Inque saidI was on a date with a guy a few days ago and he wasn't really physically my type. But because I hadn't had sex in a while I decided to get physical anyway and try to make out with him. He was very much into PDA and I didn't wanna be anywhere people could see us. I don't know why but I feel this mix of embarrassment and shame and fear.
Does anyone else i go through this?
When you're using words like "shame" and "fear" it's probably more than just a PDA aversion. You're ashamed of being gay... or at least, of other people knowing it.
Which is how a lot of people feel. I'd advise you to try to work through it though man. You have the potential to lose out on a lot of good partners because of this. I've been through enough, fought enough battles to express myself, for instance, that I'd have a hard time dating someone ashamed of our relationship.
Straight up man: shame ain't sexy. The person you're with (and you!) deserve better. You can get over this.
Good luck man!