May 07, 2015 1:08 AM GMT
The thing is that I like to look at handsome men whenever I'm out of home. At the street, in the stores, the buss... If I go outside I'll start to look for hot guys to fuel my perverted sex fantasies. The thing is that, when I find a particularly attractive guy, I feel depressed, yeah, because I think that 1) A guy like him would never put his eyes on me and 2) I compare myself to that man and I start to play to "finding the differences" which are many. It's difficult to try to build a self esteem if I can't help but to feel inferior to any other man I see. Sometimes only a book can stop me to look at men.