My father is becoming more spiritual by the day that I'm even starting to think that I won't ever come out!!! I'll do things in secrecy forever and ever Amen!!

  • Slender95

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    Sep 12, 2014 12:32 PM GMT
    When we were growing up my father was never the type to pray or even talk about Jesus....Ever since we've been invited to this this church from last year early January he has been involved in the operation of the congregation a lot...I'm beginning to think he wants to become a Pastor!!I do love and believe in Jesus in Christ but I'm scared that him becoming a pastor ruin my plans of coming out at the age of 25 or above.....Children of pastors are expected to behave in a certain manner so what will the congregation say If they find out that I want to sleep with Men??...Christians will never understand me even if I were to be a good shepard of the lord!!I'm scared,I just wish my father would just find a demanding job that will make him slack his duties in the congregation so that at least he won't get appointed as a Pastor...I know I sound cruel,mean but once he becomes something very important in the church I won't even bother to come out!! I already find Men attractive and It's just a matter of time till I lose my Virginity....Sometimes I just wish the lord can send an angel in his dreams informing me that I'm Gay and unhappily in the closet...
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    Sep 12, 2014 1:31 PM GMT
    Pukszen24 said... I wish the lord can send an angel in his dreams informing me that I'm Gay and unhappily in the closet...
    for good or bad maybe your dreams come true. How can parents live with a child for 20y and not know he she is gay? I think he suspects so there is a lot of denial going on in your family.

    out your self if you think your family can contribute to your emotional well being. Likely they will not be able It will take some time for them to come around back to you if you try to talk to them about things.

    When your 50y and they are 80y you will need to take care of the parents. in between now and them you owe your parents less than you think. Their existence should not preclude you living your life.

    make it your new project to become more independent from your parents. both socially and economic. you can still love them right?
  • Slender95

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    Sep 13, 2014 3:05 PM GMT
    [quote][cite]pellaz said[/cite]
    Pukszen24 said... I wish the lord can send an angel in his dreams informing me that I'm Gay and unhappily in the closet...
    for good or bad maybe your dreams come true. How can parents live with a child for 20y and not know he she is gay? I think he suspects so there is a lot of denial going on in your family.

    out your self if you think your family can contribute to your emotional well being. Likely they will not be able It will take some time for them to come around back to you if you try to talk to them about things.

    When your 50y and they are 80y you will need to take care of the parents. in between now and them you owe your parents less than you think. Their existence should not preclude you living your life.

    make it your new project to become more independent from your parents. both socially and economic. you can still love them right?[/quo

    Yeah I'm beginning to think that there is denial in the family....My father tells it like it is I mean all he just have to do is just ask me....Yeah I'll forever love my parents unconditionally and I know they'll would do the say for me....With the way my father is behaving I don't think I will ever come out!!