David3K saidI havent seen my father in 24 years, and as far as I can tell I never met him because I have no memories of him, if he showed up now I would punch him in the face and keep walking.
But would he tell you he loves you in spite of your anger? Give life a chance. I know it is difficult. Maybe I am extremely blessed but what I hope I send out there is that Fathers do love you no matter who you are or what you are and of course some Fathers are going through more than others. Let go of the anger. Let it in man. The older they get the more beautiful they become. It's a spiritual journey brother.
"He loves me despite of my anger"? So now it's me the one who's wrong for not appreciating him? LOL - do you listen to what you're saying?
Even if he showed up and said he "loves me no matter what", why should I care?? He wasn't there when I needed him so now he can fuck off. "The older they get the more beautiful they become" that's 100% bullshit. The time for a man to be a father is when their children are young and during the teenage years. Its easy to get away during that time and come back later when the life of their offsprings is already developed and say "hi! i love" well fuck you. I'm glad it worked out for you but for the majority of people it doesn't work that way.