I am not happy still

  • Matthew56

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    Mar 12, 2015 12:44 AM GMT
    I still don't feel happy with myself despite the reassurances I get from people on here I still feel ugly and shit all because I am black. Sometimes I wish I could be white/caucasiod in order to be appreciated more in the gay world. I just feel trapped in a black men's body I don't wanna be black I
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    Mar 12, 2015 12:48 AM GMT
    Matthew56 saidI still don't feel happy with myself despite the reassurances I get from people on here I still feel ugly and shit all because I am black. Sometimes I wish I could be white/caucasiod in order to be appreciated more in the gay world. I just feel trapped in a black men's body I don't wanna be black I


    Well, do a Michael Jackson then, but I suspect once done you'll complain that you wish you were still black appearing, either that or you'll start mutilating yourself like Michael did in order to gain your perceived notions of what white facial features are.

  • Matthew56

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    Mar 12, 2015 12:51 AM GMT
    meninlove said
    Matthew56 saidI still don't feel happy with myself despite the reassurances I get from people on here I still feel ugly and shit all because I am black. Sometimes I wish I could be white/caucasiod in order to be appreciated more in the gay world. I just feel trapped in a black men's body I don't wanna be black I


    Well, do a Michael Jackson then, but I suspect once done you'll complain that you wish you were still black appearing, either that or you'll start mutilating yourself like Michael did in order to gain your perceived notions of what white facial features are.



    I dunno what to do would be interesting to be white for a day
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    Mar 12, 2015 12:52 AM GMT
    Okay, who is this REALLY.
  • Matthew56

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    Mar 12, 2015 12:53 AM GMT
    eagermuscle saidOkay, who is this REALLY.
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    Me
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    Mar 12, 2015 12:58 AM GMT
    Matthew56 said
    meninlove said
    Matthew56 saidI still don't feel happy with myself despite the reassurances I get from people on here I still feel ugly and shit all because I am black. Sometimes I wish I could be white/caucasiod in order to be appreciated more in the gay world. I just feel trapped in a black men's body I don't wanna be black I


    Well, do a Michael Jackson then, but I suspect once done you'll complain that you wish you were still black appearing, either that or you'll start mutilating yourself like Michael did in order to gain your perceived notions of what white facial features are.



    I dunno what to do would be interesting to be white for a day


    That's doable. Go to a University with a makeup special effects crew and let them make you temporarily white. Then walk around and enjoy how much you're not only ignored, but simply part of a large mass of humans of a certain colour. You will then discover whites are as discriminating against each other, and reject each other for all kinds of reasons other than skin colour.

    You have always had one gigantic, massive, glaring flaw in your reasoning: you think whites don't reject each other.
    You've been so busy completely enamored with your angst and anguish you have paid no attention to all the topics on here by white guys who can't get a date with other white guys.
  • Matthew56

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    Mar 12, 2015 1:23 AM GMT
    [quote][cite]meninlove said[/cite]
    Matthew56 said
    meninlove said
    Matthew56 saidI still don't feel happy with myself despite the reassurances I get from people on here I still feel ugly and shit all because I am black. Sometimes I wish I could be white/caucasiod in order to be appreciated more in the gay world. I just feel trapped in a black men's body I don't wanna be black I


    Well, do a Michael Jackson then, but I suspect once done you'll complain that you wish you were still black appearing, either that or you'll start mutilating yourself like Michael did in order to gain your perceived notions of what white facial features are.



    I dunno what to do would be interesting to be white for a day


    That's doable. Go to a University with a makeup special effects crew and let them make you temporarily white. Then walk around and enjoy how much you're not only ignored, but simply part of a large mass of humans of a certain colour. You will then discover whites are as discriminating against each other, and reject each other for all kinds of reasons other than skin colour.

    You have always had one gigantic, massive, glaring flaw in your reasoning: you think whites don't reject each other.
    You've been so busy completely enamored with your angst and anguish you have paid no attention to all the topics on here by white guys who can't get a date with other white guys. [/quote

    If they reject them it's only because they are too old over their age limit or not considered to be attractive the latter which can be worked on
  • monstapex

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    Mar 12, 2015 5:35 AM GMT
    you remind me of an old friend
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    Mar 12, 2015 6:11 AM GMT
    What colour do you want to be then?
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    Mar 12, 2015 6:16 AM GMT
    Matthew56 saidI still don't feel happy with myself despite the reassurances I get from people on here I still feel ugly and shit all because I am black. Sometimes I wish I could be white/caucasiod in order to be appreciated more in the gay world. I just feel trapped in a black men's body I don't wanna be black I


    You are beautiful. You may not see it, but the fact is that you're alive and seemingly have your health. A lot of people would rather have a good life, rather than looks... let alone wanting to be a different race. Your race shouldn't define you, you are a human being. We're all human beings. If you keep feeling this way, you can message me and we can talk more about it. I know what it's like having some part of you that you think the gay community wouldn't appreciate (my KP), but after posting about it on here I found out otherwise and felt better.

  • bobbobbob

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    Mar 12, 2015 6:20 AM GMT
    Matthew56 saidI still don't feel happy with myself despite the reassurances I get from people on here I still feel ugly and shit all because I am black. Sometimes I wish I could be white/caucasiod in order to be appreciated more in the gay world. I just feel trapped in a black men's body I don't wanna be black I


    ^^^

    Those words say everything that needs to be said about why you're not happy.
  • Matthew56

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    Mar 12, 2015 6:39 AM GMT
    hairyandym saidWhat colour do you want to be then?


    White or any other caucasiod race
  • metta

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    Mar 12, 2015 6:39 AM GMT




    But seriously, this is not something that I think a message board can help with very much. Personally, I think you need counseling.

    You base your happiness on what exactly? Happiness/contentment comes from within.

    Really, what you also might want to do is try some good Insight Meditation to give yourself a break from your negative thoughts.

    Take care!
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    Mar 12, 2015 8:24 AM GMT
    I think very few people are "happy" nowadays if we understand the real meaning of it, you are not the only one.

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    Mar 12, 2015 8:39 AM GMT
    I know I'm a hidden profile right now so most of what I say will mean zip to people.
    Firstly why do you want to be white?
    Do you feel that being white will therefore allow you to attract more white men?
    I ask because if that were the case, there are plenty of white guys who are into black men so it really has nothing to do about being white as opposed to just finding a nice guy.

    Honestly though I feel like if you spent half as much energy at being a positive person as you do constantly wanting to be white, you might've found a nice guy by now.
    Like honestly what is it you think you're achieving by constantly complaining about how you're black?

    Do you think someone will out of the blue offer you a life changing surgery/medication to turn you white?
    I feel like you are using this whole wanting to be white thing as way of saying that you feel that white gay men are racist for not being into you.

    Seriously though, you constantly whining about wishing you were white heavily wreaks of desperation that even if a nice white guy would be into you, seeing this would make you look really unattractive in his eyes because of your personality and not because of your looks.
    I've even seen on a few threads a white guy call you attractive but somehow you seem to miss it.

    You're dealt with the hand you're given in life so you can start playing, or just whine and moan about your hand and completely miss the game entirely (by "game" I mean "life" and by "playing" I mean "living" lol just to be clear).

    I'm not attacking you or anything so I'm sorry if it comes across that way, it's just that life's too short to waste time on things you can't actually change and time isn't a resource you get back.
    Spend it wisely because you can only spend each moment once and then it's gone.
  • venue35

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    Mar 12, 2015 11:10 AM GMT
    This bitch is trolling to the gawds with these threadsicon_lol.gif
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    Mar 12, 2015 12:14 PM GMT
    eagermuscle saidOkay, who is this REALLY.


    Matthew56 presents 3 pics of a fellow whom he finds unattractive.
    Are these pics his or borrowed?

  • NeuralShock

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    Mar 12, 2015 1:11 PM GMT
    meninlove said
    Matthew56 said
    meninlove said
    Matthew56 saidI still don't feel happy with myself despite the reassurances I get from people on here I still feel ugly and shit all because I am black. Sometimes I wish I could be white/caucasiod in order to be appreciated more in the gay world. I just feel trapped in a black men's body I don't wanna be black I


    Well, do a Michael Jackson then, but I suspect once done you'll complain that you wish you were still black appearing, either that or you'll start mutilating yourself like Michael did in order to gain your perceived notions of what white facial features are.



    I dunno what to do would be interesting to be white for a day


    That's doable. Go to a University with a makeup special effects crew and let them make you temporarily white. Then walk around and enjoy how much you're not only ignored, but simply part of a large mass of humans of a certain colour. You will then discover whites are as discriminating against each other, and reject each other for all kinds of reasons other than skin colour.

    You have always had one gigantic, massive, glaring flaw in your reasoning: you think whites don't reject each other.
    You've been so busy completely enamored with your angst and anguish you have paid no attention to all the topics on here by white guys who can't get a date with other white guys.


    I agree 100% with this.

    I am white and decently muscular and athletic and I get rejected by guys lmao
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    Mar 12, 2015 3:00 PM GMT
    NeuralShock said
    meninlove said
    Matthew56 said
    meninlove said
    Matthew56 saidI still don't feel happy with myself despite the reassurances I get from people on here I still feel ugly and shit all because I am black. Sometimes I wish I could be white/caucasiod in order to be appreciated more in the gay world. I just feel trapped in a black men's body I don't wanna be black I


    Well, do a Michael Jackson then, but I suspect once done you'll complain that you wish you were still black appearing, either that or you'll start mutilating yourself like Michael did in order to gain your perceived notions of what white facial features are.



    I dunno what to do would be interesting to be white for a day


    That's doable. Go to a University with a makeup special effects crew and let them make you temporarily white. Then walk around and enjoy how much you're not only ignored, but simply part of a large mass of humans of a certain colour. You will then discover whites are as discriminating against each other, and reject each other for all kinds of reasons other than skin colour.

    You have always had one gigantic, massive, glaring flaw in your reasoning: you think whites don't reject each other.
    You've been so busy completely enamored with your angst and anguish you have paid no attention to all the topics on here by white guys who can't get a date with other white guys.


    I agree 100% with this.

    I am white and decently muscular and athletic and I get rejected by guys lmao


    Stop saying you are muscular. You are NOT!!!

    ...plus your face is busted so no wonder you get rejected....icon_lol.gif
  • themark026

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    Mar 12, 2015 3:20 PM GMT
    It is a harsh reality, but one needs to look yourself in the mirror, focus on every little imperfection you can see, and make peace with it.

    I'm still on my way doing that, but already the differences are palpable. Yes, I still get hurt by rejection, but it no longer defines me.

    Relax bro, you are as ugly/unattractive as you choose to be.

  • metta

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    Mar 12, 2015 3:24 PM GMT
    themark026 saidIt is a harsh reality, but one needs to look yourself in the mirror, focus on every little imperfection you can see, and make peace with it.

    I'm still on my way doing that, but already the differences are palpable. Yes, I still get hurt by rejection, but it no longer defines me.

    Relax bro, you are as ugly/unattractive as you choose to be.




    I get what you are saying but being black is not an imperfection. I realize that is not what you are trying to say but he really needs professional counseling. His thought process is not healthy.
  • themark026

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    Mar 12, 2015 3:31 PM GMT
    metta8 said
    themark026 saidIt is a harsh reality, but one needs to look yourself in the mirror, focus on every little imperfection you can see, and make peace with it.

    I'm still on my way doing that, but already the differences are palpable. Yes, I still get hurt by rejection, but it no longer defines me.

    Relax bro, you are as ugly/unattractive as you choose to be.




    I get what you are saying but being black is not an imperfection. I realize that is not what you are trying to say but he really needs professional counseling. His thought process is not healthy.


    I sense that there is some meta-knowledge about this guy that I am missing. And no, my comment was not about race inferiority.

    Perhaps you are right, although a lot of people suffer from bad self-esteem (I battle it constantly as a collateral to my depression)
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    Mar 12, 2015 4:29 PM GMT
    Might I suggest your outlook, your spirit, your soul are blacker and uglier than your outward appearance. Seek professional help and work on those things. Once you calm the inner turmoil you will love yourself and your blackness.
  • CX838

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    Mar 12, 2015 4:37 PM GMT
    Hmm... Just sort of same here. Of cos I am not black. My family originally from Hong Kong and Japan. My grandma is Portuguese. So people call me White Asian. It is a little annoying.
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    Mar 12, 2015 4:46 PM GMT
    CX838 saidHmm... Just sort of same here. Of cos I am not black. My family originally from Hong Kong and Japan. My grandma is Portuguese. So people call me White Asian. It is a little annoying.


    Why do Asians tend to cover up their face when on gay social media sites???