Contemplating suicide

  • Musicman91

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    Apr 10, 2015 5:12 AM GMT
    I just feel trapped and alone. I had to leave school for finical reasons and I am working a dead end job that I hate more and more as the days go by. I have nobody I can talk to. I just feel trapped and the walls are closing in on me.

    I feel the only ways to escape are death or just packing a bag and leaving. And I don't know where to go.
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    Apr 10, 2015 5:22 AM GMT
    Sorry you're going through a rough time. Hang in there and hope things pick up for you.
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    Apr 10, 2015 5:45 AM GMT


    I left you an RJ mail.
  • mystery905

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    Apr 10, 2015 5:48 AM GMT
    You're only 23: you've got your whole life in front of you.

    Things will change, just keep your chin up!
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    Apr 10, 2015 5:48 AM GMT
    Don't harm yourself. Hard times might make it seem like that is the only way out, but life has lows that you have to fight your way through. Suicide is not the answer, because once it's done, there is no coming back.
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    Apr 10, 2015 5:57 AM GMT
    Don't think that way. We all have our hard times. Things will get better eventually, it may take some time, but there is always something good after the bad times. That's just the nature of life.

    Hurting yourself won't change things. You need to just focus on what is making you feel this way, and figure out things that will help you feel better. Even if they're small things like taking a walk or watching a show or listening to music, just do things to make you feel better.

    Letting the bad feelings take over you is what is making you feel this way. You need to find a way to take charge of your life again so that YOU can be happy. Don't let other people and circumstances bring you down.
  • metta

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    Apr 10, 2015 5:58 AM GMT
    I'm sorry that you are having such a tough time and I hope that things start to turn around soon for you. Please know that most people go through tough times in life. Those times come and go. A temporary problem does not need a permanent solution.

    Please call this number:

    Trevor Lifeline now at 866-488-7386
  • metta

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    Apr 10, 2015 6:04 AM GMT
    Set some realistic goals and take steps towards them. What kind of career would you like to have? Maybe we can help you come up with a plan to help you get where you want to be.
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    Apr 10, 2015 6:08 AM GMT
    So pack a bag and leave. Scranton doesn't sound like the liveliest place to live anyway. Killing oneself is never a good option. Go forth, prosper and live your life! All the best…icon_smile.gif
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    Apr 10, 2015 6:20 AM GMT
    Hang in there boo. Trust me, we all have our fair share of issues. Give your self a little time to sort things out. But things will fall into place eventually. Be string even when you feel you are weak..
  • venue35

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    Apr 10, 2015 10:55 AM GMT
    Musicman..you had posted late last year that you had uncontrollable violent thought. Now you are thinking of suicide. It's clear that you may need professional help.
    That's nothing to be ashamed of. I hope you find a professional who can help you get through this.
    Depression is a very serious matter. Stay strong..
    You are a really good looking guy with your whole life ahead of you..remember that!
  • Elian

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    Apr 10, 2015 10:57 AM GMT
    Honestly, suicide is never worth it. Find new hobbies, that always help. But if you are feeling that bad... The world is yours, mate.

    I was feeling very depressive and in the closet in my home country so I applied for jobs everywhere. Got out of there, got a fresh start as a gay guy and made loads of people that like the real me (which is exactly the same as old me but not lying about being into men).

    I cab say from experience that you can "use" being gay as a positive thing to find high quality friends and an extended family. Go for a fresh start if thats what you need, do sonething that makes you happy/fulfilled, otherwise the world will miss on you.
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    Apr 10, 2015 11:34 AM GMT
    You can overcome your negative moods without escaping from your life. It could be that you just need a bit of support from a professional. You can make an appointment with your doctor and let him know you're feeling down and need some support, and they can recommend the right sort of help for you.
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    Apr 10, 2015 12:48 PM GMT
    hugs bro.

    Whenever you have such thoughts, face them. Be aware that You have the potential to fight back. Don't give up.

    Once a great man told me "where there's work, there's food" and he is true.
    So, don't worry, as long as you can do something with your hands and feet and thoughts and actions you're totally fine. Keep your head straight and spirits high. Have faith in yourself. If your work is not making you happy, look for new during free time...it may take time, but, at the end you'll find the one that suits you.

    what about Studies?
    If not today, tomorrow...you can become a professor if you wish to, just by staying back at home and focusing on your interests.

    This is not a word play to flatter you. I speak the truth, from personal experience. My business is to tell you the truth and not to flatter anyone.


    Feel free to ping me anytime...

    My best wishes.
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    Apr 10, 2015 1:01 PM GMT
    We have get to a point in life where we feel like there is no way out. But the bad times don't last forever. Who knows,something great could happen tomorrow. Hang in there man.
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    Apr 10, 2015 4:13 PM GMT
    anyone that has an active life has felt elation an despair. It is unfair to judge your life that significant just right now when it will feel like just a second compare to years.
  • Destinharbor

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    Apr 10, 2015 5:10 PM GMT
    Tell someone close by that you trust. Sometimes just saying it out loud helps relieve the pressure. Everything can be fixed in time. Give yourself time.
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    Apr 10, 2015 7:18 PM GMT
    Dear OP. As you can see, there's a lot of love here for you. I don't think anyone will say anything unkind to you. I do think that if you're seriously considering the quick escape of suicide a gay dating site may not be the best place to go to. 911 might be better. Or get yourself to an emergency room. Or have a good friend babysit you. I'm not that the day after you suicide will be any better for you than the day before you suicide.
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    Apr 10, 2015 7:58 PM GMT
    The important thing to remember is that you are not alone. You also need to take action.

    Seek professional mental health care help nearby. Call a hotline if you need to.

    Remember: this, too, shall pass. It's temporary.

    Folks can't help you if they don't know. Seek MEDICAL help NOW. There are lots of resources, but...they can't help you if they don't know.
  • FRE0

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    Apr 10, 2015 8:05 PM GMT
    Musicman91 saidI just feel trapped and alone. I had to leave school for finical reasons and I am working a dead end job that I hate more and more as the days go by. I have nobody I can talk to. I just feel trapped and the walls are closing in on me.

    I feel the only ways to escape are death or just packing a bag and leaving. And I don't know where to go.


    I was once in a similar situation but handled it differently. I took night classes and got a trade school certificate in industrial electronics which greatly boosted my income. Then, I took night courses for six consecutive years working towards my degree. After that, having saved enough money, I quit my job, became a full-time student, and got my degree in one year.

    There are ways out of your situation, but it will take time and effort. If you take night classes while working full-time, you will be much to busy to think about personal problems. Explore all reasonable options and choose the one that seems most likely to succeed. In any case, it is not hopeless unless you treat it as hopeless.
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    Apr 10, 2015 8:24 PM GMT
    I think you should talk to a counselor or a therapist and think that there are many people in worse situation. Bad times are hard for everyone, just hang in there, and try to change things gradually. And keep being positive. icon_smile.gif
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    Apr 10, 2015 9:58 PM GMT
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    Don't give up, bud.
  • Lincsbear

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    Apr 10, 2015 10:32 PM GMT
    Sorry to hear of your troubles, Musicman91. As many have posted above, you`re not unique or alone. We`ve all faced these feelings at some time. And they will pass, given time, however bad they may seem now. I`ve seen it myself recently.
    2011 was when things went downhill for me: my sister was diagnosed with terminal pancreatic cancer and died that year; work was minimal and poorly paid/low satisfaction; life seemed poor indeed. I also found myself in a terrible dilemma whereby a promise I made to her meant deceiving the rest of my family. At this point I put aside any pride and spoke to a detached professional. This helped, but I still closed in on myself and cared less, even to the point of washing being a chore I couldn`t face every day.
    Then late summer, 2012, I had contact with a guy online out of the blue and things began to improve. His gentle but persistent concern brought me back to life where I began to care again for myself. He actually showed me something about myself I had missed; the decline into depression. I slowly began to live again. It`s remarkable as I`m the biggest critic of this internet business!
    Now I face the future with a lot more confidence and am contemplating life with this guy instead of despite him!
    As other guys have said, you need to be strong and survive for now. Better times will come, I`m sure.
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    Apr 10, 2015 10:50 PM GMT
    Please seek help from a professional. It really can help you to put things in perspective for you to move onward and upward.
    Been there, done that and it helped me. icon_smile.gif
  • Breeman

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    Apr 10, 2015 10:56 PM GMT
    You're not alone Musicman. I've been through that at your age. Besides the advice you're getting from the guys here, look to your friends for support as well.