just lost interest in women . I can't fight it anymore
  • Dystopia_

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    Sep 09, 2014 3:12 PM GMT
    Markz0ne45 saidI know posting this on a gay site seems futile and silly but I need to express my frustration.

    In short, I had a bisexual growth throughout my childhood and teen years. It seems when I hit my late teens I just became gayer and gayer. Back in the day I had more of a preference for females and still want to be with females. I romantically am more inclined with women then men. Although I think both sexes are attractive, I always wanted to be with a woman over a man.

    There is even another problem, but since this is an LGBT site I can share it. I also was growing up wanting to be a female and those desires are still relevant. I would dressed up in my mom's clothing and had this memorable feel of liberation and knowing there was and is something feminine in me. Don't know if you guys accept reincarnation, but from my experience and others. I went into past life regression therapy and had past life results of being a female. I knew it wasn't my imagination, because you just have that gut feeling and your own intuition, I even doubted it at first.

    So here's the jist

    I am gay as of now
    I was always bisexual but preferred women
    I actually wished I was born female

    See how messed up I am?


    Wtf man, you're not messed up. Do whatever the fuck you want to do. Don't get caught up in the social drama or what other people would think of you if they knew. I'm pretty sure most people judging you have worse skeletons in their closet. You're no different than a lot of people. You just have enough balls to admit your urges.
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    Sep 09, 2014 3:21 PM GMT
    You were always gay, and societal pressures confused you.
  • Destinharbor

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    Sep 09, 2014 3:50 PM GMT
    Sweetooth saidYou were always gay, and societal pressures confused you.

    This. Combined with the fact that when we are young, anything sexual is crazy wonderful. And girls can be nice. So it felt good. No psychological issue there. The women's clothing thing? Lots of guys go through that stage and some stay there, gay and straight. Not really all that big of a deal. So relax. Just enjoy being gay. No worries.
  • Markz0ne45

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    Sep 09, 2014 4:02 PM GMT
    Well I know everyone here is chill. But I know something isn't going right here. I don't pay. The societal pressure propaganda I was attracted to women for a significant chunk of my life.
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    Sep 09, 2014 4:19 PM GMT
    So what you're saying is, bisexuality doesn't really exist.

    (Exists room before flame war begins.)
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    Sep 09, 2014 4:26 PM GMT
    guido4life saidSame thing happened to me , with time just lost interest in women . I can't fight it anymore

    The problem I have if that I have to still RESPECT women, and like them. Even though I have no sexual interest in them.

    To do otherwise is to violate all the equality stuff I support. Women are equal, too. And in fact, female inequality is a Republican tenet I strongly oppose.

    But I dunno. I'm conflicted on this. I have lots of female friends, mostly lesbians. Because, I suppose, they're like men. I like a woman who's as tough as me.

    But what about the woman who isn't? Who's the stereotypical clueless & helpless housewife, who needs a man to organize her life for her?

    I find that model incredibly insulting to women. But they exist, they're all around me. And what do I do when I encounter them? I guess be polite and respectful, but realize they haven't got a brain of their own. Except what their husband tells them.

    I know so many women like this. And when their husband dies first, as they usually do, they are like children, haven't the slightest clue what to do. At my age, this is what I run into all the time.

    As a matter of manners I respect them, and attend them, show them courtesies. But beyond that, they are just lost souls to me.
  • Destinharbor

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    Sep 09, 2014 4:27 PM GMT
    Scruffypup saidSo what you're saying is, bisexuality doesn't really exist.

    (Exists room before flame war begins.)

    No, he's saying that if you do past life regression therapy and discover that you were a woman in an earlier incarnation, that you naturally wish you were a woman who prefers sex with women. No, wait. What he's saying is, um, um, um... But because of that he now wants sex with men because he did then but now isn't really a guy but still a woman and his mind missed the last incarnation. But his body was there. Here. Now.
  • Markz0ne45

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    Sep 09, 2014 4:39 PM GMT
    I didn't say that. I had gay feelings before regression therapy. They actually work and shouldn't be made light of.
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    Sep 09, 2014 4:54 PM GMT
    Markz0ne45 saidI didn't say that. I had gay feelings before regression therapy. They actually work and shouldn't be made light of.

    What is "regression therapy"?
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    Sep 09, 2014 4:57 PM GMT
    Oh! what a tangled web we weave...
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    Sep 09, 2014 4:57 PM GMT
    OP is talking about reincarnation, guys, not sexuality.
    and it is one of the things I don't believe in.
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    Sep 09, 2014 4:58 PM GMT
    Art_Deco said
    Markz0ne45 saidI didn't say that. I had gay feelings before regression therapy. They actually work and shouldn't be made light of.

    What is "regression therapy"?


    Idk but it sounds scary
  • Markz0ne45

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    Sep 09, 2014 4:58 PM GMT
    Art_Deco said
    Markz0ne45 saidI didn't say that. I had gay feelings before regression therapy. They actually work and shouldn't be made light of.

    What is "regression therapy"?


    We reincarnate and use hypnosis to uncover past life memories. It is on the rise and there is proof for naysayers.
  • Markz0ne45

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    Sep 09, 2014 5:03 PM GMT
    I mentioned reincarnation.its not the main focus.
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    Sep 09, 2014 5:09 PM GMT
    Markz0ne45 said
    Art_Deco said
    Markz0ne45 saidI didn't say that. I had gay feelings before regression therapy. They actually work and shouldn't be made light of.

    What is "regression therapy"?

    We reincarnate and use hypnosis to uncover past life memories. It is on the rise and there is proof for naysayers.

    Well, count me among the naysayers. I don't have a past life. I have THIS life. Nothing before, and nothing after. Plain & simple.
  • Markz0ne45

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    Sep 09, 2014 5:11 PM GMT
    Fine by me. I jUST accept things the way they're displayed. Its not a belief. I digress though. Let's talk about something else.
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    Sep 09, 2014 5:12 PM GMT
    Ok, so a few things are happening here.

    1. You say that your sexual feelings for women are fading, but you are still more romantically aligned with women? That's not unusual or fucked up at all. You're simply acknowledging the difference between your sexual orientation and romantic orientation.

    Your sexual orientation refers to the gender(s) you are most inclined to engage in sexual activity with.
    Your romantic orientation refers to the gender(s) you are most likely to want to pursue a relationship with.

    It might be uncommon for those two things to be polar opposite of each other, but it doesn't make you fucked up. It's also important to note that it is theorized that these two factors are NOT permanent and can change overtime, even for people who maintain the same identity pertaining to their sexual orientation for most of their life.

    Point is, don't fret about who you're attracted to. Aim for whoever will make you happiest without having to subject yourself to self-hatred.


    2. In regards to your feelings about wishing to be born a woman, you may be trans or genderqueer.

    There are a lot of misconceptions about what trans people are, and people seem to expect that they would fall under the same binary that cisgender men and women are expected to, but...they don't.

    Some people take hormones and pursue surgery to appear more feminine or masculine.
    Some people simply dress as the gender they feel they are.
    Some people have a non-permanent gender identity and feel more masculine or feminine at different points in their life.

    I would suggest seeking out some support groups that pertain to gender identity. They will be able to help you figure out your situation.

    The bottom line is that you shouldn't be anything because it is expected of you. You should be YOU! And if you can't quite figure out what you are at the moment, be open to the possibilities of what you can be.
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    Sep 09, 2014 5:30 PM GMT
    Sweetooth saidYou were always gay, and societal pressures confused you.
    yes man . Sex with girls I couldn't keep a hard on .
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    Sep 09, 2014 5:32 PM GMT
    I would say i wasn't confused so much , more of fighting it . I feel ashamed.
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    Sep 09, 2014 6:12 PM GMT
    JuanPablomv89 said
    Art_Deco said
    guido4life saidSame thing happened to me , with time just lost interest in women . I can't fight it anymore

    The problem I have if that I have to still RESPECT women, and like them. Even though I have no sexual interest in them.

    To do otherwise is to violate all the equality stuff I support. Women are equal, too. And in fact, female inequality is a Republican tenet I strongly oppose.

    But I dunno. I'm conflicted on this. I have lots of female friends, mostly lesbians. Because, I suppose, they're like men. I like a woman who's as tough as me.

    But what about the woman who isn't? Who's the stereotypical clueless & helpless housewife, who needs a man to organize her life for her?

    I find that model incredibly insulting to women. But they exist, they're all around me. And what do I do when I encounter them? I guess be polite and respectful, but realize they haven't got a brain of their own. Except what their husband tells them.

    I know so many women like this. And when their husband dies first, as they usually do, they are like children, haven't the slightest clue what to do. At my age, this is what I run into all the time.

    As a matter of manners I respect them, and attend them, show them courtesies. But beyond that, they are just lost souls to me.

    Here we go again. What do Republicans have to do with a lesbian tranny?.
    i respect women as well and that's why I can't be living a lie anymore. Religion is also important to me and is probably the biggest reason I fought temptations for so long ! I cry out to god seeking only his decision , Gabriel stands and confirms I've created my prison