I still wish that I was

  • Matthew56

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    Oct 22, 2014 8:45 PM GMT
    I was not black and white instead as I try so hard to be attractive to white gay men but its like evertyhing I do jusy throws up in my face and when you really put your heart and get nothing back it stings
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    Oct 22, 2014 8:51 PM GMT
    tres miserable
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    Oct 22, 2014 8:56 PM GMT
    I don't get why you're so obsessed with attracting a white man icon_rolleyes.gif
  • Matthew56

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    Oct 22, 2014 8:57 PM GMT
    DannyW saidI don't get why you're so obsessed with attracting a white man icon_rolleyes.gif


    I am not really I like non white men just not really attracted to the majority of black men but you know how it is in the gay world white young you are pretty much put on a pedastdal and considered to be attractive
  • Matthew56

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    Oct 22, 2014 8:58 PM GMT
    And also the best thing is you do not really face much sexual racism
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    Oct 22, 2014 9:41 PM GMT
    And I was just recently thinking that we haven't had a Matthew56 self flagellating thread in awhile.
  • Matthew56

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    Oct 22, 2014 11:10 PM GMT
    Lumpyoatmeal saidAnd I was just recently thinking that we haven't had a Matthew56 self flagellating thread in awhile.


    Yeah I know but cannot help the way i feel
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    Oct 23, 2014 12:44 AM GMT
    Why do you grovel so hard for a white guy?
    News flash, they only have as much 'power' over you as you give them.
    Why on earth would you want to be with someone that would immediately judge you based on your skin colour?
    You do realise in the same token you are just as close minded about colour as all the white guys that reject you.
    Focus on the character and not the colour and maybe you'll actually find someone who will love and respect you and make you happy because you are YOU. Character, colour and all!!

    Usually I don't really like to reply to threads of this degree but I didn't want to see you continue to self sabotage yourself based something as trivial as skin. You are of colour, embrace it for it is NOTHING to be ashamed of.
    If any person, whatever colour they may be, would try to actually make you feel ashamed of your skin IS A COMPLETE WASTE OF TIME.

    All the trolls who go on about how white is such a privilege over other races are just tools and morons. For what it's worth, yeah I still think that there are a good number of people who have that "white prize" mentality (including yourself) but I think it's less common now than it was before. There are other white guys out there who aren't fuckwits but if you're searching for them in the wrong places like clubs then you will most likely never find anybody decent.

    Look to be fair, I see my own hypocriticism here because I admit I'm quite self deprecating (albeit not about my skin but it's still there) but I do honestly mean you well with everything I've said. I'm not having a go at you or scoffing at your 'preferences' but if it's gotten to this stage I feel you should reevaluate your priorities and realise there is so much more to offer than just skin colour.

    Sorry for sounding harsh, truly apologise for that and for the most part I believe grace is better than harshness. I just feel at this present time, you really needed to hear it as it is.
    I hope you take this as well as I truly meant it.
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    Oct 23, 2014 12:58 AM GMT
    zzzzzzz
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    Oct 23, 2014 10:56 AM GMT
    Well endowed with a long dick , that way I could suck myself and fuck myself,,, then I wouldn't be reliant on another guy to give me dick.
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    Oct 23, 2014 11:42 AM GMT
    Neons has a good point in this day and age and in this society in particular its easy to caught up in a white max world but only if you let yourself…

    The only advice I can give is that you wake up to yourself and have pride in your own beauty and own it so that others may drawn to your confidence first and then once they see what you see they will fall in line…

    Another piece of advice that is the most important advice I can give anyone is don't force it lol…..and this applies to everything we do in life do not force just relax and let things go into place easily. People pick up on someone who's trying to sell something and sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn't depending on how skilled of a salesman you are but in reality you shouldn't have to sell anything just be yourself and don't force yourself.

    amen sister
  • e2ksj3355

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    Oct 23, 2014 11:56 AM GMT
    MartyredNeons saidWhy do you grovel so hard for a white guy?
    News flash, they only have as much 'power' over you as you give them.
    Why on earth would you want to be with someone that would immediately judge you based on your skin colour?
    You do realise in the same token you are just as close minded about colour as all the white guys that reject you.
    Focus on the character and not the colour and maybe you'll actually find someone who will love and respect you and make you happy because you are YOU. Character, colour and all!!

    Usually I don't really like to reply to threads of this degree but I didn't want to see you continue to self sabotage yourself based something as trivial as skin. You are of colour, embrace it for it is NOTHING to be ashamed of.
    If any person, whatever colour they may be, would try to actually make you feel ashamed of your skin IS A COMPLETE WASTE OF TIME.

    All the trolls who go on about how white is such a privilege over other races are just tools and morons. For what it's worth, yeah I still think that there are a good number of people who have that "white prize" mentality (including yourself) but I think it's less common now than it was before. There are other white guys out there who aren't fuckwits but if you're searching for them in the wrong places like clubs then you will most likely never find anybody decent.

    Look to be fair, I see my own hypocriticism here because I admit I'm quite self deprecating (albeit not about my skin but it's still there) but I do honestly mean you well with everything I've said. I'm not having a go at you or scoffing at your 'preferences' but if it's gotten to this stage I feel you should reevaluate your priorities and realise there is so much more to offer than just skin colour.

    Sorry for sounding harsh, truly apologise for that and for the most part I believe grace is better than harshness. I just feel at this present time, you really needed to hear it as it is.
    I hope you take this as well as I truly meant it.


    This...

    It really is sad to see a lot of minorities obsess over a white guys. Like MartyredNeons mentioned, would you really want to be with someone who would pass you up based on your skin color? Not all white guys have it easy..some are hot and some aren't. I don't think skin color makes them automatically more attractive.
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    Oct 23, 2014 12:04 PM GMT
    The OP says "in the gay world" like he has been in every city on the planet.....icon_rolleyes.gificon_rolleyes.gificon_rolleyes.gificon_rolleyes.gif
  • Matthew56

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    Oct 24, 2014 6:02 AM GMT
    e2ksj3355 said
    MartyredNeons saidWhy do you grovel so hard for a white guy?
    News flash, they only have as much 'power' over you as you give them.
    Why on earth would you want to be with someone that would immediately judge you based on your skin colour?
    You do realise in the same token you are just as close minded about colour as all the white guys that reject you.
    Focus on the character and not the colour and maybe you'll actually find someone who will love and respect you and make you happy because you are YOU. Character, colour and all!!

    Usually I don't really like to reply to threads of this degree but I didn't want to see you continue to self sabotage yourself based something as trivial as skin. You are of colour, embrace it for it is NOTHING to be ashamed of.
    If any person, whatever colour they may be, would try to actually make you feel ashamed of your skin IS A COMPLETE WASTE OF TIME.

    All the trolls who go on about how white is such a privilege over other races are just tools and morons. For what it's worth, yeah I still think that there are a good number of people who have that "white prize" mentality (including yourself) but I think it's less common now than it was before. There are other white guys out there who aren't fuckwits but if you're searching for them in the wrong places like clubs then you will most likely never find anybody decent.

    Look to be fair, I see my own hypocriticism here because I admit I'm quite self deprecating (albeit not about my skin but it's still there) but I do honestly mean you well with everything I've said. I'm not having a go at you or scoffing at your 'preferences' but if it's gotten to this stage I feel you should reevaluate your priorities and realise there is so much more to offer than just skin colour.

    Sorry for sounding harsh, truly apologise for that and for the most part I believe grace is better than harshness. I just feel at this present time, you really needed to hear it as it is.
    I hope you take this as well as I truly meant it.


    This...

    It really is sad to see a lot of minorities obsess over a white guys. Like MartyredNeons mentioned, would you really want to be with someone who would pass you up based on your skin color? Not all white guys have it easy..some are hot and some aren't. I don't think skin color makes them automatically more attractive.


    But it really does help
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    Oct 24, 2014 6:19 AM GMT
    why do you want to be something you cannot possibly achieve
    there is more to life than just looks
    You seem like a mentally weak person either way, even if you found that this is a way for you to get attention here or you actually feel that way, you are so narrow minded
  • Matthew56

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    Oct 26, 2014 7:27 AM GMT
    [quote][cite]Bonapart said[/cite]why do you want to be something you cannot possibly achieve
    there is more to life than just looks
    You seem like a mentally weak person either way, even if you found that this is a way for you to get attention here or you actually feel that way, you are so narrow minded [/quote

    You must be joking the gay world is heavily focused on looks and race
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    Oct 26, 2014 7:45 AM GMT
    Matthew56 said[quote][cite]Bonapart said[/cite]why do you want to be something you cannot possibly achieve
    there is more to life than just looks
    You seem like a mentally weak person either way, even if you found that this is a way for you to get attention here or you actually feel that way, you are so narrow minded [/quote

    You must be joking the gay world is heavily focused on looks and race

    Its not just the gay world, you wouldnt get much luckier if you were straight! icon_lol.gif Really you should get over this already.
  • Nayro

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    Oct 26, 2014 8:53 AM GMT
    Do what Michael Jackson did
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    Oct 26, 2014 11:05 AM GMT
    I shoulding do this but...

    shopping?q=tbn:ANd9GcS7lU8_wmjrp5_znTIan

    problem sloved

    I'm being facetious
  • Matthew56

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    Oct 26, 2014 11:11 AM GMT
    Riko_sal saidI shoulding do this but...

    shopping?q=tbn:ANd9GcS7lU8_wmjrp5_znTIan

    problem sloved

    I'm being facetious


    Lol skin bleaching what would that do nothing
  • Nayro

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    Oct 26, 2014 11:52 AM GMT
    Matthew56 said
    Riko_sal saidI shoulding do this but...

    shopping?q=tbn:ANd9GcS7lU8_wmjrp5_znTIan

    problem sloved

    I'm being facetious


    Lol skin bleaching what would that do nothing


    I don't think either Riko or I were actually serious...

    What I was trying to say is that you have to get over yourself. This is not the first topic you make about this, if you really do struggle as much with the fact you are who you are, go seek help. You're only making your own life harder for yourself. If you want to change something you can't change, you have to learn to accept it in one way or another.
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    Matthew56 said
    Riko_sal saidI shoulding do this but...

    shopping?q=tbn:ANd9GcS7lU8_wmjrp5_znTIan

    problem sloved

    I'm being facetious


    Lol skin bleaching what would that do nothing

    Yeah you would be white but still have your black features! I suggest you undergo surgery too. Might take some months/ years to recover, go bankrupt but Totally worth it!